And the problem with hello is, that you've got to say goodbye.

2011-01-17T03:02:00.000+11:00

And so, today is the one thousand eight hundred and twenty fifth day.

My, oh my.

2011-01-12T00:26:00.002+11:00

What do you do when your heart's in the most broken state?

What do you do when you see all your hopes let down?

What do you do when the person you love says the most hurtful things?

What do you do when you know you're stepping into a relationship you shouldn't be anywhere near?

What do you do when everything you pre-conceived about someone seems to all be a fiction now?

How do you cope being a friend to someone whom you were once crazily in love with and never quite gotten over?

How long does it take before you break down at your own lie of "As long as he's happy, I'm happy"?

How much does it take?

She tried giving her all, but it wasn't enough.

So someone tell her, what's the stake, really.

Will she always be at the losing end?

2010-12-27T04:14:00.003+11:00

You know how it is? Stepping into a party filled with strangers looking at you awkwardly walking in while you frantically scan the room for the one person who invited you? And you get even more awkward because you know every pore of your body is screaming "LET ME OUT OF HERE!!"

But it's a little different this time, because you do know everyone now. But how do you fill those gaps that allowed weeks to slip by, how do you fill those spaces that should have been filled with heartfelt concern and superficial greetings?

I know I should really go, get me grounded into something I should not be running away from for who knows what. But the first step out of this exclusive shell I've chosen to retreat in is always the hardest. For now, I've gotta believe the world's embracing my entrance.

On a lighter note, Christmas this year was spent with the family in a debut fashion.

"Sometimes you have to pretend that you're happy and fine. Untill you realise that your pretension has become your strength to move on." - Foreverisjustaword @ tumblr

2010-10-14T18:52:00.002+11:00

I believe in a lifetime, at one point of your life, you'd find a special someone.

Not the ones you fall in love with and have butterflies in your stomach for, but the ones you entrust your darkest secret with - that secret you're so ashamed of, that secret that makes you think it's the end of the world if anyone else knew.

This special someone I'm talking about is the one you know you can call at 4.15am and you so know she'll scream at you for the first 20 seconds but will then say "hey, what's wrong?" This special someone knows the difference when your brows are furrowed - whether it means "I'm thinking" or "I'm so mad at you right now." She knows when you open your gift and you're faking that "Oh my goodness I love it so much! Thank you!!" When you're actually thinking "This gift is useless. I so wanted that pair of earrings instead."

Oh yeah, she knows. Trust me, she knows when you're faking it.

And I'm proud to say as I'm writing this, I've got a couple of my closest friends flashing through my head.

And you know what, as much as I haven't met that man whom I want to spend the rest of my life with, I thank God that I've got these friends to go through emotional nights, cranky days and just share random snippets of my life with.

You know, you girls can actually be the template for my future boyfriend. With some editing of course. ;)

2010-10-14T02:34:00.002+11:00

This is the sweetest thing.

Source: http://fuckyeahhlove.tumblr.com

To the Guy She Chose

Hey Guy She Chose,

I wrote you this letter to let you know just how lucky you are to have her. I wanted you to realize the privileges and the obligations you have, now that you and her have a “thing” already. After months of secretly hating you, I think I’ve finally accepted the fact that she chose you. She gave you the privilege to spoil her, to hold her, to hug her, to kiss her, and to love her. She chose to make herself vulnerable to you and you alone. I hope you’ve realized just how hard it was to get that close to her.

We haven’t formally met but I found out quite a few things about you already. Yes, I did some sort of a background check on you; but, it was just to see if you were indeed the better choice. Fortunately or unfortunately, you were and still are, I hope. The mere fact that you’re sort of together now, already shows that you are better than me. I just hope you won’t make the same mistake I did.

With that, don’t assume that she’ll give you hints for you to make a move. She expects you to take the initiative. Don’t belittle her anger. She can be a real bitch if she wanted and can tear you to pieces. Don’t underestimate her determination and perseverance to get what she wants. She’s part of her dream school’s cheer squad—one of the most prestigious squads in the country. Don’t be a sissy; show her how much she means to you. She can be a bit dense sometimes. Don’t change her. Don’t hurt her. Don’t expect more than what she can give. Most importantly, don’t give up on her. That would be the stupidest thing you’d dare do in your life.

She may not be the best debater, but she fights for what she believes in. She may not be the best basketball player, but she tries her best. She may not have the best grades, but she is intelligent. She may not be the best dancer, but she can bust a move. She may not be part of Victoria Secret’s Angels, but she is beautiful. She may not be as generous as Mother Teresa, but she does have a heart. She may not be so sweet at the start, but she can give you one thing she knows you can break—her heart. To cut it short, she was, is, and will always be an awesome girl. She’s one of those girls that would have real impact on your life, whether you realize it now or not. She’s the type of girl you’d always care for, no matter what happens. She has the capability to push you to make that bold leap.

In the end, this is less than half of what you’d discover about her. There is an infinite number of ways and words to describe her, but all of them still wouldn’t be enough. You have the privilege to know how much of a great girl she is. You have the chance to spoil her as much as you can. You have the joy to hold her hand as long as you want. You have the pleasure to hug her as tight as you can. You have the privilege to kiss her as passionately as you can. You have the honor to love her as much as you possibly can. You are immensely lucky. Don’t waste your time with her. You may not get another. However, it shouldn’t be all about her. So, smile when she makes you happy. Let her know when she makes you mad. Miss her when she’s not there. Be the greatest man you can possibly be when you’re with her. She’s not just some other girl. She is worth every breath, every broken arm, every smile, every tear, and every second of every minute of every day. Never forget that.

Sincerely,

The One Who Can Finally Move On

2010-10-14T01:08:00.003+11:00

I've been watching Drop Dead Diva and you know what, I am so proud of this show.

It is perhaps the few American tv shows that doesn't have any sex scenes at all. A few romantic kisses here and there but no real steamy, raunchy ones that makes it awkward when your parents catch you watching it.

And guess what, for me, that is such a bonus factor. This show has so many underlying values and morals that I don't even know where to begin.

Sure many of us like a few passionate scenes in our shows once in awhile, it does spice things up a little. But Hollywood seems to be taking it too far at times.

I appreciate the honesty of this show. I like the fact that families can get together and watch this show on the telly together. This series perhaps doesn't possess the star qualities of the makings of a one hit wonder that comes with sex, scandals and lies but it speaks up for a marginalised community. It goes against the conventional and deals with issues like bullying, ostracising, unconventional ways that people deal with grief, challenging social norms.

I like how every episode I learn something new - whether it's a new fact or an emotional lesson.

Season 3 is highly anticipated.

Whoever is reading this, should give this show a shot. ;)

2010-10-09T06:35:00.003+11:00

I miss writing, but I don't know what to write about.

It seems mundane to blog about everyday life in general and I've got all these random thoughts running through my head but none seems substantial enough to pen down. (This being one of them)

And you who are still reading, good on you. I am very proud of you, you indeed are a really good friend and you should make yourself known to me.

*****

She fumbles around in the dark, grasping the empty air in front of her.

She can't see a thing, not even her fingers. The trickle of one drop of cold sweat tickles her left temple and triggered the waves of panic in her. She cocks her head, desperate to listen to something other than her pounding heartbeat and the constant ticking of the clockwork mechanism.

She holds her breath, waiting for something to happen, someone to come through.

Then it hit her, nothing is going to happen.

She's stuck here in this capsule of frozen time.

2009-09-22T00:02:00.002+10:00

* I can't wait for Gold Coast next Monday!! My first real overseas trip on a plane with friends only! Not school-organized, no parents, no teachers! WOOOOHOOO!!! And I can get to wear all the new summer clothes I bought! Best! HAHA. :P

* As frequency lessens, I start believing that maybe its not time, maybe I'm not even ready, maybe I don't even know what I want. Small changes make big differences.

* I am worried about the whole moving house thing, am I doing the right thing?

* I am feeling abit sick and I don't want to be sick before the big trip.

* I feel so grown up calling the property estate agent, going down for house inspection. Someone told me that I am an adult, that I've grown up already. It still came as a shock.

* I wish I can be less fickle-minded than this, in terms of everything.

* It's raining, it's so cold.

* Japanese buffet tonight was alright. Definitely not somewhere we'd go again. SORRY LAKSANA, THOUGHT YOU WERE DAMN FREE SINCE URE ON HOLIDAY, DIDNT THINK U'D HAVE SO MUCH WORK! THANKS FOR COMING :D

2009-09-01T23:10:00.001+10:00

OH TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF SPRING!!!!!

Happy Spring :)

We make up our own Valentines Day, hehehe (:

2009-09-01T22:56:00.002+10:00

Today, feels like something's a little amiss.

Over the weekend, Andrea, Davin, Joseph and I went to a vineyard in a faraway place for dinner! The whole restaurant was empty, it's like as if we booked the whole restaurant to ourself! HAHAHA! Because it's a restaurant that overlooks the vineyard, people usually come in the evening (not like us ah, 8.30pm then reach) so that they can take it the scenery while having their meal. (hahahhaa laksana, obviously this is not i ownself think up one :P) The food was good, I absolutely loveddd Joseph's chicken! idk why. Hahaha! I had my first kangaroo meat! Apparently, kangaroos are overpopulating in Aussie! HAHA. Yes, I'm just trying to justify myself to whoever is out there thinking that I am killing cutesy jumpy long-tailed animals. The ambience of the restaurant is really good! Very romantic, very cosy :)

Dinner with Billy last night at our favourite Korean restaurant! HAHA. Awesome stuff. And I watched abit of TVB drama at the bubble tea shop we went after dinner! MY FAV ACTOR WAS IN IT! :D

Omg this is such a busy week. Yes I know it doesnt sound like it from the previous 2 paragraphs, but trust me, its the busiest one so far with 2 assignments and 2 tests! Urgh.

planetUNI camp this weeeeeeeeekend!

Omg Andrea introduced me to Famous Amos! OMG SO NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

And I bought a stereo! OMG I LOVE! It's sleek design, how when you press open the CD cover thing will slide up and you put your disc in, and you can see the disc spinning from the outside. IT IS SO SLEEK SO COOL PLEASE. Budget for buying a stereo got pushed up thrice from $50 to $100 to $150, in the end still have to push up more. Why now want to buy one decent stereo also so ex ah.

BUT, it's so nice, the sound is amazing.

"If it was me, I would turn to you and tell you that it's only you and I here tonight."

2009-08-28T21:33:00.002+10:00

To my bestest bestest girl in the world

Knowing that both of us are like IT dumbos, technology decided to fail us. I'm sorry I didn't dare to take a step forward when you seemed to be uncontactable, I'm sorry I stopped trying when you seemed to be afraid and shrinking back, I'm sorry I got frustrated so quickly when I didn't get any respond. Thinking of giving you "your own space" was dumb because I secretly knew I have to be there.

*waves a red flag* HELLO IM HERE. I don't want to email you anymore, I don't want to text you anymore, I'm here. I don't know what other means I can get to you without having to doubt whether you actually recieved the message or not. I'm not running away anymore, I'm here.

One day, something happened. And I sort of feel how you felt like that time. It was so scary and nervewrecking, and I wondered how each time you go through it. I couldn't stop thinking of you, sorry I never picked up the phone or started on that email.

Text me.
+6140 5678 728
Got lots to tell you.

2009-08-27T14:42:00.002+10:00

I'm attending Adelene's and Chernxi's graduation today!!

Wahh, so exciting lah, my first real uni graduation ceremony to attend! hahaha! :D Hopefully the weather would be nice and glorious! YIPPIE!

Dinner, accounting assignment, Pancake Parlour!!! :D

Sleeping to dream about you,
Dreaming of shooting stars. :)

2009-08-26T19:41:00.001+10:00

Today, I recieved an email from a very unexpected friend. :)

I always thought you don't really care,
that it doesnt mean much to you,
but wow,
everything in that email gave me quite a shock :)

2009-08-26T01:36:00.004+10:00

Today the weather was craaaazy!!! There was even warning from the weather beaureau advising people to start coming home from work at 2pm to avoid "destructive winds!" Those kind of winds that go up to 120km/h and uproot trees! It was thaat bad! Plus, I was supposed to have Kingdom Purpose tonight, and while I was talking on the phone, there was a hailstorm going on outside and winds were roaring! SO SCARY PLEASE. Winds were predicted to come in at about 5pm, and it sure did! The wind these few days have been absurd!

But after I got changed, I recieved a text from church saying that Kingdom Purpose has been cancelled due to weather conditions! HAHA! So Billy decided to go for movie together. OMG INGLORIOUS BASTERDS IS SUCH A BADDDD SHOW. IT WASTED 3HOURS OF MY TIMEEEE. The movie started at 9.20pm, and it only ended at like 12.15am. OMG. No wonder in the theatre I keep feeling like the show is never endinggg. Omg the show has noo climax at all. Zzzz. Brad Pitt's shows are getting worse and worse! The last one was Burn After Reading and it sucked too. -.-

Well, at least I got to eat Nando's and cookies&cream icecreaaamm :D

Have to complete..

Business Law Essay by Monday.
Accounting Assignment by Monday.
Marketing test on Wednesday.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

OHHHH AND THE 4 OF US ARE GOING GOLD COAST TOGETHER AT THE END OF SEPTEMBER!!!! OMGGGGG!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

2009-08-20T20:45:00.003+10:00

I've been very hooked onto Jason Mraz's songs these days.

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a storie
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
And it takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la

It takes a night to make it done
And it takes a day to make you young brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a lost before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love
Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love

Meaningful. It always takes something to make you realise something doesnt it? :)

I'm dreaming of sleeping next to you
I'm feeling like a lost little boy in a brand new town.
I'm counting my sheep and each one that passes is another dream to ashes
and they all fall down.
And as I lay me down tonight,
I close my eyes, what a beautiful sight.

Sleeping to dream about you
and I'm so damn tired.
Of havin' to live without you
But I, I don't mind.
Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired.
Oh, yes I am

I found myself in the riches
Your eyes, your lips, your hair
Well you were everywhere, out there.
I woke up in the ditches.
I hit the light and I thought you might be here
But you were nowhere. Oh love,
Well, you were nowhere at home.
As I lay me back to sleep,
This love I pray that I can Keep.

Sleeping to dream about you
and I'm so damn tired.
Of having to live without you
But I, I don't mind.
Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired.

I'm so tired.

Well its Just a little lullaby to keep myself from crying myself to sleep at night. Once I dry my eyes I'll...

Sleeping to dream about you
and I'm so damn tired.
Of having to live without you
But I, I don't mind.
Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired.
I'm so...tired.

Yup, and as of today, I've found out that I am C.P.

So, are you going to change me? Or am I going to be this way for a few more years down the road. I hope I stay to see, I hope I don't run away.

2009-08-19T01:14:00.002+10:00

Tonight was simple, but amazing (: Had dinner at some taiwanese cafe at box hill, food wasnt all that great but company was good. When asked to watch a movie, I was pleasantly surprised cos wasn't this early dinner so that we could go back earlier to get some work done? :) Hmm, hehe :) G.I Joe was a fantastic movie, I think the bad reviews I've been getting from friends are not justified at all! And it also made me realised that it actually is possible for someone to remain seated in the same position for 2 hours. Lol, incredible. Grocery shopping was fun and meaningful at 10.30pm :P

Papadum, mushroom, chicken, garlic bread, shampoo, soap, toothpaste, paper towel... I brought home so much than what was in my basket. :)$60 of food and necessities, priceless memories ((((:

Thank God for you, and today. >.<

I really really...

OOOOH I BOUGHT MYSELF A VERY LOVELY COUNTRY ROAD WALLET YSTD :D

2009-07-30T01:48:00.002+10:00

It is all going to be ok. :)

Hakunamatata! >.<

Maybe that was a red light for me to stop and think what's right and what's wrong. What should go on and what should not.

It was a timely reminder.
But no matter what, I'm so happy the green light's on again :)

I don't want to be this afraid anymore; God's the rock on which I stand.

Now I actually know, how much I want the light to always be green.

**

ANYHOO, to whoever's still reading this. HELLO, you must love me alot to continue reading this blog. HAHAHA :D

Anyway, to YOU YOU YOU AND YOU, I'm doing good in Melbourne! A little too busy than I'd like my start of the semester to be, but all else, it's good. It's really cold at times though! and uh.. i've made some new friends! which is good :D

and and i almost burn andrea's house down today. HAHAHA.

andddd, andrea's house is like my 2nd home now. thank you veli much laksa, i love you too :) hehehhehehe.

and, God's gonna do great things at Beautiful Woman!

and i've got tutorial at 10am and its 2am now! sei lo..

And, if all I can be is a listening ear, then I'll be that.

And, I am also happy to speak to you tonight, too. :)

goodnight!

2009-07-29T23:39:00.003+10:00

And here I am sitting thinking, if things were to change, it would have long ago. Why after so many events that happened, now? I'm beginning to truly realise how much these few months have been revolving around this one person, how so much of my time is just circling and circling around this one person. What happened? Did you realise something? Did something happen? When everything that should have been discussed has already been talked about, what do you say? Maybe I've let you in too much and too soon, and maybe it scares you as much as it scares me. As we take baby steps apart, I hope there won't come a day where I would lose sight of you. You've been a very good friend. I hope this awkward phase would pass soon. It kind of sucks, and kind of makes me feel sad. I wonder if you even feel anything, whether you've even tried picking up the phone or if you have even given a thought about it. And if you did, why didn't you press the buttons?

Was trying to get along my day, pretending like I didn't feel all weird in the inside, pretending it's all ok. When I came home, I had dinner, I watched shows, then I listened to Casting Crowns.. And it started cracking. Then I opened my bible and it flipped to Matthew 7:34 - So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring his own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today.

It's the parable about Jesus teaching about worries. And so, I started giving thanks to what happened today. That the tram and train and bus all came as I reached the stop or station, that I woke up, that I didnt burn andrea's house down, that I went for my macro tut. And I came to realise, focusing on the goodness of God , to focus on what his strength can do than what my inability can't do, is a far lighter yoke.

Yes, of course I still think about what's happening or going to happen to us, ok not us, just you and i. But it isn't with that much of a heaviness or gloominess. I still have trouble submitting completely to this other person, but at least now my heart's happier to try.

Psalms 42:5
Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise Him again-
my Saviour and my God!

God, what's your plan?

2009-07-13T16:53:00.002+10:00

Last night was the most horrible night in a long time.

I have problems typing "b" on my keyboard.

I am going to stay at home and read and play the piano today.

I am flying back in a week.

I don't know what to expect.

I wish I could say it out loud.

I hope there isn't any guessing games going on.

I think I should learn to REALLY surrender it all to the Lord, I think I should REALLY learn to lean on His strength, and REALLY know He has everything planned.

2009-07-13T02:43:00.000+10:00

Go to bed.

Close my eyes.

And wait.

2009-06-06T17:13:00.002+10:00

At 5am two nights ago, I found this and it totally cheered me up HAHAHAHA

The mental hospital hotline......

Answering machine message at a Mental Hospital "Hello, and welcome to the mental health hotline......"

If you are obsessive-compulsive, press 1 repeatedly.
If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 2 for you.
If you have multiple personalities, press 3, 4, 5, and 6.
If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want. Stay on the line so we can trace your call.
If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be transferred to the mother ship.
If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a small voice will tell you which number to press.
If you are a manic-depressive, it doesn't matter which number you press, no one will answer.
If you are dyslexic, press 9696969696969696.
If you have a nervous disorder, please fidget with the pound key until a representative comes on the line.
If you have amnesia, press 8 and state your name, address, telephone number, date of birth, social security number, and your mother's maiden name.
If you have post-traumatic stress disorder, s-l-o-w-l-y & c-a-r-e-f-u-l-l-y press 0 0 0.
If you have bipolar disorder, please leave a message after the beep or before the beep or after the beep. Please wait for the beep.
If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9.
If you have low self-esteem, please hang up. All operators are too busy to talk to you.
If you are menopausal, hang up, turn on the fan, lay down & cry. You won't be crazy forever.
If you are blonde don't press any buttons, you'll just mess it up.

IT IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FLIPPIN HILARIOUS PLEASE. HAHAHAHHAHAHHA.

Little surprises in life makes me rly rly happy (:

2009-06-06T00:11:00.003+10:00

You know, it's like you feel like you're all used to it, it has been going on for awhile and it seems to be almost a routine, but yet out of the blue, even when it happens, the heart can't help but skip beats. And it makes you realise how real everything is, and nothing has ever faded away at all. (:

OK EXAMS NEXT FRIDAY. SIAN DIAO UNTILL CANNOT. I CANNOT WAIT TO GO BACK TO SINGAPORE. I MISS EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING BACK @ MY HOMESWEETHOME. :(

Today I....

Nah its a boring day, forget it.

Oh, you called (:

WAH SRSLY DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO ACCOUNTING MAN. :X

KK RLY HAVE TO GO LIAO BYE (:

2009-05-27T23:20:00.002+10:00

爱是不是不开口才珍贵

请给我两分钟时间

把记忆结成冰

别让它溶化变成泪……

2009-05-27T21:21:00.002+10:00

Ok so maybe marketing isnt that bad to study (:

But it's tough when you've got something on your heart that you can't shake off.

Waiting and waiting - This uncalled for anticipation.

2009-05-26T05:22:00.003+10:00

I wish I could take what you said at face value, but I know I can't and it most probably isn't what I'm thinking too.

But what you said put such a smile on my face, and with a racing heart, it was hard to pretend like it's normal, that everything's cool.. to pretend like it didn't matter.

Phoo.. exhales.

Today God was good, God was faithful. Because He told me He loved me and why. (: And during worship in urbanlife, I was just recieving in abundance, it was amazing. It's awesome how when you break the walls, when you finally have that breakthrough, it's so easy to step into the presence of God and just soak everything in. It's just so, easy. :)

You are my God

The great I am

You are my God

The rock on which I stand

2009-05-22T01:51:00.002+10:00

I had an amazing night last night (: Thank you Andrea Laksana for accompanying me before everything, lol the way you went "breathe doreen breathe... breathe in.. breathe out.." RLY WORKED MAN, or at least for awhile before i started screaming again. Thank you! Phoooooo. (:

You are special :)

2009-05-19T02:15:00.002+10:00

I am happy, really happy (:

I'd be your buddy and your 30cents listener anytime. We'll share our very own piece of sky and we'll find Jane together every now and then. I'll buy you another MC just to see that glint of joy in your eyes and excitement in your voice.

I just wish I knew that these are all in the centre of Your will.

2009-05-14T00:51:00.002+10:00

Supposed to do housework today but had an impromptu catch up with billy instead! Hahaha was talking to him on facebook and it just all happened!

Hahaha catch up was sooooo good. Srsly, I learnt so much stuff from him and something he said rly made me want to fight for more of God. And he's just a great friend to chill out with lah. We had dinner for 3 hours, then just sat in his car and talked for like 4hours. How good is that, just looking out his sunroof and naming stars and talking about everything meaningful and nonsensical.

I have learnt so much from his life which basically in itself was a huge testimony, and all im contending now for is "If all that can happen to someone, it can happen to me too."

There is no substitute for Your love.

2009-05-08T02:10:00.002+10:00

OMGGG I WAS BROWSING SG WEBS TO LOOK FOR NICE RESTAURANTS FOR DINNERS IN SG AND I CAME ACROSS THIS!!!

ANDREA LAKSANA CATALINA PLS GO TO THIS WEBSITE!!!!

http://www.riosmelbourne.com/welcome.html

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I WANT TO TRY THAT AT LEAST ONCE THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!! IT LOOKS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AWESOMELY COOL. OMGGGG :D

Yes i know im a rly distracted study person. Kbye.

2009-05-08T00:38:00.002+10:00

mmmm... oreo cookies with good ol english breakfast tea. (courtesy of miss yeo, from her hotel. HAHAHA) makes accounting much easier to study.

and as i study, i cant stop thinkin of what to wear to dinner on sat - because of various reasons. aiyoyo.

2009-05-07T23:58:00.002+10:00

Hello.

I feel abit overwhelmed now, and I know it's abit too late. Got a test at 5pm. Haven't studied an inch of it yet. It's 12am now, am feeling sleepy from coming down from my sugar high from coke. (hahahah so much "from" in this sentence)

At least I've completed my marketing tutorial and it has just came out warm from the printer.

Oh noeeeezz, accounting :( haiyooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo :O

2009-05-07T21:43:00.003+10:00

Today we celebrated eric's birthday in uni with a surprise!!!! :D Some couldn't make it cos they had tutorial, rushing assignments that were due in a few hours times and some were sick. So it was just aaron, sabrina, loretta, eric and I! haha i loved how everything worked out and he rly was rly surprised!

BUT.. the BIGGER surprise is coming on saturdaaaaaaaay!!! OMG I CANT WAIT :D

I can't wait for tomorrow evening to come and go so that i can embrace my FRIDAY NIGHHT :D

i wld love to hang around more to blog abt eric's surprise but i've got an acc test tmr and its.. UGHHHH. me donch like no accountin.

Maybe the bunch of us would be going for an indian dinner that aaron HIGHLY recommends tmr night aft the test!!! WOOHOO!! THEN, its sleepover at dearest dearest sweetest idiotest andrea's!!!! THEN, Saturday it's buy-new-phone-sign-new-plan day and IKEA with andrea&co, at night its eric's birthday dinner with the uni bunch!!! WOOHOO!!! I L-O-V-E WEEKENDS!!!!

oooh, now we're trying to convince eric to shift his plans tmr night to sat. so that we can go dinner tghtr. HAHHAHA HOPE THIS WORKS OUT. I rly want good indian food ):

For now, I must conquer accounting. Why oh why did i skip mkt tutorial last week, makes it so much more difficult a choice to make of whether to go tmr or not. :(

2009-05-07T01:31:00.003+10:00

I'm looking at my flight itinerary (always dono how to spell lah) (yes they have finally emailed mine to me, nearly freaked out thinking that i would have to spend another thousand bucks buying air tix).. and..

I CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT WAIT TO GO BACK TO SINGAPORE! I just cannot cannot stop thinking about it!!! CANNOT STOP THINKING ABT GOING BACK TO SG. ARGHHHH OMGGGGGGGG I WANT TO GO BACKKKKKKKKKKKK. zhen de hen xiang hui qu lah.

2009-05-06T21:25:00.002+10:00

I srsly need to stop watching ANTM. Stop getting myself suckedd into this trap cos I've got 8 chapters worth of accounting to study for. Ahhh. And must do mkt tut, double ahh.

Nigel Barker is rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly hot.

2009-05-06T18:33:00.002+10:00

Seriously, now thinking back on it, was so dumb and naive last time. Believed every thing you said, thought it really was so special, untill I realise, you say the same thing to everyone.

copies tay yusheng's *facepalm*

Hahahaha.

2009-05-06T16:57:00.002+10:00

I am feeling rly inspired to dye my hair. HAHAHA YES, its yet another phase of "i want to do smth to my hair" NO ANDREA, NO WORRIES, I AINT GONNA CUT IT, I WONT CUT IT ANYMORE OK? RELAX. You can put down the phone that you're picking up now to call me and scream "are you out of your mind!". Just that last night i was watching ANTM and they all looked soo pretty after their makeovers, makes me wanna do smth to my hair. Maybe extensions and dye it, but no $$$ lah.

OMG MY MOM JUST TOLD ME A RLY EXCITING NEWS LAST NIGHT, and im praying rly hard abt it.. hope everything goes well.. (:

i feel so sian-ed to start studying for my acc test lah. It's like study so much this week liao. Hais.

2009-05-06T03:15:00.003+10:00

AWWWWWW SILAS JUST TOTALLY MADE MY DAY(night) :D

Cos last year I used to always pop by his place to study tghtr cos he stayed rather near me and he has a rly nice studying environment! But this year, since I moved to Clayton and him to South Yarra, I've only been to his place to study once. And his new house is soo awesome, I LOVE IT!! All the rooms are soo nice and have their own toilets!!! And Silas's room was double condusive to study!! Plus, he pulled out a table and a chair specially for me!! And we were both like "hahaha you see, God planned for me to come here and study!! got extra chair and table some more!!! AHHAHAHA" so funny lah.

And just now he tagged me a photo on facebook and I went to check cos I thought it was the pictures we took on Saturday. BUT NOOO GUESS WHAAT.

He took a picture of the table and the chair with a label on the table that said "RESERVE"! SO SWEEEET OMGGGGG :D Thank God for such a great friend! Last night when I was doing my essay, he suddenly texted me and totally cheered me up at night! Which allowed me to hang in there till 5am. HAHA. SO AWESOME :D

Hahaha it's always of such coincidence btwn Silas and I. Last year in urbalife, he and I were the only ones staying along lygon street, just that he was on the extreme end of the street and im on the extreme start of the street. So we always took the tram home together and that's how I got to know him better. Then this year! I moved to Clayton and him to South Yarra, although we're rather far away, BUT, we're still on the SAME train line! So we could still go home together after every church course, or church or urbanlife! HAHAHA!!! Such a coincidence right!!!! Always able to go home with him! Always moving to the "same place" HAHAHAHA! He is just amazing lah. :))))

Kk goodnight people.

2009-05-06T02:58:00.002+10:00

I am feeling such satisfaction looking at my printer spitting out 12 sheets of paper. WOOHOO.

And I just filled up my details on the assignment coversheet.

And I just signed on the coversheet.

PRAISEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THE LORD :D

2009-05-05T21:59:00.003+10:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!! AS OF 9.57PM ON THE 6TH OF MAY, I HAVE OFFICIALLY WRITTEN A 3309 WORDS ESSAY THAT IS ELEVEN PAGES LONG. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH OMGGG I CAN SLEEP TONIGHHHHHHHHT!!!!! NO MIDNIGHT OILLLLLLLLLLLL!!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGG :DDDDD SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!

YES YES YES YES YES!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

But I won't ever procrastinate till so last minute anymore man, omg, there are so many refinements that I could and should be doing, but I am not cos I am just knackered out by management. If I had one more day, I'd rly sit down and edit my essay. BUT.. Aiya ok lah, if after I take my break I feel like editing I'll edit.

BUT ANW, NO MORE WORRIES! I HAVE AN ESSAY TO HAND IN TMRRR!!! WOOHOO HALLELUJAH PRAISE THE LORDDDDD!!! :D

I just can't believe (that i get to sleep tonight) and that i exceeded the given word limit!!! OMGGGGGGGG. It's a shockerrrr. Last year I struggled to even write 1500 words but now I'm writing a 3000 words essay! WOOHOO!!!! But no, this doesnt mean I no longer appreciate and long for 1000 words essay ok. This is the first time I exceeded the word limit of an essay since I left secondary school. HAHAHAHHAHHAHHAHA. SO PROUD OFMYSELF.

But no worries, they +/- 10% of the word count so techinically, I only go over by 9 words. HAHAHAHA. Cos 3300 is the maxxxx.

WOOHOO IM EUPHORIC. IM GOING TO EAT DINNER AND WATCH YOUTUBE NOWWW. HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA PRAISE THE LORDDDDD :D

Thank youu andrea for your constant msgs and phone calls to ask me how im doing and helping me answer my questions regarding the essay. THANK YOU! :D PS. I am going to treat myself to the ice cream you bought for me! :DDD HEHEHHEHEHE.

And thank you bling!!! Your advice for me to stop focusing on the word count really hit home! Thank youuuu sooo much love!!! HUGS!!

Praise the Lord for keeping me calm. Seriously, this is the firrssst time i ever done such a last minute assignment. Usually I finish it at least 3 days before. And usually I would get soo stressed out I just KEEP STRESSING OUT. (hahaha if that makes sense) but through lots and lots of prayer and PS band playing out of my lappie, God saw me through this assignment. Omg :DDDDDD thank youuu!!!

I am going to chill out and relax and bum around now because I won't have this luxury anymore tomorrow :( NEED TO STUDY FOR ACC. WLAU EH.

2009-05-04T14:25:00.004+10:00

This week is full on studying plus mugging man. No time for facebook, youtube (NO MORE ANTM OR PROJECT RUNWAY) etcccc omg. NO MORE INTERNET ENTERTAINMENT AND CONNECTING WITH THE WORLD UNLESS FOR RESEARCH PURPOSES. blah.

It's only till next tuesday. I can do zees.

** OMG. I JUST SAT THROUGH A 2 HOUR ECONS LECTURE AGAIN. Hahaha cos i listened to my recorded lecture online. Cos i cldn't understand the lecturer at all last week and this week is my test. Haha gotta say im rly impressed at the effects of re listening to a lecture, esp one where you can pause and write down notes and then continue listening, rly helps me understand better. BUT, despite the fact that i was comfortabley seated on my bed, i started to become restless at the last 20mins. Hahahaha. Guess this doesnt change no matter where you are. HAHA.

2009-05-03T19:49:00.003+10:00

This week is going to be a crazzzzzzzzzy week with an econs test on tuesday, assignment due on wednesday and accounting mid sem on fridaay!!

And these are the only two things that are keeping me sane and not go crazy.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
If God is for me, nothing can be against me.

Kbye.

2009-05-03T03:49:00.001+10:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am literally pulling my hair now.

2009-05-03T03:47:00.002+10:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGG THIS IS SUCH A BAD TIME FOR MY LAPTOP TO DECIDE TO CRANK UP ON MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. :<

2009-05-03T03:08:00.003+10:00

"There's only 1 thing 2 do
3 words 4 you
(I love you)
I love you

There's only 1 way 2 say
those 3 words to you
I love you
I love you
I love you"

Aww so cute. The song's title's "1 2 3 4" by Plain White Tees! I think the lyrics are soo adorable pls. Hahaha! And I think the full lyrics to this song is so simple, so back to basics.

Sweet.

2009-05-02T22:30:00.004+10:00

You know how it feels like when someone writes you a really long letter and you just know it's from the bottom of their heart? You know how it feels like reading a letter that is so filled with love and appreciation? You know how it feels like to actually see some of your best friend's thoughts about this friendship and about you in words? You know how it feels like to have some of the most assuring words from your best friend? You know how it feels like to have felt abit down at the start, but after reading the letter you just get so cheered up and happy and "yay-ish"?

I just did. :)

My Andrea XL B., you've done me a great favour this time, going all out to help me both emotionally and academically. The extents you go to for me, always seem to be without boundaries. Everytime you do something for me, you leave me in awe of your love that you outpour to every friend. And I am so blessed to be one of them. :)

*updates* ooooh i found this radio toolbar online and i can now access radio stations in the US and UK! How awesomee :D And i know this sounds really weird but, I found a really comfortable position to study :D Like literally a physical position. HAHA.

2009-05-02T04:55:00.001+10:00

Omg only 2h to sleep.

2009-05-02T03:59:00.002+10:00

Omg :D I just had my best surprise this year!!!

So if you read the last line of my last post, the "deliveryman" is andrea and davin!!! Ok Andrea to be exact because she appeared in front of my door with pizza on her hands but because she was wearing a hoodie so I couldn't see her face so I just went "Oh sorry thanks" and I was about to turn away and leave she suddenly shouted "WALAU DOREEN NEO!!!" HAHAHHAHHA cos i didn't recognise her!!! Omg all i was thinking was "why isit a chinese girl? (cos usually it's be an indian or aussie guy) and i was thinking "why they send a girl out on delivery so late!" and "i thought andrea say she order pizza hut? how come become curly joe's?" But all i know was i better quickly take and go before the person ask me to pay. HAHAHHAHA.

The whole surprise is so amazing I can't even put it down properly in words! How every thing was soo well planned out and how I just fell into every trick on the way. ASK ME ASK ME WHAT HAPPENED AND I WILL TELL YOU. HAHAHHAHAA! :D :D Omg, I can't believe I acty believe her when she said pizza hut can deliver 2 pizzas to 2 different locations, with only 1 payer. OMG, wait acty I can believe. BUT WHY I GO AND BELIEVE HER AH OMG.

Omg it was such a good surprise!! She had it all planned out soo perfectly!! Right from the start when she called me and lie to me that Davin went clubbing and she feel like eating pizza! AHHH OMGGGG.

They are so so sweet (: I cried when I knew it was her lah omgggg (: They came all the way to clayton AND brought me so much food AND was just here to cheer me up and ask me how i am. I AM SO BLESSED :)))))))) And I had so much fun talking to them and eating with them and just, omg i miss themm!!! You two are the best support team I have here, I wouldn't have been able to do and achieve lots of things now without you two.

I am starting to tear now. HAHA aiyoo. But really like omg, thank God for all these amaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazing friends who have stood by me and helped me through such rough days, perhaps one of my most emotionally draining and taxing phases so far. I love you all so much, so so so much. You are all angels from God to come pick me up. I feel so blessed to have gone to mayflower, to have met such an amazing bunch of girls who have continuously supported me, cheered me up and on. I love you all very very very muchh (:

I am not at my breaking point yet, because of you all. (:

PS. Andrea, you have done so much for me (since last year) and I know it all from the bottom of my <3.
Debbie, I see you in part of this surprise too. (: Thank you for expressing such tangible love even when you're so far away. :)

2009-05-01T23:51:00.002+10:00

Ah omgg, I booked with qantas a few days ago but I have yet to receive my e-ticket in my inbox!! So stressful. O.O BECAUSE I PAID ALRRRRRR AND I FORGOT MY BOOKING REFERENCE. I thought they will email me so I didn't write it down :(

And I'm thinking if I should push my flight back home to sg earlier. Even if only by a a day or two. I was just thinking that alot of my friends here would have finished their exams pretty early and would most be flying back, so I don't rlllly see a point in staying here till the 28th also. How ah. Do I need to pay to change my flight date? Aside from the additional top up of the fare. Hmm.

ANDREA ORDERED PIZZA FOR ME HAHAHHAHA SO FUNNY. Cos she wants to eat pizza but I think they have a 1-for-1 offer or smth, and they say they can deliver to 2 places so she's having pizza delivered to me at this moment. HAHAHAHA.

2009-05-01T17:23:00.007+10:00

Bling and debbie: hehehhe i chose such olddd pictures cos i felt rly warm and fuzzy inside when i was reviewing those good OLD pictures. HEHEHE :D

Hello dear friends!

Aiyo, today I woke up much later than I wanted to BUT srsly, I was in such a good mood when I woke up! This is what went through my head

"It's ok! Today is a new day and if I really sit down and focus on my research, I would still have time!" Hahaha very positive thinking I know, thankyouverymuch (: Yay bling thank youuu, you really made this assignment less taxing by teaching me to focus more on the question rather than the big 3000. Ah thank you, really has made things much simpler! Am really motivated to start researching now! I really can't stop emphasizing how breezy I feel now, the light-heartedness and all! Omgg :D :D :D

So today, I went to Clayton town to get grocceries and I'm making soup now again! Hurhurhur thank God for online recipes :) Am gonna go steak and grill chicken. Woohoo. And I bought alot of rubbish at the asian grocer, like srsly rubbish, junk food.

You know the Khong Guan brand sultana biscuits right, my mom lovesss that. She only has this and the lemon puffs one in her bedroom. STOCK UP ok. So when I saw it, I just haddd to buy it even though it's not one of my favv, reminds me of her ^^ But I bought the Khong Guan gem buiscuits! you know how when you were young, those small round buiscuits with coloured sugar on them!!! :D :D I used to buy them opposite MF. HAHA!

Omg, at officeworks I saw this!!!

And I really wanted to get it!!!! But it's like 80bucks or smth!! So I was considering really hard!! But look at the model below!!

So comfy and shiok lah please!! :( I waaaant :( (Laptop sold seperately) HAHHAHA. Yah sorry joke. Anw, yesss I want :( But I alr bought from IKEA a mini table that you can put on your bed to use your laptop. But it's a little too high so.... I don't know if I should..... HEHEHHE.

Oh, I forgot I'm broke from the shoewear spree. Blah.

Ps. Oh last night Aaron, Felicia and I went to shop for Eric's birthday present at Country Road @ Chadstone and WE ARE RLY HAPPY AT OUR GIFTS AND WE CANNOT WAIT TO SURPRISE HIM TO THE MAXX :D

2009-05-01T02:49:00.009+10:00

Thank God. :)

Thank God I've got all these 2 angels with me tonight, guiding me through and talking to me.

Thank God He answers every prayer and catches every tear

Thank you dearest (: Your advice on how I should tackle my assignment really lifted this huge load off me. I really can't thank you enough!! And am I glad we had that conversation! Hehe, soo happy that nothing has changed in this period of time, thankful that you will still ask me for help, THANK YOU! Hehe I really had lotsa fun in that conversation, thank you for bringing back the smiles! :D And thank you for that very assuring "If you don't start, we'll stop. But if you start, we'll never stop!" I miss you heapssssss and.. i love you for WHO YOU ARE! ;)

My dear debbie! Who never fails to always be there when I'm upset :D Hehehe thank you for cheering me up and cheering me on! You were just so funny in your encouragements that it was so hard to not laugh! HAHAHA! I loveeeeee you best friend and I can't waaaait to go on a buffet hunt with you when I'm in Singapore!!! I miss you so much!!! And I know you are angry that I chose such a picture for your picture above, but that's one of the nicer ones I have of you alone!! HAHAHHA!! Hehehe rmbr what I said ok, you are family. (:

And thank youu dear Lord for answering my prayers! Haha this is so amazing, how it's these 2 special people who have talked me out of my emo phase. One whom I haven't spoken to properly for awhile but have missed badly and thought of running to and one has always been here for me and knows me so well. You two are angels (:

Tomorrow will be a new start! :D Yes, I'm still homesick but I'm looking forward to flying home in a much more positive way now! HAHA. Loveee <3

2009-04-30T23:34:00.003+10:00

I want to eat ice cream nowwwwwww ah. I'm thinking..

Vanilla! (i havent had vanilla for soooo long!)

Cookies&Cream!

Ben&Jerry's Strawberry Cheesecake! (there's no ben&jerry's in melb!)

2009-04-30T22:15:00.003+10:00

The truth is,

I miss home, alot. All my friends back in Singapore, my family, my whole family.

I am stressed out for next week because I have one assignment and 2 tests due in the same week. And the assigment is so demanding that I'm just too scared to start on it. It scares me.

I don't like staying alone. Yes, truth's out. Yeah, I don't mind staying alone, but given a choice, I won't choose to stay alone anymore. It sucks, it gets lonely and frustrating. When you feel sad, there's no one to talk to you. When you feel bored, there's no one to bum around with you. When you feel happy, there's only the 4 walls to smile whiteness at you. When you feel unmotivated, there's no one to be cheer you on. Yes I've realised im not much of a loner as I thought, I'd like to be by people I love and care, I like to have someone to talk to, even if its rubbish.

I need to talk to someone.

Don't misunderstand me, I've got some of the most amazing friends in uni. I laugh alot on in uni, talk lots of crap and im always with this bunch of awesome people in uni and I love them all. (: But I'd just like someone to fall back on when I'm at home, someone to ask me how was my day, I'd just like to feel the presence of a human being at home. I don't like the silence of the still air, and sometimes even music can't mask the airiness of this room.

Sucks, I want to go back to Sg. Like, now. I need all the people I love to appear in front of me, now.

2009-04-30T00:32:00.003+10:00

These are the pictures taken by my dearest friends while they were over at my place and while I was busying in the kitchen. Omggggg turned on my camera to see these. Tsktsk :P

Dono how they take untill so zoomed in.

AWW THE HAPPY COUPLE (:

This was taken by them.

And this jug. Zomg ah I think they're very bored cos my house has no tv. HAHAHA.

Over at Andrea's place the next morning of sleepover :D Took this picture of Andrea while we were waiting for Joseph to get ready.

Look Ma! No neck! HAHAHHAHAHA.

I love their beanbag please, sooo comfortable. I ALSO WANT ONE :(

This was a very bored me when no one wanted to entertain me. HAHAHAHA.

We had dim sum at Dragonboat for lunch that day. Sigh, so disappointing. Sharks Fin House was sooo much better! :(

It was raininggggg. And me, who neverrr wear heels, decided to wear my super high thin heels that day! HOW DUMB. And the wind was blowing, the rain was heavy and it was sooo horrible to walk in those heels.

Which resulted in my mad shoe spree - as mentioned earlier. Blah.

2009-04-29T04:04:00.003+10:00

Ohmygosh this clock is cool! It's hydro-powered!!!! No batteries, no eleectricity nadah!

And the description is reaaal funny too! "OK, so generating electrical power from water might not require quantum math, but it is pretty darn interesting. And it's nice to see science and engineering play nice together to bring folks like you an attractive desktop clock that is powered solely on water (or really any electrolytic fluid like soda, coffee, BAWLS or even Beer). We would be civilized to only call you moronic if you bought this clock and used BAWLS to power it, but in the end you are the music maker, you are the dreamer of dreams and I suppose we would just have to respect that decision. " Hahahaha!

I love this website! They've got super cool stuff and their descriptions are really interesting and personal!

2009-04-29T03:53:00.002+10:00

How cute is this humidifier please!! HAHAHHA OMGGGG. So practical, so smart, so geeky! I likeeeee ;) And the caption goes "Moisture is important"

And the description on the website goes like "The office-administrator won't let you boil water at your desk, and a big water-tank can be inconveniently huge to lug around, so what can you do?" Hahahaha so funny lah.

Gosh @ 4am I am doing this kind of thingthing. But I really want this humidifier! So cuteee hahahaha! But it's 59.99 from the US excluding shipping and tax and stuff. :( Maybe I should just go get those cutesy cheapskate humidifier (reminds me of the penguin water dispenser) from ActionCity when I'm back in Sg. Hahhaha but i think by that time its too late alr.

2009-04-29T02:55:00.003+10:00

It's currently 7 degrees. :X

Thank God for the heater that's blowing comforting hot air. I'm wearing long johns AT HOME. Omg. Hahahaha. That's how cold it is.

I'm thinking if I should get a humidifier ah. Since they say the heater is very drying on the skin and stuff. Should iiiiiiiiiiiiii.

2009-04-28T22:48:00.003+10:00

OMG. I went on this madddddd footwear spree last Sunday. It was crazzzzzzzyyyy, I was shocked by myself!

I thought since winter is approaching and this year is a really wet year (good on melbourne, no more drought and 4minute showers, which i dont abide by) so I thought I needed converse sneakers for casual wear to school. Then I decided I would need boots since I've been searching for one since last year.

So we went to Novo and I got a pair of pumps and a clutch for about 70bucks.

Then we went to get Converse sneakers for 90bucks. FREAK MAN, WHY IS CONVERSE SO EXPENSIVE. And only the white and black comes in ladies sizes?! WTHECK, SEXIST :( The grey one was soooooooooooooooooooooooo pretty, but even the smallest for guys was too big for meee!!! :(((( And when I tried it the grey one on, I kept psychoing myself that maybe I can survive with sneakers 2sizes too big. HAHAHHA but it made my feet look HUGE, like playtupus. -.-

Then, the SHOCKER was when I got this pair of boots for $200. PLEASE, OMG, THIS MONTH NO NEED TO EAT ALR. I knowwwwwwwwwww it's wayyyy over maximum budget, but it looked so nice on me and i've been looking for boots for over a year alr!!! And when I was complaining this to my bro's gf who's down under for a week, she was like "ok look at it this way. It's real leather. It's raining so much this year. It's flat so you can wear it to school and basically everywhere alot. You didn't buy one last year so just carry the amount over. It's from a good brand so it can last really long. DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER?" Hahhahaha lolol.

Davin and Andrea said "It's like as if you got released from a jungle, buy like crazy." HAHAHHA. To justify myself, this is my first time I shopped since I came back to melbourne.

Ah whatever, I'm just making myself feel better.

2009-04-28T21:38:00.003+10:00

I was booking my flight home just a couple of minutes ago, and I could have gotten it cheaper but because I was looking around other airlines and stuff, so the deals were all gone by the time I decided to book :((( I feel so sad that I can't save that 100+ bucks. :(

And and if I go back on 29 June, it's only $13XX on SQ. But if I go back on Qantas on 28 june itself, it's $1200. So at first I was thinking wah just pay $1XX more can take SQ liao, should i? should i not? Haha. But I called my mom and she said to come home on my birthday.

AND, I'm only flying back on the Monday when uni starts! HAHAHAHA. Die ah, only reach on tuesday morning. LOL. Like 4.45am HAHAHAHA. No need to go school liao. Lol.

So anyway, it's confirmed, I'll be back from 28 June - 20 July!! :D Woohoo.

Just wished I could have handled the booking situation better :( Sigh, feel like that hundred plus bucks flew to qantas like that. :(

OK STOP THINKING. IM GONNA BE BACKK ON BIRTHDAYY :D

2009-04-25T20:47:00.005+10:00

So this was the chicken I grilled in my toaster oven last night! I lovee the toaster oven, you can do anythingggggggg in it! And the best thing? No pots or pans to wash up!!! Just dump the alumunium foil you place your food on! WOOHOO!! But this meal was abit messy cos the aluminium tore and the oil kindda drip onto the tray. Hurhur!

Was a little raw at the thickest part of the meat near the bone. But on the whole very juicy and tender! Perhaps needed a few more minutes on each side. Mmmm :D

Upclose and personal with Miss Maryland. Hahaha! I love herbs, don't you!!! It just makes the flavour so much more robust!!! MMMM :D Those are rosemary ure seeing! I know, rosemary is for lamb and such, but I rly love rosemary! :D And of course, black crack pepper!!! And some other seasonings. So juicy, can you seeeeeeeeeeee it. HAHAHAHHAH!

Then this morning/afternoon, I woke up and prepared this. OMG RAW CARROTS ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUT TO HARD!!!!!!!! Srsly, I'm so happy no one saw the way I cut/seperated/chopped the carrots. HAHAHAHHA!!! And it's sooo hard to divide the corn into 3 parts, so I just dumped the whole corn in hahahahhaa! My hands so pain aft cutting the carrot ah, so forget it. LOL!

In it, you see lean pork, chicken breast, pears, corn and carrot! :D I was afraid that there would be too much ingreedients so I took out one corn and a few pieces of carrots.

And so I decided to fix lunch, so I put my ham and cheese wrap into my lovely toaster oven. And after 10minutes the alarm went "ding!", I happily walked to my toaster and opened the "door" of the oven and smelly smoke came wafing out. It was URGHHH.

And soon, my smoke alarm started beeping and I became kindda frantic, not knowing what to do. Of course, first thing I thought of was to call my landlord, ah but forget it. All I knew was that I'm not supposed to open my main door if not it will activate the public smoke alarm which would sent the fire engines. HAHAH I DO NOT WANT THAT.

So I opened myy windows and closed the doors to my kitchen since.. The smoke alarm is only in my room and not in my kitchen, how dumb. Hahaha lucky after awhile the beeping stop. All the time I was thinking "oh no, can my neighbors hear it?! what if they know its me?!" HAHHAHAHA SO EMBARRASSING.

Product of chao-ta-ness.

I attempted to tear off that part of the wrap but somehow the burn-ness "soaked" into the WHOLE wrap and it was disgusting. I could taste the chaotaness EVERYWHERE. So i just pulled the ham out and subsequently threw the whole wrap away. Wlau. So wasted.

I think the wrap was too "tall", so it touched the heating elements and therefore got this bad. Because I toasted my wrap before and it was fine (: Hahhaa reminded me the time last year when I was toasting my sandwhich for brekkie, and it CAUGHT FIRE!!! HAHHAHAHA! Like seriously my sanwhich was on fire inside my very same toaster oven! HAHAHAHA!

Lucky that time I was staying with my genius housemate, she can handle every situation man! So I wasn't too scared that time. HAHAHHAHA.

And tadah! After 5hours of simmering/stewing/cooking/boiling/whatever, it is done!!!! This yellowish liquid that's the essence of corn and carrots and pears and chicken and pork. Mmmm, this is what home tastes like! :D

And because I have no idea how to store the soup, I force fed myself 3 bowls thinking that I've got to finish it by tonight if not it will spoil. Then I decided Andrea they all could come over for soup!! Hahahaha! I miss them sooooooooooooo much!! I felt so lost being home on friday night AND the whole saturday. It's like "WHAT AM I DOING AT HOME?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!" Mostly because I know I should be researching on my 3000 words essay but rly, I couldn't stop watching America's Next Top Model. HAHAHAHA!!! And I felt so sad and lonely that I couldn't talk the whole day cos there's no one to talk to! :(

But anyway, all problems solved. Andrea Davin Joseph and Edwin are coming over to polish off the soup and them im sleeping over at Andrea's then we're all going yum cha in the afternoon! Then im gonna head off to church!!! WOOHOO!!!

I think I'm not much of a loner as I think I am. Yes, I need my own time and space, but not ALL.THE.TIME. I want to have a housemate :( Someone to talk to, study with, and just rot around doing nothing. :(

I CAN'T WAAAIT FOR THEM TO COME OVER!!!! I MISS THEM SO MUCH!!! Felt like such a long week this week! Urgh.

And I'm gonna go shower now so I don't have to borrow andrea's towel AGAIN hahahah! Which means tmr, over @ Andrea's, I can just brush my teeth and leave! :D

OMG, can I just do a product rave? PLEASE, for all of you girls/maybe guys who are looking for a pencil eyeliner, use "Revlon ColorStay"!!!! Omg, my eyelids are like supppppeeerrrr oily that even Bobbi Brown's Gel Eyeliner smudges like crazy on me at the end of the day. But Revlon just sticks man!!! But it gives me panda eyes when I take it off at the end of the day which is abit bleurgh. But nvmm! I still love it! GO GET IT!!! But I thought it was abit ex even though it's from a drugstore. -.- haha! but worth it!

2009-04-25T14:54:00.001+10:00

urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh today's a bad day.

My smoke alarm went off while trying to toast my wrap.

And my wrap is smoking inside my toaster oven.

And it's black and all chao ta.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Well, beats that time my sandwhich caught fire in college square. HAHAHHA.

2009-04-25T13:45:00.002+10:00

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *PULLS HAIR JUMP AROUND HOUSE*

Last night I want to call my mom but this operator on my phone says I'm not connected to a telephone service. So this morning I called telstra..

AND THEY SAY I NEVER PAY MY BILLS AND THEY'VE GIVEN MY 6 LETTERS INCL WARNING LETTERS TO DISCONNECT!!!!!!!

BUT I'VE NEVER RECEIVED ANY BILLS AT ALL AND I CHECK MY LETTERBOX EVERY SINGLE DAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!! WHATTHEHECK!!!!!

I THINK MY LANDLORD THREW AWAY MY BILLS BECAUSE I REGISTERED THIS PHONELINE USING ANDREA'S NAME COS IM UNDER 18!!!!!!!!! WALAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. THEN I WENT DOWNSTAIRS WANTING TO FIND HIM BUT HE'S NOT IN!!!! (ok so today's saturday and public holiday. BUT I WANT MY FREAKING BILL!)

BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

I NEED TO PAY ANOTHER 59.95 TO RE-CONNECT MY LINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I'VE ALR PAID 59.95 THAT TIME TO GET MY PHONE CONNECTED ALREADYYYY!!!!!!!!

&$@(*$&@(&^$@*&%$!&($^@*(^$#@*&%^@*&$

IF I SAVE THIS $100, I COULD HAVE JUST CALLED HOME USING MY STUPID HANDPHONE!!!!

URRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I WILL SPIT FIREBALLS IF I HAVE THE ABILITY TO.

2009-04-24T19:21:00.002+10:00

OMGGG :D

I finallyyyy went grocery shopping today!! SO FUN!!!! I love the shops here in clayton cos it's not like going to the supermarket. There are different different kinds of shops. There are shops which sell meat only, which are the butchers. Then the shops which sells fruits and veges only. And they're all so clean and nice and freshh!!! It's soo different from shopping at safeway (singapore's cold storage) It's such a different feeling!! :D And I bought those canvas trolley where I can just dump all the stuff into it and pull the trolley around. (HELLO NOT THOSE MARKET AUNTIE WITH SQUARE SQUARE ON IT OK) And so i can buy so much effortlessly! Save alot of time (but spend alot of money because you just keep buying and buying) AHHAHA!

And my chicken is grilling inside my toaster oven now and i can smell it!!! :D And just now when I went to flip it to the other side, it was all sizzling and lookin yummmyyy!!!! WOOHOO :D

Ah, the joy of buying grocceries and cooking your own meal. Very very satisfactory (:

2009-04-24T02:40:00.003+10:00

I feel like I just wasted my time studying cos nothing went in at all. I'm gonna go into the marketing tutorial room and do whatever I can from common sense. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG 20%!

I FEEL SO WEIRD. I WANT TO GO OUT THIS WEEKENDDDD!!! :( I WANT TO GO YUM CHA! I WANT TO EAT NICE FOOD! :( But i must stay home to study :( Anw, it will be freezing, too lazy to move my bum out of my chair. UGHHHHHHH.

I can't wait for tmr to come so that i can go to clayton townnnn. No longer just stuck @ home.

PLEASE DONT RAIN WHILE IM OUTT PLEASEEEE :)

2009-04-24T01:12:00.003+10:00

Even if given another chance, I would still choose to do my undergraduate degree in Monash University and to live here in Clayton.

:)

2009-04-23T21:43:00.001+10:00

Urgh, I'm feeling Nando's.

2009-04-23T19:12:00.002+10:00

Ugh, have officially fallen sick.

Kept on coughing at night and when I woke up I had so much phglem, it shocked me. And my chest hurts when I cough. :( But somewhere along the day, it got better than when I first woke up YAY.

Omg Sunday there are possibilities of hail and thunderstorm!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Tmr I wanna go down to clayton town after school to get groceries.

This is my first weekend that i've got nothing on! Better use this time to start researching on my 3000words essay for management. :X

OK BETTER RLY GET DOWN TO START READING MARKETING. :X

2009-04-22T19:55:00.002+10:00

WAHHHH SO HAPPY :D

I got a distinction for my first ever assignment in uni!!! :D YAYYY! Even though pretty much lots of people got D as well but still!! YAY PRAISE THE LORD!! :D Cos before I did my research I prayed that God will lead me to all the right websites and good newspaper articles to substantiate my essay. HAHAHA AND YAY!!! :D And my work had lots of ticks in the excellent column!! YAYYYY :D :D So thankkfulll :D :D :D This is a good start :D

Hahaha omg today as I was crossing the road I saw an ambulance coming my way with the lights and siren and everything and I just continued sauntering across while looking at the ambulance driver untill I saw the jogger opposite me stop in her tracks then i realised i was supposed to stop too!!!!!! OMG but it was too late!!! So I just started at the driver with the "errr" face and he stared at me with the "OMGGGGGGG O.O" face. HAHAHHAHA funny to think abt it now, but it was pretty scary just now with him coming full speed at me and probably thinking "stupid chinese." HAHAHHAA. Ya ya ok i know, next time i see a speeding ambulance with bright lights and siren i will halt in my tracks and siam to one side ok in case i kill a life unknowingly. :(

Told my mom and she said "you see lah, always so slow at reacting at everything!" Then she went on linking to how the more i should quickly take my driving test cos this kind of basic knowledge i also dono. She's power man, everything also can link back to urging me to take my driving test. :X (anw we came to the conclusion that i will take my test here cos it's cheaperrr)

And I told andrea and she said "5 mins ago you could have been the one on the ambulance"

haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

YAYY we're celebrating eric's 18th in 2 weeks time!!! :D Aaron Sabrina and I were planning after school! It's gonna be sooo much fun lah!! And we alr decided on the present and we all loveee it alot!!! :D And we know so will eric (: And we're gonna go to a super nice restaurant and aaron's gonna blindfold eric. HAHAHAHHA!!! Cos aaron's gonna fetch us there. Yay and he can send eric, felicia and i home! woohoo! So funny lah, while discussing the present and who's gonna chip in and stuff. HAHAHAHAHHA SO FUNNY. We totally disturbed everyone at the quiet study area. LOL.

Wah must remember to buy my air ticket home sia. -.-

And I think Aaron's gonna get his dream car for 18K!!!!!!! PRAY HARD :D :D :D

You know, these 3 days, God has been using different means and different people even strangers to get me started on reading the bible. I always procrastinate reading the bible, cos i lost my bookmark last year on where i stopped and I was too lazy to start all over again. So I never continued. Yes, this is the truth. But yesterday, once I started on the new testatment, one thing that literally jumped at me and was a huge revelation to me was..

When Jesus was born, the 3 wise men came to bethlehem to see this child and showered him with gifts. And you know what I learnt from this fact that I've always known since i was a child and seen in many many figurines?

That the 3 wise men came to Jesus FIRST with gifts (expensive ones), lavished him with what they thought he was worth to them. But today, lots of us wait for Jesus to give US gifts before we praise and worship Him. And yes, I am guilty of this too. And if He doesn't appear at our doorsteps with gifts, we lose our motivation to praise and worship or even press in. But it should be about time that we give him gifts (ie our time, praise, worship, financially) before he give us ours because we should love Him for who He is, and not what He can provide. Sooo awesome. After reading this, I was just so in awe like WOW. I don't even know how to explain the feeling lah.

Awesomeee :D

Ok, better start studying marketinggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg. :X

2009-04-21T16:37:00.003+10:00

Sia lah. I skipped accounting lecture today so that I could come home earlier to finish up my accounting tutorial for tmr. BUT AH, ended up watching King of Queens and facebooking and blogsurfing. AHH OMG.

Chicken rice from uni is gooooooooooooood (:

Aaron says Laksa King @ Highpoint is gooood. :D

INNER CHAMP LATER :D

2009-04-21T15:18:00.002+10:00

I really am so tempted to eat the chocolates I bought from Philip Island. Omg yesterday I brought to Uni the Liquid Milk Chocolate, OMGGG IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOD. Everyone who ate was like AHH ZOMGGGG. And Eric was like "go philip island again doreen!" HAHAHAH WTH.

And I'm so tempted to eat the salt flavoured chips that's lying on top of my fridge :(

BUT IM FALLING SICKK :( I can feel it in my bones. IT'S COMING.

Zomg Easter break flewwwwwwwwwwwwwww by. But it was well spent indeed. 4 days of Conference and 3 days with good ol friends with lots of mugging. It was gooood even though it didn't feel like much of a holiday. HAHA.

God has been helping me sooo much in my studies seriously. It's just soo amazing. You know I was doing this accounting programme thing, and it was driving me NUTS cos I kept doing it wrongly and had to redo and I was so stressed out I almot gave up in trying to hand in that part of the assignment. But lucky I was staying over at Andrea's place and she talked me through it and was there for me the whole time.

Then I resumed doing my assignment at 3am and it was Saturday night already and assignment was due on Monday and I was just like with the mentality of "I just do what I can." But suddenly, as I was re-reading the instructions again, everything seem to fall into place, I suddenly knew how to correct my mistakes without re-doing the wholee project. And I finished my assignment before 5am! Which is just soo amazing cos I couldn't and wouldn't have done it alone. :D

Another thing is, on Monday itself, when I was printing my reports for the accounting thing, I realised I was short of on report but I didn't know how to produce it. So I was just like "aiya, heck lah. 1 report out of the many also nvm." Afterwhich, as I stepped out of the shower, like immediately, my phone rang and it was Aaron calling to see if I was home and whether he can email me his reports for me to print. So I agreed. Then he asked me "Did you print the report for adjusting entries?" Then I told him I didn't cos I don't know how to. And he said "Why don't I go over to your place together with Sabrina and teach you how to print?" AND I WAS JUST LIKE OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG O.O HOW GOOD IS GOD'S GRACE YAH. :D I'm so taken aback to know that He takes care of every need even if you don't ask Him to. It's just soo amazing.

Andddd, I got a decent mark for my Econs tutorial test!! I was reallly happy with it cos I didn't do well for the first time. And praise the Lord really. Cos I thought I answered the question wrongly, and I thought I was going to fail again and I was pretty worried about it the whole time lah. But great is my God, all the things that I thought I did wrong was actually RIGHT! HAHAHAHAHHA :D It's a miracle. Cos I copied the notes wrongly, and was learning the wrong thing but in the test, I actually wrote the right thing!! HAHAHAHAHAHHA.

Now must start studying for marketing mid sem.

2009-04-15T00:50:00.002+10:00

OMG TODAY'S CONFERENCE WAS OFF.THE.DIAL.

Man, I wept like mad during the night session. God really dealt with this huge insecurity/concern of mine, showing me through a vision that I am worthy of Him, that even if everyone leaves, He's there no matter what circumstances. It's just sooo amazing. And to see one of my urbanlife member getting closer to God through this conference is just amazing.

And I am just soo thankful for Silas. We always seem to be experiencing the same thing, like EXACTLY the same. Like now, we're both praying for God's confirmation for our future. Like now, we're kindda both struggling abit in a certain area and feeling the exact same way about this thing. And like it's so amazing. God put someone together with me at the starting point of the race, someone to run this race together with me, encouraging each other when we feel tired, it's sooo amazing. The things we share and the way we feel about some stuff, I loveee it. I love his child-like passion for God and his capacity to love. It's amazingg. And like even the way we feel for conference, what we felt, it's like the saaammeee too!!! I think it's so amazing that we're growing together, that we're seeing each other grow and feeling sooo excited and happy for each other. I love this fellowship and friendship. :D It's special yknw, we did every church course together, we did camp together, and now we're doing conference tghtr. From 2 strangers, to someone I thought I wouldn't have anything in common with, to today, my most beloved brother. (:

Ok better go sleep now, I CAN'T WAAAAIT FOR CONFERENCE TO START AGAIN TMR. Even if it means waking reaaally early. (:

ILOVECONFERENCE. Because today was the first time in months I've wept in the presence of God. Because I get so much out of those super annointed sermons. Because, I get to know my urbanlife members even more, and know so much more about them on a personal level. It is amaaaazinggggg lah.

2009-04-14T01:53:00.003+10:00

I miss my mom. But I can't call home because I depleted my credit on my calling card. Mm, just suddenly miss home alot. Mom more like it, because I haven't talked to her properly in awhile. She's always either out or busy when I call so we talk distractedly for like 10mins or smth. Yeah, just feel like telling her I love her - Something I've never said to her in years.

Sometimes we forget to tell the people we love that we love them. Sometimes it's easy to forget the love that keeps everyone going. Every now and then, everyone needs to be reminded that someone loves them. And then again, sometimes the people we love, forget how to love us back.. And then no matter how hard we try to make them remember, they can't.

So tell someone today that you love him/her. It could be your parents that you're having an argument with, a sibling you're annoyed with, a friend that you fell out with, or maybe, even yourself.

2009-04-14T01:30:00.002+10:00

OMGG. TODAY WAS DAY 1 OF PLANETSHAKERS CONFERENCE. IT WAS OF THE SHAZANG AS PS RUSSEL AND PS WOULD SAY. John Bevere was just soo amazing. To rid the spirit of initmidation was definitely an awesome way to kickstart this amazing conference. And it was just soo amazing to see 90% of the 20,000 people capacity arena so filled up. And I was welling up with tears when I saw HORDES of people running (YES RUNNING) down to the alter during alter call. Zomg John Bevere is just soo annointed.

Because it's time for this generation to arise. Because I want to utilise the gift God has given to me and respond to my calling. I will stop thinking that I'm not good enough, becauuuuse, Me can do alllll things through Christ who strengthens me!

Because Holy Spirit, you got me there when you broke the spirit of intimidation.

AND THE DANCE ITEM WAS JUST OFF THE CHARTS. It was soooooooooooooooooooooo ZOMGZOMGZOMGZOMGZOMG.

I love my urbanlife (: Despite us being such different individuals, we have much fun together (: And I have ze most awesome leaders, period. :D

Must wake up at 6am tmr. O.O GOD WAKE ME UP PLSTHX. Amen.

AND I WENT TO PHILIP ISLAND AGAIN WITH ANDREA DAVIN JIAYE YIYING AND LITA! :D Pictures up on fb. Might/might not blog about it. BUSYBUSY.

2009-04-11T03:16:00.002+10:00

I AM LIKE TOTALLY CONFUSED ABOUT MYOB. It's something like the programme I used for trinity last year but last year, it was a project!!! 3 people working on it! Now it's only meeee. :( And the instructions are so unclearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ): I went to check the discussion thread on the portal and everyone's like HUH???? ughhhhhhhhh.

Ok imma gonna go get ready for bed nowww. It's 3.20am :( and I woke up at 8am today ): I hope I don't become a grouchy woman tmrr. Maybe I'll just sleep it off in the car tmr :(

I'm feeling the stress of having not enough time to complete my assignments and to study for my mid-sem tests. Lord, I surrender this easter holiday to you. I don't know how I'm going to do it, to complete all these together with the 4days conference. Lord, in your strength, I trust in you. Lord I pray you'll give me just enough time to position myself for conference but also to stay on track in my studies, Lord I pray you send me angels to help me along the way. Lord, I need refreshment and affirment that it's all gonna be ok. I need you, Lord. :(

2009-04-10T21:45:00.004+10:00

[edit] WOOO I've finished one part of my assignment! The 10 column worksheet, income statement and statement of financial position! WOOOO feel so accomplished :D Thank God for Eric srsly, helped me so much! Hahaha and he's so careless, then he always have to re-do after double checking with me hahaha so funny, then he keeps saying "im too tired, i need to sleep now." Lol! Ahh but yknw what, I forgot to set the print area for my excel right, then my printer kept printing the WHOLE excel sheet omg. which is like basically rows and columns of empty boxes untill my catridge ran out of paper. HAHAHA. I think my ink is gonna finish soon, I just used up 500 sheets of paper within.. 2months -.- YAY IM GONNA DO THE MYOB PART NOWWW. Thank you Lord for staying by me (:[/edit]

I really really super extremely thank God for having Eric do the accounting assignment "together with me". I'm flooded with relieve that each time I bump into a question, I have someone to call to ask and figure out together, instead of sweating it out alone. I am so thankful that even though he didn't plan to do his assignment today, he decided to. I am so so so so thankful, Lord. For answering my prayers (: Thank You for being my provider. Amen <3

Now, to go cook dinner.

I think I am a closet workaholic. It's like.. this evening I set my mind on completing my accounting assignment. And even at 7pm, 8pm my stomach was growling like crazy, I still kept on doing my assignment ignoring the hunger pang. That's so unlike me, it's crazy man. Maybe I just don't wanna break the momentum (:

I think staying at home makes me eat less because I am not surrounded by fooood constantly flirting with my taste buds and saliva glands and stomach and gastric juices. Hahaha!

Hahahaha srsly can't thank Eric enough for doing his assignment today too. I feel so much more calm now. Just now I was like stress untill cannot. Hahaha (: Awesome much! Yay I WILL finish my assignment by tonight (:

Yayyy Davin&Co coming to pick me up from Clayton :D Means I can afford to sleep late tonight and complete my assignment!!!!!! :D

YAYYYY TMR CAN ENJOY MYSELF COMPLETELY AND IMMENSELY :D Because I WILL have finished my assignment! ;)

2009-04-10T18:51:00.002+10:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I AM SUPER EXTREME UGHHHHHHHHH ANGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY WITH MYSELF. I AM SO DUMB.

This is my accounting assignment.

can you seeeeee the freaking amount of transactions i have to record? So I technically have to prepare a 10-column worksheet and I was like omgggg "should i draw it out? or should i use excel or should i create tables using Word?" So I decided with Word..

Tadah. Looks so organized righhht. But after I completed those transactions which are like zee basic cos it's just the opening balance, I was so stumped. I'm like "WHAT OTHER ACCOUNTS DO I HAVE TO ADD? IS IT EVERYTHING? AND WHICH ARE UNDER TRIAL BALANCE AND WHICH ARE UNDER ADJUSTMENTS?!" And I got really stressed out like sersiously. But I've got nobody to ask cos nobody has started on their acc assignment. (I started on mine first because I've got conference for 4 days of the holidays so I don't have time to do it during the holidayyyys) And i was like OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG HOWWWWWWWWWW. Then I went to read my assignment which was emailed to me and...

I FOUND THAT THEY ACTUALLY EMAILED THE TEMPLATE OF THE WORKSHEET TO USSSSSSSSSS!!! WITH EVERY SINGLE FREAKING ACCOUNT IN IT.

YOU SEEEEEEEEEEEEE! SO NICELY DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVEN GOT YOUR NAME, STUDENT ID ALL THAT DOWN THERE. WTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I thought they attached 2 documents in the email because just in case some people's computer cannot support one of the file format. WALAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!! I SPENT LIKE 2HOURS FIGURING THE STUPID TABLE OUT. AND GOT MYSELF ALL STRESSED OUT FOR NUTSSSSSSS. WAH PIANG.

Anw, on the brighter side, thank God for allowing me to even go back to the email and read the instructions again and at least I find the template now and not laterrr. Phoo.

RAWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

2009-04-10T11:45:00.003+10:00

[edit] WOOHOO I'VE COMPLETED MY MKT TUTORIAL. Lol while I was "studying" for marketing, I floated onto wikipedia and wiki-ed some of the comedies I'm currently hooked on! And I've discovered some amazing facts (which i hope is true) about some of my favourite stars! Currently am hooked on "King of Queens" and "Til Death" hahahaha. Yay I'm gonna go reheat my muffin while watching KOQ. woohooo! [/edit]

HELLO PEOPLE :D

I am so proud of myself today because I woke up at 8AM! :D I didn't even snooze my alarm! WOOHOO! :D And despite the cold weather, I trudged to the toilet and took a 45mins long shower. AHHAHAHA. It's a treat ok, cos for the past week I only showered for like 15mins. :D Hahaha that was such redundant information. LOL.

Anw, yay I woke up at 8am today! HAHAHAHA so happy. And I cleared up my messy study table. And so now, I have a clean and tidy, spick (its not spelt this way right) and span room! WOOHOO :D (because I spent 3hours on wed cleaning up my whole room inc doing my laundry) LAKSA YOU CAN COME VISIT ME NOW!!! I AM NO LONGER ASHAMED OF MY ROOM. HAHAHAHHA :D

Omg I just went to toast the ham wrap I bought from school ystd and it's aweeeeesome. Zomgggg the cheese melted and the wrap itself was crispy and mmmmmmmmm :D

YAY GOING TO PHILIP ISLAND WITH ZE GANG TMR. SO today = study dayyyyyyy.

And I bought fruits for the first time ever since I arrived back in Melbourne. $15 worth of fruits! I feel so healthy now. I had an apple last night, one banana and a bunch of grapes this morning. Very good. This will balance out allll the cup noodles i have been/and will be eating. :D

Today is Good Friday. Was praying this morning and was reminded of how Jesus died on the cross for me, how God sent his only son to die for me. And the great thing is with his blood, all sins are erased in repentance. And the best thing, He rose again above all (:

ZOMGG I'VE BEEN WATCHING SOO MUCH COMEDIES ON TUDOU.COM HAHAHAHA! First it was my fav "two and a half men", then it was "everybody loves raymond" and now it's "till death" HAHAHAH OMGGG. But it feels rather weird laughing so crazily all by myself in my room -.- but still, feels great to laugh! :D

Ok byeeeeeeeee :)

2009-04-07T02:03:00.002+10:00

OMG. I took the mango pudding I bought from school last friday out of my fridge and this is what happened to it..

Ice shavings on the pudding itself which is by now rock hard and filled with little ice shavings all in it.

The ice crystals thats formed on the cap of the container!

SO SCARY. WHERE DID ALL THE ICE COME FROM?!

I think my fridge is too cold hahaha.

I wonder what's happening to the cheesecake laksa gave me......

2009-04-07T01:43:00.002+10:00

omgggggggg i finally finished studying for my econs tute test!!!! i have a pretty gd feeling abt it so hopefully this time will help leverage out my scores :D i still love econs despite it givin me so much headachee. hahaha. if this time i still dont do well, im so gonna go to the helpdesk for every session and demand that they repeat every section of the lecture notes lor. bahh.

thank you laksana for keeping me sane when i nearly went nuts (not that you had a choice since i called you hahahaha) but thank youuu, i felt so much more refreshed aft our phonecall :D

i loveeee you lakaaaa, even though youu highly doubt my love. and i still love you even though i feel so violated by you. hahahaha. you ze bawmbxz.

k ppl, im gonna have fun tmr aft econs test by skipping my 2 most boringgg lectures!!!!! :D

kthxtiredbye.

2009-04-05T01:50:00.000+11:00

I am feeling very superficial now.

2009-04-04T02:09:00.003+11:00

WA PIANG EH.

Idk how those girls can achieve the same hairstyle everydayyyyy man. Just now I was thinking abt what to wear tmr and trying to do smth about my hair cos rly, with bangs there's nth much you can do abt them and I was trying to tie it into a half, and I was so fed up that I just "plopped my hair down" and it became a nice "curry puff" and I was like "oooooh" and I amended it a little and it became

And I was like woohoo yay! new hair! (K my hair is rly messy and my bangs are like koyak because I had my hair +fringe tied and hairband-ed up tdy)

And cos I know I suck at this kind of hair stuff, I had to take such pictures to remind me of how it is supposed to be clipped up.

then so happy right. So I decided "Ok, must practise." So I took out my clip and messed up my hair and..

NOW I CANNOT GET THE SAME FREAKING HAIR BACK AND IT HAS ONLY BEEN LIKE 1 MINTUE IN BETWEEN?!?!?!?! OMGGGG. Im not a girl :X

Anyhoo, say hello to my not-so-new-anymore-hair.

K bye. It's 2.30am and my panda eyes are so bad.

I wish I won't spend so much on my hair tmr just to get that stupid curry puff right.

2009-04-03T17:15:00.002+11:00

Hi siufang, I know you're reading this, hello. I think you're rly v unlucky, the day you arrive the weather here was soo hot. Then today, raining non stop. I think the 1 year ++ i was here, it never rained like this before. HAHA!

Today I woke up late.

Today it rained like crazy.

Today I studied for economics (partially)

Today I miss everyone in Singapore alot.

I like studying at the 9th floor of the Menzies building in uni. There are hugeeeee tables and it's very spacious and it has glass "walls" so you can look down and it's always bustling cos it's the campus centre. (: And it isn't tooo quiet, there's always bckgrd noise. And it isn't too overcrowded cos not alot of ppl know about it, and ppl go there rly go there to study, so it makes it really condusive (: And the view is awesome cos it overlooks the whole uni (which is huge) and further out more. It makes me feel so happy and contented to be there and then. (:

Resolutions are only as strong as the person who makes them. And I'm so encouraged to see someone sticking to his resolution so loyally, disregarding what his friend may think of him. (:

Ok I'm waiting for my "everybody loves raymond" to load (:

2009-04-02T02:14:00.002+11:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I MISS MY LONG HAIRRRRRRRR. :((((((((((((((((((((((( I AM FEELING DAMN NOSTALGIC OF MY HAIR NOW. I AM SO TEMPTED TO GO ON EXTENSIONS BUT NO IM NOT GOING TO DO IT. OMGOODNESS I MISS MY LONG HAIR. I LOOK AT MY OLD PICTURES AND IM LIKE "AHHHHHH MY LONG HAIRRRRR" ugh.

2009-04-02T01:07:00.002+11:00

Let's take things slow.
For time will tell.
Maybe something really good will come out of this,
But maybe something even better will,
Like a really really bossom friendship.

Lucky - Jason Mraz

Because isn't this how everthing starts?

I'm really so happy we had that talk today. (:

Even if hearts don't skip beats
Eyes don't catch glances
It doesn't mask the efforts you secretly make.

Even if everything boils down to nothing
I thank you it's you.
You, who so kindly helped me through the first semester of my first year of uni.
You, who made me feel happy in uni and making me look fwd to uni everyday.

**

Oooooh have been reaaally busy these days. Phoo, finally handed in my management essay! :D And I didn't do well for my econs test despite it being my favourite subject :( Really need to go and understand the way econs should be answered. Another econs test this tuesday!!! :O

I CUT MY NAILS TODAY. HAHAHAHHAHAH :P

Grace ah, debbie ah, really wanna talk to you girls on the phone. I can't wait for daylight saving to start/stop so that sg and aussie can go back to 2h of diff only!!! :D makes it so much easier to call back to sg.

AND DEBBIE LIM SI HUI, I AM NOT TAKING REVENGE. HAHAHHAHAHAHA YOUR EMAIL TITLE WAS SOOOO HILARIOUS PLS!!!!! I was just really busy and wasn't home for that whole weekend, tell you more when we FINALLY talk on the phone k? PLS GO REPAIR YOUR HOME PHONE OR SMTH UGH.

so busy so busy so busy.

Hey Abi, Idk if you read my blog still or not. But, I'm soo proud of you! To hear what you said today was just like "woah! You've grown so much stronger!" You've changed from inside out since last year, and i am soo happy for you!! I'm glad you've truly and honestly learnt to deal with certain obstacles in life and is such an independent and strong woman now. God deals with one problem at a time, and now that he has removed one of the biggest issue you face, He is going to do great things in you, for you and with you! Soooo happy to see you rooted in urbanlife and I hope you meet more bossom buds who will be able to aid you through uni!! You are amazing! You are metamorphasizing. HAHAHAHHAHAHAH.

Dear laksana catalina, as much as staying over at audrey's IMPEDED my progress in completing my assignment, BUT I TRULY THOROUGHLY AND ABSOLUTELY loveddddddd the 3 nights there with you. I love love love love love you so so so so much. Thank you for tolerating my so manyyy "whys" that you even doubt being a psychologist anymore HAHAHHAA. Thank you for dealing together with me the issues I face in life. Thank youu for encouraging me and never ever giving up on me. I LOVE YOUU MY MUMMY FRIEND, XL B. hurhur :P thank you for the multiple chances you've given me. (: and er.. thanks for motivating me to give it a shot for yknwwhat. idk what stuff you did, what things you said, BUT, i trust you really know and can see what's best for me. And I think what you said about this year being MY "year" was REALLLLLY encouraging HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHA :P im sorry about still making you feel uncomfortable about yknwwho, i rly rly rly rly don't mean ath. im sorry i still make you feel that way. i promise promise promise i don't mean any harm at all. even though i know no matter what i say wont take away those doubts or suspicions, but im still sorry. And im also sorry that i make you feel that way about PS. A part of me is really gratified about giving me "my space" at that time but a part of me feels horrible for feeling gratified. Im sorry. i loveeeeeeee you and see you soon... AGAIN. :P

It's time to walk out of what had been said and done years ago.

2009-03-26T21:33:00.002+11:00

How good is the Lord, my God!!

Ohmygoodness, this whole weeeeeek I have been so bugged down by this issue I'm facing currently. Everyday I wake up, I think about it. Every night before I sleep, I am still thinking about it. I was confused, I was lost, I didn't know what I wanted or how I felt towards this issue.

And just now, I sat myself down on my bed, started praying, started crying out to God, asking Him what is happenning, what is it that He wants for me, what is it that I want for myself cos I don't know anything at all. I also asked Him what were His plans for me, where do I stand in His kingdom and just throwing questions that I had huge question marks with.

And suddenly "Mark 4:22" came into my mind. (No not the whole verse, just mark 4:22) And I have to admit, at first I was doubtful, cos sometimes I get verses too but sometimes it doesn't make sense, like I made it up. So, truth be told, I approached my bible with a certain degree of skepticism.

BUT, God didn't fail me, didn't disappoint me. In contrast, He lifted me up, showed me His promises..

"For everything that is hidden will eventually be brought into the open, and every secret will be brought to light"

How awesomee is this. My Father God telling me that soon all confusion would come to an end, that I would soon not be probing in the dark, that answers would come surely though slowly. It's soo good. I was so happy after that.

I was so pumped up with faith (because this issue was weighing me down so much my heart was heavy) and everything was just like WOOHOO HAPPINESS (:

Yay God, you never disappoint. (: You are the bombxz Lord!

2009-03-26T19:52:00.002+11:00

Uni was fun today ^^

During one of those breaks between lectures, Aaron put his stuff on Sabrina's table cos he needed to bend down to retrieve smth he dropped. Then as he was bending down, Sabrina put his pencil case on his seat and shot me "SHHH" look. And it just soooo hilarious, its like everything went into slow motion and slowly.. Aaron picked his stuff up.. slowly.. he started bending his knees to sit down.. AND THEN THE FUNNY PART WAS HIS FACE THAT WENT LIKE "AYE?" And he reached under his butt to feel the "mystery object" HAHAHHAHAHAHHA SABRINA AND I BURSTTTTTT OUT IN LAUGHTER. AHHAHAHAHAHAH! And aaron was like "IS THERE ATH ELSE". Hahaha so funny.

And today we had our official econs lecturer back. Zomg I think she's awesome and SUPER FUNNY. hahaha! Yay :D I think I must rmbr to bring colour pens to econs lecture. -.-

I want to know what's going on. Or am I just thinking too much? :( Sigh.

2009-03-25T22:42:00.002+11:00

So confused :( You're right, the fact that I've been questioning myself may mean something. But then, the fact that I'm even questioning, doesn't it mean that it may not be? Urghhh :( Maybe you're right, I'm just too scared to take one more step out because it has been too long, but if this is it, then it shouldn't be hard at all right? :( and it seems as if each day, I find it harder to believe that this is It. :( ahh zomg, since when has this been so hard?

Let's think, no strings attached.

2009-03-25T16:08:00.002+11:00

I had a fringecut ystd! Hahaha! Got kindda bored with the normal side swept or clipped up fringe so i decided to cut to-the-brows-fringe. Woohoo a changee.

Anyway, ystd went down to the city with loretta, sabrina and ray! SO FUNNY LAH. Because we took a different bus, one that i haven't taken before, so for this bus, the stop is on the opposite side of the station. So, as we alighted..

Me: Oh wow this is good, we can see whether our train is coming or not.

*Train approaching*

Me: Nahh, it's ok. It's not our train.

*So all of us walked slowly*

Ray: IT'S OUR TRAIN!!!

*Sabrina gives me a WHATTHEHECKDOREEN look*

And we all raaaaaaaaaaan to the train and burst out laughing like crazy in the train HAHAHHAA. "exercise for the week" we call it. HAHAHA! All because I forgot that we're on the other side of the station so yeah.. you get it? I thought our platform should be on the opposite direction but acty it's not.

HEHEHE. And this macho angmo guy who was sitting beside ray kept touching him. HAHAHAHA. We were all trying to suppress our laughter while ray was like "zomgoodness" HAHHAHA. Loretta was like.. "haha ray, mutual attraction!" Lol so funny lah.

The Ray accompanied me to have my fringecut and we went to his hairdresser (terry) in the end. Lol. And because Ray cut his hair again after he went to terry, so when terry asked him "hey! what happened to your hair! This wasn't what I cut right!" Then Ray liedddddddddddddd "oh i had a dare with my friend. So I got 30bucks from him for cutting this hair now" hahahhahahahhaa.

LIARR.

Then we walked to college sq via lygon street to davin's place. Wahh, I so miss lygon street pls. ): It's like going back home, it's like so familiar, it's like a place of memories. Sighh ):

Then we bummed around Andrea's place, played card games and also Ray attempting a failed magic trick (muahaha) then we went for dinner! STEAMBOAT MY LOVE :D

(DEBBIE LIM I MISS EATING STEAMBOAT WITH YOUUUU!!!!! JULY WHEN I COME BACK OK?! :D)

AND ZOMG DAVIN ATE LIKE what? 9 CUPS OF JELLY?! IDIOT LOR, KEEP MAKING ME TAKE FOR HIM. PFFTS.

OMG I WAS READING SOMEONE'S BLOG EARLIER AND.. She said she saw a marriage proposal in the sky!!!!!! Someone had an aeroplane writing "Jojo, marry me?" ZOMGGGG AND SHE HAS PICTURES AND VIDEO!!! SOOOO SWEEET LAHH!!!!

Oh, Ray and I saw Graham at the train station. Lol.

AND I JUST TALKED TO DEBBIELIMSIHUI ON THE PHONE JUST NOW COS SHE CALLED ME AFT RECEIVING WHAT SHE THOUGHT WAS "AN EMO SMS" FROM ME. HAHAHHAHA SO HAPPY TO TALK TO HER :DDDDDDD Rly have missed you alot this week lahh :(

Ok must finish marketing tutorial tonight so that I can start on my management assignment. UGHHHHHHH. DUE ON WEDNESDAYYYYYYY ):

UGHH, CANNOT GO OUT THIS FRIDAY NIGHT :( MUST STAY HOME TO DO MGMT!! Hopefully will be done by friday lah!!! Saturday am going down to the city to have brunch with Adelene, meet up with peako and dinner with Andrea&gang. Then Sunday I invited Ray to shakers and afterwhich I'll go check out his. SO BUSY WEEKEND LAH. Then Monday got urbanlife. So if I don't finish by friday, i've only got tuesday lefttttt!!

School was fine today. Cos Aaron Sabrina and Felicia all take statistics this semester so they've got this assignment due this thursday that felicia hasn't even started! So they were all helping her today. haha! And thank God my accounting tutor didn't check our tute work today cos i didn't do this week's! haha but he mentioned he intended to though! so next week he's checking! He's so nice lah, usually they're not allowed to tell us when they're gonna check. HEHE.

I think the way you lie for me, is adorable.

2009-03-23T22:45:00.003+11:00

WOO TODAY I FEEL SO DILLIGENT :D

I woke up at 9.30am and after preparing, went to the school library to study for my econs test!!! WOOHOO :D So productive, I read up on all the things I should read up on. :D :D :D And I had my fav caramel latte!! And I realise I'm not a muffin person, cos they are very sticky :( But I really like the blueberry muffin in one of the clubs in singapore :D

Oh, and the best part was I woke up and saw an sms from Silas and it goes "Hi Doreen, just felt like sending you this. Philippians 3:13-14" And I jumped out of bed and grabbed my bible and srsly, it knocked my socks off. It has been something I have been praying about, something Lydia and I have been declaring over my life and somthing Lydia mentioned in church yesterday too. Seriously, it was WOOHOOO.

And in the library.. Study study, daydream daydream, study study, zone out zone out.

@ 12.30pm, Ray came cos he was 30mins early for class lol. Had marketing lecture with him, zomgg so funny!!!! The lecturer was asking the guys how long did they take to buy a jeans. And Ray said "A week" and then the lecturer continued and said "2 hours is the maximum" And I was like "zomgg you so metro." HAHAHA. I love marketing lecture lah, the lecturer is soo interactive and engaging and funny and he really pulls back the lecture in relative to our everyday life. It's just awesomexz man.

Was telling Ray that and he was like "ok lah, I'll help you get his number later." zzz lololol.

Then we had lunch together and talked about nothing productive except for the last part whereby I didn't understand this certain theory in econs and he giving me some tips for the test. Other than that, our conversation is like super rubbish. HAHA. I think the main theme of today's conversation was on dreams. HAHAHA.

Oh ok, this is the super funny wtheck part. I was walking with him to his busstop and he was going on and on that he didn't feel like going home. And to cut a long story short, we ended up on the same bench, under the same tree at the same lawn (but now with more grass cos they planted more) and he was doing nothing and I was doing my econs. Yah srsly, when his bus was like 7mins away. Lolxz.

Oh but lucky he was there, I had a few impt questions regarding the weird concept of supply. But it was very very nice to study outdoors for a change. The weather was just right. It was snugly warm from the sun but cool from the autumn breeze and the spot was very shady and vaguely hidden behind some bushes. And the lush green from the lawn was so soothing to the eyes. And from intervals to intervals there would be a bunch of ppl wallking past either to or from class. It's amazing. Sometimes I really love Melbourne's weather, ok, most of the times. :D

Lol was recapping this conversation I had with Andrea and Davin to Ray

Me: I want my first car to be a Toyota Corolla.
Andrea and Davin: HUH!!! WHAT! WHY!!! (of course there was more violent response from Davin)
Me: WHY! It sounds nicer than like.. a Honda Civic right!!! And it's affordable enough to be a first car!
Andrea: Yeah, Doreen very realistic one.
Me: (totally spoiling my own image) YAH! AND COROLLA GOT LEATHER SEATS!!!
*BOTH OF THEM GROANS/SHOUTS IN UNISON*
Davin: WHAT THE HECK!!!! YOU GOT MONEY YOU WANT PAPER SEATS, NO SEATS ALSO CAN!!! ANY CAR ALSO CAN LEATHER SEATS WHAT!!!
Andrea: YA LAH! You just have to pay more only what!!!!! ZOMGG DOREEEEEEEEN.

HAHAHAHA IT WAS SOOOO FUNNY.

Everyday it gets prettier

2009-03-22T21:15:00.002+11:00

Today I was off to a bad start :(

I woke up to the ringing of my handphone. I picked it up from the table and saw that it was Sarah Woo (one of the ushers in the Guest Services team) and I looked at the time and it was 9.08am. And I couldn't stop looking from "Sarah Woo calling" to "9.08am" and I just kept staring and didn't pick up the phone.

I WAS SUPPOSED TO REACH CHURCH AT 9AM!!!!!!!

OHMYGOODNESS. I was so scared and guilty because the team was already shorthanded and yet I was still so irresponsible!!! I really didn't have any ideaa why I didn't hear my alarm which was set at 6.30am. ZOMGGG!!! And I checked my alarm clock status in my phone and it was "On" and i was like "WHAT HAPPENED?!?!?!?!" And I had to text my leader and apologise and explain. The thing is even if I rushed down I couldn't have made it cos the Sunday trip down to church take 1.5hours. URGHHH.

I FELT SOOO BAD :( And I was also so lost after that aiyo. Cos I was supposed to come home after serving to study for my econs test then now my timetable was like upsidedown chapalang. I even contemplated not going to church!!!!! :O Something was definitely wrong in the morning man.

Today's sermon was sooo awesome!!! PS Matt is just seriously empowering and hilarious. Haha! And there was alter call and Jiaheng prayed for me ((: And during the service, I couldn't stop thinking about a certain friend. Kept thinking that today's sermon would impact him somehow in one way or another, so I texted him and was seriously and totally praying for his reply.

Afterwhich, Lydia came and pray with me as well. And after that she started speaking into my life. You know what God, you've sent leaders after leaders to speak the same thing about my life, reminding me about the gift you've given me, believing that I am already rising up to my gift. But you know what God, till the day I get the confirmation from you and you alone, it's gonna be hard for me to trust and believe and I will and can rise up to what you've called me to be. SO YOU BETTER START SPEAKING TO MEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! ;)

Ok sorry, sidetracked with God.

Anw, had dinner with urbanlife after much persuasion from Jiaheng - "Study also need to eat right!" and Adelene - "I also got test on Wednesday but I also haven't study!!" Hahaha wtheck, my leaders ah.... :D

We had Nelayan!! YUMMAYE :D 3/4 of our conversation was made up of food! HAHAHA. We are a really greedy urbanlife. :D No wonder God placed me here. HAHAHAHHA!

And I'm having brunch with Adelene on SATURDAAAAAAY :D i lovee (:

Going to school library to study for econs test tmr!!! DOREEN JIAYOU!

Dear Lord, tell me if this picture in my head is from you or isit only what I want? What is it YOU want? Is this it?

2009-03-22T00:57:00.002+11:00

TODAY WAS AWESOME :D

MY MOST UTILISED SATURDAY IN THE CITY :D

Davin and Andrea picked me up from Clayton!!!So nice, then they fetched me to the city to meet Tricia for brunch. ZOMGG, MY BRUNCH COST $24 and it was only eggs on toast with mushrooms and saussage and a iced mocha. I was soo shocked. Zomgg.

Anw, today's catch up w Tricia was soooo awesome! The most awesome one ever. It was The most honest and open conversation everr. We shared soo many things that were so close to our hearts and we realised we actually felt the exact same way about this certain issue. I'm just so happy that God has planted the same vision in both of us and has given confirmation for the things we've been thinking and going through. God certainly did answer my prayer of taking this friendship up another notch. :D I'm just sooo happy :D

Then it was movie with ray. LOL. We walked around aimlessly in Melbourne Central and Myers for 2hours before the movie started. Zomgg soo tiring. Hahaha ray's left arm is super "electrifying". It's damn scary. There was this once I brushed against his left arm, OMG THE "PIAK" SOUND WAS SOO LOUD!!! The static zomg, SO PAIN!!!! And everytime it's just his left arm only lah. HAHAHA. Wtheck. So scary.

Hahaha and we basically just laughed at every single stupid thing and make fun of everything we see. HAHAHA. So basically, we seeked joy from every inanimate thing possible. HAHAHA.

Oh and he made a very smart guess. We were at the furniture store looking around saying stupid things again and then I said "Oh the bookshelves here are quite not too expensive ah! It's reasonable for its design!" Then he was like "yeah it is" and all that. Then he said "You read alot yeah?" Then I was like shocked lah, like HOW YOU KNOW?! Then he said "Yeah cos once you come here the first thing you take note of is the bookshelf" WHICH I THOUGHT WAS A VERY VERY SMART GUESS! HAHAHHAA.

Then after much rubbish and nonsense by going to Myers, supermarkets, pet stores, unique boutiques and pretending as if we can afford everything, 4.20pm CAMEE. Ah, the show was bascially just alot of killing. The scary part is just when the tension was building up when the killer was coming that sort of thing lah.

Then we sat down and talk for awhile before Edwin came then it was off to meet Andrea, Davin and Joseph for dinnerrr!!!! OMG SO HAPPY TO JUST HAVE DINNER WITH ALL THEM :D There's nothing like good old friends :) So comfortable, so familiar, the making fun of that don't harbour any harm, the laughing together that seems so harmonious, the "who do we attack now" telepathy, i love all of themmmm :D

Then omggg, when davin wanted to send me home, ALL THE HIGHWAYS WERE CLOSEDDDDD. Zomgg, its such a long storyy I don't even want to go there man.

But anyway, dear andrea and davin, really, thank you so so much for fetching me for clayton and sending me home. Thank you Andrea for reading maps after maps to find alternative routes. Thank you Davin for not even bearing a grudge for having to drive and drive and drive (even though this is what you love best) But yeah, I really appreciate you guys helping me move those stuff to my room and helping me on "Project Ants Extermination" Hahaha. You guys are really the sweetest things ever, and thank you so so so much, from the real depths of my heart, THANK YOU. (:

Yah and andrea, I am thinking about what you said, what I said in response and what you said about regrets. But I really don't want to go into it or maybe even admit it because I don't know if this is right, I don't want empty hopes, because maybe it's just really very simple. I know it's going to be harder as time goes by to control, but I have to, I want to. I don't want to step into uncertainty, I don't dare anymore. Each time I catch myself falling, I slap myself awake. I think you know what I'm trying to say already yeah? Time will tell, time will tell. Haha (:

Anyway, I had a really awesome Saturday. And I love everyone that God has placed in my life for every single reason. (: Haha now that I think of it, the three people I met today (Tricia, Ray and Andrea&Gang), we are all like in different phases of friendships. And yet every single time I hang out with them I learn smth new about them (Today I learnt smth interesting about Tricia's future home, learnt that Ray has an electrifying left arm, and Joseph is sensitive to hamsters, Andrea is bad at giving out flyers etc.), laugh about something with them, confide something to them. So amazing how some things can be different but the core still remains the same.

I love my Saturdaysss :D Gahh tmr must reach church at 9am!!! Ok I hope I can wake up and stay up enough to study for econs test :(

Zomgg 2am liao.

Must wake up at like 6.30am tmrrrr. AHHH OMGGGGGG.

2009-03-20T22:45:00.002+11:00

OMG PLS WATCH!! HER VOICE IS SOO GOOOOD :D

YO!

Zomgg, pot luck was.. a disaster. I rly don't like parties with alcohol involved. Alcohol just changes people. People whom you've once respected has lost that respect. People whom you thought are nice and friendly suddenly turn vulgar and unimaginably wild. Really, why do so many people like not to be in control of their own minds?

School was fun today! Marketing lecture was interesting! Learnt alot of stufff :D And Ray lied to me that it was Valentines Day in Australia today!!! URGHHH.

We were walking through our school lawn back to our usual bench under the tree, and I was asking him "why do they sell flowers in school, who will buy!" then he said "oh cos today's valentines day mah. Australia's valentines day, don't you know!!" Then me thinking that Daffodil Day (which is today) means Valentines day, was so sad cos it was yet another valentines day without anyone special. WLAU MAKE ME DEPRESSED FOR NTH. hahahaha. Ok depressed is too strong a word. LOL.

Then we met again after school ended for him so that he can copy my econs notes and I was supposed to study for econs test. Ah, but we ended up talking and saying nonsense and laughing at stupid things. So yeah. Ended up going to nandos and I asked him what his shirt meant by "Save Ferris"

And he was like "Uh.. Oh.. This shirt was made for me by a friend.. Well.. Ferris is my friend and like.. yyah something really bad happen to him so.."

And I was feeling so sad and concerned of what happened but decided not to ask since it didn't seem right what right. Then suddenly he burst out "HAHAHA BLUFF YOU ONE."

BFFTS.

Anw, I made 2 new friends at potluck today!! They're super nice people. Woohoo! Claire and Sherlynn. I met Sherlynn very briefly before but today got to know her better! Yay! And Claire looks suppppppppppppppppppper like someone from trinity. ZOMGGG EVEN DOWN TO THE WAY THEY APPLY THEIR MAKEUP AND BRACES AND SIZE!! ZOMGGGGG. SO SCARYYYY. At first I was still thinking "huh, adrienne is in monash meh?" and when i was asking for claire's number I nearly typed "adrienne" as her name. zomgg. SO ANGKER.

Yeah, anw some really really disturbing stuff happened during the potluck and Claire, wye ping, Zelia, Sherlynn and I were like "AAHHH" and we ran out and bonded like srsly. Wye was srsly disturbed, so was Claire. :(((

GRACE YEOH W.Y!!!!!! SOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!! YOU CLOSET GENIUS LAH YOU!!!!! CONGRATS ON YOUR AMAZING 3.7 FOR GPA!!!!!! YOU ARE NUTS LAH!!!! I LOVEYWURVEYDOVEY YOU!!!!!! I BET URE HAVING A BLAST NOW!!!!! CONGRATULATIONS SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!! Hahaha this felt like when I called you to tell you my O level results. LOL. YAY WOMAN YOU DID IT!!! :D

Yay meeting tricia @ 11am for brunch (:
meeting ray at 4.20pm for movie (decided like 1hour ago. lol)
dinner with andrea and gang at 6.30pm at somewhere nice!!!

YAY!! DAVIN IS RENTING A CAR TMR SO HE CAN COME TO CLAYTON AND FETCH ME. WOOHOOOO!!!!! THEN HE CAN FETCH ME HOME AFT DINNER TOO!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!! :D :D SO HAPPY! NO MORE LONG TIME TRAVELLING AND RISKING THE DANGER OF WALKING HOME ALONE AT NIGHT!!! WOOHOO :D :D :D don't i just loveeeeee friends with the passion of driving!! WOOHOO!!! YAY ANDREA :D

Zomgg ushering at 9am on Sundaayy ): then have to come back to study for econs test!!! :( Ughhh. TMR IM GONNA HAVE SO MUCH FUN AND ENJOY MYSELFFF!!!!

2009-03-19T20:20:00.002+11:00

I had a nightmare last night ):

Zomgg today's econs lecture was overwhelming to zee max. It was like INFORMATION OVERLOAD! It's as if for every 50words the lecturer said, there'd be a graph to draw. ZOMGGG. And some graphs are like "ZOMG, WHAT?!" and the "i feel so lost" feeling :( And accounting lecture was as fast paced as ever, I wonder how those people who have never done accounting before understand man. -.-

Ok, I'm really confused now. I'm already enrolled into an accounting unit for next sem, but i really don't wish to do accounting anymore in my lifee. But then, if I switch from that, I'd choose macroeconomics. But, if this little tip of the iceberg today is starting to make me nervous about economics, is macroeconomics really what I should be doing? Sigh. Idk idk idk. :(

Tmr is Friday. Which means, the whole gang doesn't have school except for Ray and I. Lucky people huh. And because he decided not to turn up for school today which means missing the week's worth of econs lecture and accounting lecture, he has to copy notes from me cos ECONS TEST NEXT WEEEEEEK :( And Eric is going back tmr night lah!!! For a short weekend cos his grandma's 50th wedding anniversary. So sweet. WHILST, Ray and I study for econs test in the libraryy. :( *WAILS*

WOOHOO AARON PASSED HIS DRIVING TEST!!!! SO HAPPY FOR HIM!!! HE TEXT ALL OF US "YAYYYY PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP :D:D:D:D:D:D::D:D:D:D:D" hahahahha! I think in aussie after theory you get your L, then after your driving test you get your P which is the real thing. hahaha!

Sabrina was so funny in lecture today, she was soo bored during accounting lecture and I was zoning out, so everytime the lecturer made notes, Sabrina would help me copy onto my notes, and everytime the lecturer change slides, she will help me flip my page. hahahah so funny!

Meeting dearest tricia for brunch on Saturdaaaaaaaaaay! :D :D :D I love love love love love love my urbanlife and can't thank God enough for each and everyone of them!

Lol, Billy just called me cos he was walking home and had nothing to do. Zomgg the conversation was sooo hilarious. He's such a metro. Lol, which is a good thing!! HAHAHAHA! :P

Ooooh, tomorrow I'm having pot luck with... the people staying at my place. Ok, so basically everyone who stays in "Monash Accomodation" are all Monash Uni students. And the landlord decided to hold a pot luck for everyone to know each other. I don't know whether to say I'm looking forward, or not. Alright alright, I should.

2009-03-18T18:27:00.002+11:00

Hey grace! Will call you next week then!! Just as well, cos I've got to finish my marketing tutorial for this friday and study for my econs test next tuesday! Tell me if you're free-er on attachment night! Hahaha and YESS TEXT ME YOUR RESULTSS :D Yknw my number yeah! Do you? Hmm.. . And I'm sure when the time is right, you'll not even feel like talking about things that doesnt matter (:

Uni was fine today. I got to know a really nice girl from my management tutorial today. hahaha today we had to form groups and build a tall infrastructure out of STRAWS AND PINS. HAHAHAH! One of my group member was like "is this engineering class or management class?!" HAHAHA! And some of them were pretty good at what they were doing! Hahaha! Very very architecture-y. Lol!

I had free bbq saussage! LOL! Unis here always have free bbq to promote whatever event that they were going to hold lah, to attract the crowds! lol!

OMG TODAY AT TUTORIAL SOO EMBARRASSING. The tutor wanted to split the whole class up into groups yeah, so she started with the girl in front of me and she said "1" the guy next to her said "2" and yadayada. And when it came to my turn, the girl beside me said 3, but because I was feeling lost, i was like "err..4?" OMGGGG THE WHOLE CLASS BURST OUT LAUGHING. And the guy in front of me was like "this is not testing your counting skills" HAHAHHA OMGGGG. SO PAISEH :(

I'm thinking what to have for dinner. :)

OH OH OHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! OHMYGOODNESS!!!!! I EXPERIENCED EARTHQUAKE!!!!!!!!!! It was a 4.6 earthquake! OMGGGGGGGGGGGG!!! SO SCARY!!!!!! I was fresh out of the shower and suddenly my whole room started shaking and I can hear loud rumbling noise and no, I didn't have flashbacks of my life, no, I didn't see a white tunnel, but instead! i thought "Omg is the ceiling going to collapse!!!!" HAHAHHAHAHAHA HIGHLIGHT OF MY LIFE. SO SCARY YOU KNOW. I FELT SO DIZZY! And I sat down, and I saw my table lamp shaking and the water level in my bottle was like trembling badly. I THOUGHT I WAS SEEING THINGS. SO SCARY. ZOMGGG EARTHQUAKEEEE. :O

I hope I finish my marketing tutorial by tonight!!! :D

And I am fasting on facebook (: Better things I can do with the excess time (: Dear God, here I come! :D

2009-03-18T00:10:00.003+11:00

GRACE! DO you mean 12am wed night?! womann ah, means it's 3am my time you know. :O horror. And if you meant 12pm, i can't ah, im having lectures from 3-6! So since for both 12 also cannot, call you again another day? I'll tell ya again! :D

Zomgg, I still thought wah I bought a pack of sushi and eat half, then the other half save for tmr, and guess what, i just wolfed down the other half at 11.30pm. ZOMGGGGG. FATS.

Today I had Inner Champion. (which is one of my church courses)

I'm so glad I made the choice to go to inner champ. It's just mindblowing, dynamic and deals with every flaw of a Christian. The first week, we PS Debbie shared about the power of words.

Let me share with you a true story that was published in a medical psychology book ok?

Years ago, a man was having a very basic, easy and normal operation which involves very minimal risk. He wasn't worried and neither were the doctors. However, after the operation, many complications arose. There was excessive bleeding, infection and a risk of going blind. How is this possible? It was such a normal operation, why are these happening?

Specialists were flown in from all over the world. But nothing was found to be the cause. Finally, a psychologist asked the doctors what was being discussed in the operation theatre as the operation was ongoing.

The doctors replied that they were discussing about this old man who had cancer and that he was incurable and was going to die.

The psychologist then replied "I want you to put the man back under anethesia again and say that that old man will be cured and is going to live and that he himself would come out of this operation unscathed."

And it was done.

And the man was immediately cured.

The power of words - A man under anethesia, upon hearing those discouraging and negative words, his body went into rejection, depression even.

What's more the power of words of you/us Christians? We have God's authority and power, what more would the weight of our words carry? The gossips that you've spread, the salt and oil that you added, I'm guilty of it myself. If you've once said that someone "cannot make it", which part of that do you think would help that person come out of his/her difficulty? Even as non christians, this simple theory makes sense yeah? Once you've stamped someone with a label, how hard will it be for that someone to come out of that bondage? The words you speak of someone, you never know its impact that it has on others.

This is really a part of my life that I'll be trying hard to eradicate. Gossiping, talking behind people's back. Upon receiving this revelation, I believe the taming of my tongue will come next. It's gonna be hard definitely. How many conversations are actually made up of gossips? How many friends would I be risking to lose? Really, it's a scary thought. But really, instead of putting people down, why don't you, today, start encouraging others? :) Instead of talking behind the backs of others, why don't you think of how you can help him/her? Think about the many times you've misjudged someone at face value and realise he/she is acty an awesome person. Then think again, how many other have you judged and not know who he/she really is? During this process, how many potential good friends have you lost? Hmmm..

Yah ok, I know I sound so "saint/holy" lah ok, but this is something I really want to change about myself. I'm still in the process, still changing, not near yet. I gossip because it's so easy to bond with other girls while laughing at someone, but must this be the only way to forge friendships? I gossip because I get to know the newest and hottest news, but what about people who have thought of once confiding in you their troubles but decided not to because they're afraid you'd broadcast it to the world? I gossip because it's cool, but what have you yourself thought about all those gossipmongers?

Hmm..

And today's Inner Champ was about forgiveness. And during the time, God really put faces and names into my mind of people to forgive. It was painful no doubt, recalling the things they've said, things they've done to my or my family. But as I'm reminded of how ready God is to forgive me each time I repent, I'm just in awe you know? Like, if He sent His son down to die for my sins, and still continuously forgive me, what's more someone who's done only such hurt to me? What's more, it's tiring to carry this hate. I want to break these walls of my heart, so that nothing will stop people from coming into my heart. And I trust God enough that for every 1 person that hurts me, He'll send 10 others to heal the hurt.

Awesome if you've read up till here. I hope you feel encouraged in some way or another, that you've gotten something out of it. (:

School was fun today. Hanging out with Aaron, Eric, Ray, Sabrina, Felicia and Becs. It was all fun and nonsense :D Lots of laughing and teasing! Hahaha! Woohoo, Aaron is gonna take his driving test this thurs! And he's gonna drive to school once he passes it! :D YAYYY THEN WE CAN GO CHADSTONE FOR LUNCH HAHAHAHA :D

And praise the Lord! I finished up my accounting tutorial in record time @ the library today! YAAY! I even had time to go home and eat dinner before heading to Inner Champ :D Ohh, I love God srsly. He does wonders. Each and every time after Inner Champ, I always seem to have favours over going back home? Hahaha the first I.C, I got a car ride back and today, I met a bunch of them at the train station and we all were going to the same bus stop and there were even two guys left who were walking in the same direction as me and their places were all after mine! So from South Yarra all the way to Clayton, I was fully escorted! woohoo! For once, I felt safe taking public transport back home at night. Hahaha!

Because God, I feel you moving in my life so much this year. And I'm really excited of what you're going to do, and I know I'm going to be delightfully surprised as you reveal parts and parts of your plans for me slowly. Today, you kept reminding me of the verse that if I draw near to You, You WILL draw near to me. And true enough, as I called out to you, I felt your refreshment without fail. Yay loves! :D

2009-03-17T00:40:00.002+11:00

OH OH! On Sunday, I went with Andrea and Davin to Camberwell Market! OMGGG!!!! I got super nice accessories for $2? $3? And super nice bags for $5? And super awesome dresses for $10? DAMNNNN FREAKING WORTH IT. ZOMGGGGGGGG :D SO HAPPY AS I TRIED ON EACH OF THEM AT HOME!!

Now.. I just need to get a nice pair of heels (:

`I want to comfort you, but I don't know how. And I don't think it should be me either.

2009-03-17T00:21:00.002+11:00

TODAY THE WEATHER CHEAT MY FEELINGS.

@ 9am, i woke up, FREEEZING. So I went back to sleep instead of the intended "wake up to do housework" plan.

@11.30am, not THAAAT cold but I can feel the quite chilly wind.

@1.45pm when I left the house, the wind was ok-ish cold, but not blowing frequently. It was tolerable.

@3.30om, when I was at the bus stop, THE SUN WAS SCORCHING!!! Seriously you know, like I was wearing a spag top with a cardi right, then i can feel the sun SCORCHING my chest. like seriously!!! IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOO FREAKING HOT! I can feel myself being BAKED man. The sun was sooo painful. And hello, the max temp for today is supposed to be 18deg?! So I bring my thick winter jacket out? (cos i can feel myself falling sick alr) AND NOW THE SUN IS LIKE BURNING ME. Hahaha and ray was wearing a knit with scarf and i was like "not hot?" and he act tough "no very cold ah." ROFL. I secretly think he was secretly toasted.

I had urbanlife tonight! I was chatting with Lydia, and she told me about smth which really reminded me of the promises God has for me, and all the words that has been spoken over my life by leaders and pastors. This whole week I have been reminded again and again about what Lydia spoke over my life when I was baptised but I thought it was just me. Then today, Lydia confirmed once again about these promises and perhaps even, my calling in His kingdom? I mean like, Lydia didn't even know I've been thinking about these, but yet what she said.. really, powerful.

And during worship, Adelene had a vision of a rainbow which symbolizes the promises of God and a very dry tree. And beside the tree, was a river. And as the tree soaked in the water, it grew and grew till it touched the rainbow. It was so refreshing to think of ourselves and God in this perspective.

(OH GOLLY, NOW ITS RAINING AND FREEZING AGAIN)

Oh just now at the bus stop so scary ok!! There was a huge BOOM, like a crashing sound and everyone was wondering if it was a gun shot. Then suddenly this uncle turned and saw that his jacket was egg-smeared. In other words, someone threw an egg at him. It shocked me really, I thought only Chinese was into this "egg throwing" thing like in dramas yknw? Wah, even ang mohs also so into egg throwing ah! Hmm :X Yeah, anw the whole situation was very weird and scary. I was so afraid that I would get thrown smth in the head. Afterwhich, a group of rowdy guys did a car stunt and sped off. SO SCARY. Max Srsly.

Not watching Friday the 13th anymoree. There was so much bad reviews about it lor. And the timing is at 5pm. Bzz. The next review which I thought was quite nice "The Readers" or something, i cant rmbr. But it was a super literature film so I assume the guys wont like it eh.

Ugh, mgmt lecture tmrr ): Sian diao k. Then econs tut, ugh. As much as i lovee the subject, nahh, don't like the tutorial. Then accounting lecture with my usual! Aaron Sabrina Eric Ray! Woohoo! So fun :D

I feel quite disappointed, no more movie aft school ): but at least this means i get to go inner champ. woohoo.

Weather, please dont cheat my feelings tmr ok? ^^ You are supposed to be a max of 21degrees tmr, and you are forecasted to rain. So please, don't scorch.

OH OMG SO FUNNY!!! Today as I was leaving Davin's house right, then we were walking to the lift, then I realise my handphone was not in my bag and I was like "oh shit!!" And i felt in my pocket and it wasn't there too! SO I chiong back to his house then suddenly I heard my ringtone and FELT the vibration. And I was like HUH OMG! MY HP IS IN MY OTHER POCKET!!

Hahaha ok the thing is i always only put my hp in my right pocket, so i only checked one "leg" and not the other? IT WAS HILARIOUS I TELL YOU. The realisation that the hp is in the pocket i didn't check. It's soo funny, i couldn't stop laughing. at myself, yes.

GRACIE WOMAN, I'LL MOST PROLLY CALL YOU WED NIGHT OK? (:

2009-03-15T01:55:00.003+11:00

Hey huiwen! Lovely to see your tag (: Yeah marketing is awesome shizz right! It just clicks into place yeah! You just go like "ORHHHHH..." instead of "HUH?" hahaha! Don't you just love that feeling of not feeling lost! HUEHUE. :D

Hello fellow friends! I'm just back from watching "CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC!" IT IS ONE OF ZEE MOST FUNNIEST SHOW. HAHAHHA! GO WATCH GO WATCH!!! It's not disappointing, and it doesn't fall short of the book! There are so many parts that the cinema goes like "AWWWWW.." or "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH" and laugh like madness moments. hahaha!

And I caught up with val and peako today at pancake parlour! It was really good albeit brief. We shared lots of stuff and just had fun talking about what happened and stuff (:

Then dinner with andrea, davin, joseph, edwin and jia ye! And movie! :D And next tuesday after school Ray, Eric and I will be watching friday the 13th! WOOHOO :D Along with aaron and sabrina maybe! :D Hahahaha my "uni friends". So cool. Now I've got my primary sch friends, my sec sch friends, my trinity friends, and my uni friends! WAHHHHHH. I feel so oldd. So many stages of life has passed. (:

God's great, seriously. Like everytime I try to catch a cab back home from the train station, even though I'd always have to wait in the coldddd for a cab that comes every dono how long, but something good always comes out of it!

The first time, I met 3 Singaporeans who's doing first year uni in Monash as well whilst offering to share a cab. Then today, I met 2 people who stays at my accomodation as well!! And they're really nice people and they were in the same movie theatre as us too! Hahahha! God's awesome. I really feel so blessed with all the people He has put into my life this year. I just love all the little coincidences, all the "how i met him/her", it's just like woww. :D

I'm so happy I'm making all these new friends, excited to know how our friendship will grow, where it will take me/her/him/us to, what phases of life we'll be going through together and all that. Really, I'm so thankful for every single person He has placed in my life this year. Both, new and old. (: Thankful for new people because making new friends is definitely a fun process and of course for the fact that we can help each other and have fun together and to develop newer and closer friendships with different people from all walks of lives and different cultures. Thankful for old friends because it's always nice to fall back on something familiar and also nice to know who's always sticking around, always there for you, and that some things remain the same despite whatever circumstances. SO awesome, I love my friends.

I think 09 is gonna be one of the best years of my life. 2006 was really really good srsly, 2007 was kindda hmmmm, 2008 was smooth, 2009 - i look forward to a blast. (:

Hi Andrea, sorry I made that stupid comment on the corridor today before we left for melbourne central :(

2009-03-13T14:14:00.002+11:00

YAYY WEEKENDS!

Omg i'm so shag. Slept at 5.30am ystd cos debbie lim called whilst i was chionging my marketing tutorial. WOMANNN AHHHH. I NEARLY DIED IN MY LECTURE TODAY. SOOO TIRED.

So I met ray in marketing lecture. Woohoo both of us bored like mad. I wwas playing tic tac toe with myself, he was doodling. And I totally LOLed at a very discreet note he wrote to me. HAHAHA SO FUNNAY. Then we had a brief lunch tghtr, whilst trying to figure out where eric was and why is his voicemail so creepy. ANGKER.

Yay my marketing tutor is super good at what she's doing! Very engaging, easy to understand! Ok, maybe last night I was too zonked out to understand what the text was saying but still, she's rly good! I like her already! Except that when she asked me a question I didn't know how to answer. HEHE :P

Yay I really love commerce. I'm so glad that I didn't choose to do real estate just for the sake of staying in Melbourne Uni cos I would most prolly have died. I love commerce, it's so relevant and it's like all around you.

You know how people always say science is all around you, you're in touch with science everyday, so science shouldn't be a difficult subject, it's common sense blah dee blah? Nawp, not that way for me. I feel so only for commerce. YAY SO HAPPY :D It's like studying is no longer a chore? Cos I rly like what I'm doing. ^^ And I actually look forward to do my readings cos I'm.. eager to know about the market and economy?

Ok the above does not apply to management or accounting. JUST ECONS AND MARKETING.

Accounting to me is like........ - _ you can what i mean? Whereas econs and marketing is --. SO the former is like, i'll never be able to link or connect the theories or mgmt and acc. but for econs and mkt, its like.. feel so enlighted! HAHAHA.

Ok nuff about studies, its zee weekends!

Omgg tricia just gave me a new people from church to call up! So nervous! Dno what to say! My first timeee!

Ok have to do laundry today.

Miss wye, wanna hang out with herrrr and do girl things. :(

Stock exchange,
my calling?
Or not.

2009-03-12T00:15:00.002+11:00

Hahaha ok this is so funny. I was talking to eric on fb and he asked me to which slide did the lecturer stop at last week. So I told him I just painted my nails, still waiting for it to dry so I'll check for him later. So yadayadayada, and I told him it was my first time painting my own nails and he said

"yeah, what you should do is to dip your whole finger into the polish bottle"

HAHAHAHHA WHAT THE HECK.

And and yesterday, ray, eric, lauretta and I went to "study session" at the Halls which is the on-campus dorms, accomodation, hall of residence whatever. And we were lost. Like thoroughly lost, we were like the only pedestrians and there was like a lake and mountain and shizz. And we finally found the Halls and it was rly like old and dirty and dark and cos the 3 of them are all indonesians, they started to say like "angker angker angker" and i found out that it meant scary, creepy that sorta thing. And the wholeeeee way we were like "wah angker sia. angker sia" HAHAHHAHAHA! And like small small thing also "angker! angker!" HAHAHHAHAHHA so dumb hahahahhaha. hilarious man. It was like our new "in" word. HAHAHHAA!

And that night, I dreamt that we 4 were back at the Halls. Then Ray said "oh, if your sim card is missing means the ghost is using your phone" HAHAHHAHA SO RETARDED RIGHT. but in my dream super freaked out cos my sim card was missing. HAHAHA.

angker ftw! HAHAHHA.

I'm rly very goondu about painting my own nails. You know how you go to the mancurist and it's smooth and like nice and polished right, mine's like blotchy and thick and I got polish stains on the side of my nails. SO GROSS. seriously man. hahahha what the heck.

Hooked on Corrine May. :)

2009-03-11T16:43:00.003+11:00

Hello world! Aww so nice to see comments coming in, YAY THANK YOU PEOPLE FOR STILL CONTINUTING TO READ MY BLOG, makes me feel.. unforgotten? AHHAHAHAH.

Anww, uni's good. But, first year still isn't "such a breeze" as people always said it'd be. I'm already bombarded with assignments, mid-sem tests, tutorial work already! It all seemed overwhelming at first, but I soon came to cope with it with the help of dearest Tricia who shared with me how her first year was like and also Miss Laksana telliing me she's also going through the same thing. And also through lots and lots of prayer and support of my mum ^^

Staying alone isn't actually quite as bad. There's quite a few things that I can now do that I usually can't when I had a housemate. I think I'm very loner that's why I find staying alone fine by all means. HAHAHA. But unpacking all my stuff that I moved from my old house, was emotionally draining, really. I've never felt so helpless and overwhelmed by all the things I've to do before. I was frustrated, bitter, alone, helpless and just like $*@($&@(^$*&@^$. But this whole moving house things has taught me alot. Definitely has strengthened me too, and also taught me to rely on the Lord's strength at all times.

OHMYGOSH, MANAGEMENT IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO BORING. I totally dislike it and don't feel like going to understand what's happening at all. UGHHH. I love econs, sersiously, I think it's the most useful and relevant and easiest to understand subject. I had accounting tutorial today, SO BORING, i felt so lost. It's so different from trinity's accounting, SO CHIM GAHHHH. Ok maybe cos I didn't do the reading pre-tutorial. Gahh. Accounting and management. BZZZZ. Econs and marketing. YAY :D

Tmr I've got full on lectures from 3-6pm. !!!!

Only yesterday did I learn that A levels results were out on Friday!!! Woaahhh felt so nervous at that point of time for all my friends! But thankfully they all seemed to be happy with their results. :) Yay.

And I've got a tutorial mate who looks like toby mcguire!! And his name is toby too! Just different family name. HOW AWESOME RIGHT. This toby was born in Poland. COOLNESS MAX. Yeah in case ya'll are wondering, yeah there are ang mohs in my tutorial. In fact, majority are aussies. Sometimes I feel scarily outnumbered.

Just a testimony I wanna share with ya'll. You all know how nervous I was before I left Singapore yeah, thrown to face moving house alone and all. But you know what? When I walked into the gate, I spotted only ONE seat left in the entireeee waiting area, and I was like "YAY!" cos i was carrying so much stuff, so I just plopped myself down. And suddenly, I heard someone say hi to me on my left, and it was a vaguely familiar face.

"Oh! You're Roy's friend right! Did we meet at the bbq that day?"
"Yeah I'm Billy by the way, sorry I forgot your name."

And we started talking while waiting for our seat rows to be called. Already, at this point of time I was so happy to see someone I know, someone so friendly and warm.

After the plane landed, we went to collect our luggages together and I really really was so glad I was with him cos my luggage was so ridiculously heavy. (did i mention I got fined for my overweight luggage.) And we chatted alot since the wait was so long.

"So what are your plans for today?"
"Oh.. I have to pack and move my stuff from my old house to my new house"
"alone?"
"yeah."

We parted on the grounds that he would call me to help me move my stuff since he has a car and me not really agreeing to it. (sure a part of me was quite happy and desperate for the help, but a part of me was going "nahh, not nice to trouble you.) And as I was packing, Lydia called me. After all the "AHHHH HOW ARE YOUUUU!!!" she told me that Billy called her to tell her I'm back and she insisted on coming over no matter what and the conversation ended with "see you at 1pm, bye."

And you know what, I am sooooooooooooooo thankful for their help. The amount of stuff I had to move was ridiculous for such a small room I had. And with all their help and fun we had, it was soo much easier. And in that one day, I made 2 new awesome friends. Billy and Esther, Lydia's friend.

And, I thank God for all these. Thank Him that despite this holiday that I've given up on Him, He hasn't given up on me yet. He has taught me to come to Him in times of trouble, to rely on His strength at all times and to remember all the promises He had said for He will execute it. I'm so grateful for the 3 of them, not just because they helped me moved my house, but also because they help reignite my faith and passion for God, to lead me back into the flock. It's just so amazing how everything has lined up. And of all people, it's Billy, Lydia and Esther - 3 such amazing man and women of God. Through these hours, they have taught me so much. Really, so thankful. (:

It's like God's saying "I've come through for you. Won't you trust in me again?" It's just so amazing. So for any of you who are going through any dry-ness or feeling like your prayers are going unanswered, or that He's not listening, PRESS ON! He's a silent listener to all your conversations, what's more to your heart's prayer? At the right time, He will do what's best for you, just allow yourself to be a vessel for His will to be done. You guys are awesome!

Ok tonight no more computer for me! It's study time! I feel so lag behind in my readings k. It's so scary to not understand anything in tutorials. Gosh, uni is so different. Even the tutorial work is like #@#*&(^@$*&%@*$. So different, just so different. Like in college is like everything you learn in lectures, you apply it to your work. But here you really have to understand and analyse the lecture and readings before you can do your tutorial cos if not it will seem as if you haven't learnt anything about it before. IT'S SCARY.

OMGGGG I LOVE MY INTERNET. It's like AMAZING. I can listen to music, watch youtube WITHOUT IT EVEN STOP TO BUFFERING. It's like in a matter of seconds, IT'S FULLY LOADED!!! SOOOO AWESOMEEEE. Yay. But yesterday I lost my internet connection for awhile. Scary.

Yay this weekend gonna meet valerie and peako for LUNCH!!!! :D And next saturday meeting tricia for lunch!!! AWESOME. I <3 catch ups :D