Imagine a squirrel...

so cute right?

Now, imagine it, the Grace&Doreen way.....

:D:D:D

Yeohnehneh and I are having a very retarded conversation.
Omg, this is what our conversation has degenerated into.
LOL.

Uhh, nose diggers, our future G&D company, giving each other retarded names like yeohnehneh and she giving me a name that sounded like phone numbers being punched in like nahnehnihnohnuh. LOL WTH. HAHAHAHHAA. and we made up retarded names and OMG. are we human or not. its 1.40am, im freaking tired, and she still can make me laugh so hard. wlau. faints. :D

i love my yeohnehneh.

grace says:
neonehneh nicked nine nice nehnehs. omg ok that is tongue twister.

She thought of a tongue twister at 1.40am. Great, Einstein's reincarnation.

and as i was saying, i love my yeohnehneh cos she teaches me good english. (Ok digression: we're having a very wrong conversation at a very wrong time of the night. LOL) ok, as i was saying, good english, yeah. yeohnehneh teaches good english. okok, no barrs hold. NO BARRS HOLD. yeohnehneh is getting confused over our nose digging invention and our nehnehl*cker invention. OMG. LOOK, i told you it was a very wrong conversation. And I think she's freaking out now cos i told her about my Huge Habit. HAHAHAA. Oh ok, she's not. She's working hard on her imagination. :) HAHAHHAHAA. Omg, I wonder if 5months later i read this, would i understand what im talking about or not. LOLOLOL. ah wtvr lah. yeohnehneh just said she wants to invent more things. LOL. and she just told me to get my sense of direction right. HAHAHA this post is so random and all over the place lah! LOL. Great, we're now talking of books in a damn wrong way. Ok, I'm buying her The Book again. LOL.

I rly wonder if 5mths later i read this entry, wld i know what im writing or not. LOL.

GRABBED FROM HUIWEN! :D

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following. They MUST be real places, names, things… NOTHING made up! Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same first initial. You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question.

Your Name: Doreen

Famous Artist/Band/Musician: Dick Lee (?!) wth. lol

Four Letter Word: Disc

Vehicle: Delivery bike? omg, took me ages to thk of this.

TV Show: Desperate Housewives!

City: Dublin!! Omg, all the good authors.

Boy Name: Desmond

Girl Name: Danielle (in my essays, the female lead is always named Danielle. lol)

Alcoholic Drink: (sorry, i rly dono ath about alcoholic drinks)

Occupation: Dentist

Flower: Dandelion ^^

Something to Wear: Denim

Something to Do: De-stress :D

Something That You Like: Dreaming

Celebrity: Donna Karan? (designer counted not? first thought to my mind :P)

Food: Deep fried chicken?!?!?!?! (lol so cheaterbug)

Something Found in a Kitchen: DISHWASHER. HAHAHAHA

Reason for Being Late: Didnt set the alarm clock to AM instead

Cartoon Character: donald duck

Something You Shout: DUDE!

HAHHAHA DAMN FUN TO DO:D

Today is a happy happy happy happy lovely day! :D :D

This is going to be a veryvery detailed entry cos i don't wanna forget any part of today. :)

Chronologically speaking,

Before 28 June, Grace was the first one to give me my birthday present lol! The very sweet card and ridiculously-grace'y present :D Then Zhenghui was the next to send me quite a sweet E-card. ^^ Haiya, that idiot ah, tricked me about something damn serious and i believed him then i got so furious that it was a ploy so i blocked him on msn aft saying something damn sacarstic to him. Then he still send me the E-card, wlaaauuuu, make me feel sooooo baaaaadd ohkaaayyy. :X UGH. He's always like that one lah, sometimes so irritating yet sometimes he can be so nice to you. eeyer. like that time he stayed back in school with me till 6 to make sure i finish up all of mdm koh's work. :D So, thats that for Zhenghui! Anw I wrote him a temp "thank you card" lah! HEE :D

Then 15mins prior to 12am of my birthday, alvinho talked to me on msn (which shocked me cos we never talk on msn before) i thought he wanted to tell me something grave or sth which scared me. LOL. (i didnt expect him to remember my birthday you see!) so when he wished me happy birthday and said some veryvery alvinho-y stuff, i was flooded with familiarity of him and was happy he remembered. haha! He said june babies are "hot stuff". Hahahhaha, thats cos he's one too lah! LOL. and our conversation looked christmas-y cos his font was red and mine was green. Haha!

Then at 11.55pm, eu ginn sent me sth damndamndamn sweet. I think that was the longest longest longest sms he'd ever sent to me. Cos his sms-es are always 1page long only. Maximum, 1.5 pages and thats considered rare. LOL. Anyway, yes, i was sent a 6pages long msg :) :) :) It was a really thoughtful msg lah, and im gonna keep it to hold proof for 28June2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013 ETC. :D Haha, I think he miscounted and sent the msg 5mins early. LOL. But yes, thank you eu ginn! I'll never forget your wise words. ^^

GUESS WHO SENT ME MY FIRST SMS ON 12AM SHARP.

IAN GHWEE. Omg yes, hahahaha I was damn shocked. Then it was zhenghui who typed out a whole birthday song for me. Lol! Grace called at 12AM! That sweet thing made me a powerpoint slide (yes, an extra present apart from the card and present) IT WAS SOOOO SWEET. IT WAS SOOO SWEET. LIKE TOTALLY OMG. She've put in so much effort to make my birthday special, I never know how to make it up to her. She's much more than a best friend, I don't know what to call her anymore. Someone I hold close to my heart. I'm really touched by her efforts, no one have ever put in so much effort for me, it's very overwhelming when you know how much you mean to someone. :) I love you babe. Then kenneth kan who past the 12am mark cos the poor J1 boy was mugging hard for his phy paper. LOL. Oh oh! Did I mention, talking to huiwen online makes me damn high! HAHHAHA. yalah, she's quite scary at times when she flares up, but she's damn nice to talk to online!!! She makes me rlyrlyrlyrly high, but sometimes she make me high till i fly to the sky, then let me come crashing down to the ground. EEEEE. :P Like how I thought she finally decided that she's gonna boycott SS+history then in the end she only meant that she's gonna do it later. PFFTS. LOL. And she say she's gonna buy me sth which makes me feel bad cos I didnt get her ath last year AND this year and she said that cos i bought her sth in sec 2. omg that woman ah, dig up sec 2 stuff. LOL. But i think its quite sweet of her. ^^ And then there was this whole "mug pug" and nurul m's "gum" hoo ha. Lol. So irrelevant. Anw, in the end i managed to psych zhenghui into pei-ing me not to do ss+history with me and not do testi as well. :P:P:P im a bad influence. :P But anyway, on Friday we're gonna do all our homework together cos i need serious help on SS Hist and we're gonna go jogging aft that! OMG. I feel sooo guilty fr all the eating today! (more details on that!)

Going to school today felt weird. LOL. It was my first day of Semester 2 and its my birthday. Hahaha quite funny, in the bus I was smsing eu ginn and telling him i don't feel "birthdayish" LOL, so he typed a birthday song for me and i laughed out in the bus lah wth! LOL. then this peirce guy board the bus that i look up cos he walking towards me maaah, then i think i was smiling when i looked up then he thought i was smiling at him then he give me the black face and diao me lah! HMPFS :/ Ugh. So yeah alot of birthday wishes. ^^ Definitely felt birthdayish. It was damn paiseh in the morning when I had to go meet mr wee for remedial stuff then i walked to the back of the class and the whole angeline+romaine+liyan+viven = the girls behind all started stretching out their hands and wishing me happy birthday. LOL! I felt so... LOL!! HAHAHHAHA. like "woaaahhhh:D" HAHAHHA! it was def a good feeling. LOL.

Then back in class miss yeo said sth rly cheesy but i thought it was quite nice of her to say sth quite touching to me :):) hahaha very paiseh, but very sweet of her. And she gave me a chomel hp keychain! So surprising! Her presents always very.. LOL.. one.. But this keychain is like soo nice lah! I wonder how much it costs :X Haha thank you miss yeo! :D And she made the whole class sing a birthday song for me! HAHAHHAHA:D ok lah, i heard all the moans and groans and all the much undesired reluctance, but nevertheless, it was quite a warm fuzzy feeling to hear so many people sing a birthday song for you! I think it's the first time so so so many people sang a birthday song for me. LOL :D :D :D And Angeline started sth on do-face which sounded like dough-face so i called her bread-face. LOL. I hope do-face is not sth bad. :X:X LOL. but anw angeline was saying that she hasnt seen me in a long time. like 1month and 3days. LOL! she's funny lah. ESP HER BIRTHDAY GREETING. LOL!

Oh oh! Hoho, seowhwee, debbie, andrea and angelinetoh was nice enough to write me a compilation of cards! :D nice people! :D So i wrote a thank you card to each of them! ^^ they were so cute, they hid it under my bag so that when i came back and took my bag down then i'll see it there as a surprise. lovely people! ^^ and i think seowhwee's greetings were rly funny! HAHA:D Then two other cards came from bling and theresa seperately! HAHAH! bling's one was a horribly glam fashionista postcard, and theresa's was a super girlywinky kind of card. hahaha! theresa's card made me laugh alot. lol! i think both their handwriting somehow look alike. :X LOL. I rmbr theresa's used to be really round and neat in sec 1. now its cursive. Lol.

So mm.. seohwee, hoho and deb haven't got my present yet. Eeling&co promised mine soon, and andrea's forgot to bring theirs! HAHA but their cards were super sweet :D And it was damn fun to talk to Zac and bezner back in sch again! Omg. So we made this pact of pairing up with the other one to buy the birthday star's present. Like like eg, Zac's birthday - Bezzie and I wld share his present. Bezzie's birthday - Zac and I wld share his present. SO COOL RIGHT! they make great sitting partners. And i forced Bezzie to say happy birthday to me. :D:D:D:D <3s>

Hmm.. Went out with veron after school! Cos her school ended at 250, so i hung around at the coffeeshop with muji and jieying first. lol, jieying cant stop screaming. LOL. And thanks you two for the top up card! :D And omg. thaaaaat veron. MADE US EAT SOO MUCH. we met at yck station, trained down to bishan, went to pastamania to eat. I had creamy chicken that eu ginn, bezner and andrea recommended. and i was soo bloated alr cos its extremely creamy. then you know what, after walking around in j8 for like 30mins max, she declared that she wanted to eat ice cream and she suggested hagen dazs. i said YOU SIAO AH. so she relented and opted for swensons and i agreed aft much persuasion from her cos DAMN FULL LAH. So we only wanted ice cream, like ONLY ice cream. SOMEHOW, we ended up with TWO side orders of fries and calamari rings as well. :X and cos today's my birthday, swensons gave me free 3 scoops of ice cream WITH toppings!!!! SO COOOOL RIGHHT!!! OMG. then we sat beside this grp of nyjc girls and one of them also birthday today and she had the same ice cream as me! SO COOL RIGHT. SAME BIRTHDAY, SIT SO NEAR EACH OTHER SMMRE. HAHAHHA! i just rmbrd kenneth said his chi paper is friday, so means they maybe not J1s after all. LOL. anw that idiot nv reply me also. wlau. lol. and that girl's from "racing kayak" so cool, she got the jacket. I've always loved team jackets! :D so cool so cool so cool! kenneth has team TOWELS. WTH. LOL. like their towels say "Team Nanyang. Table Tennis" LOL. TOWEL LEEHHH. WAAALAAAUUU. LOL! i think nyjc is very "team-y" LOL. Okok, too much digression. So anyway, I had that ice cream, veron had her topless 5 (yeah, you'd think we share right. BUT WE DIDNT) and we shared calamari rings and fries. OMG. we didnt finish the fries lah duhh. so full!!!!!! Anyway, it was damn good catching up with her. She had alot of stories for me :D I don't think there was quite a moment of silence. LOL. And she wants that N76. lol! AND j8 NO MORE NEO PRINT SHOP. WTHH. Anw it was damn good seeing veron again aft so long! Missed her much (:

VERON!

And I 156-ed home and it was.. DINNER. WLAU.

My mom was really sweet. Despite her much protests of not going to get me an ice cream cake, she said she still went Robinsons to search. But after much probing around, she finally decided that it'd be better if she baked one herself and bought a tub of ice cream to go with it. LOL. But she really made the cake with much effort, I was so touched when she took the cake out of the fridge. She was like a little child dying to show off her masterpiece, I was touched by her efforts. :) The cake looked damndamn professional lah. It had real lemon frostings and grated chocolate and grinded nuts. DAMN GOOD. And despite my mom saying i wasted alot of her money during the weekends eating all the good food, she still bought me a CalvinKlein shirt. She was trying to act nonchalant about it, like she threw it across the table to me and said "Don't say don't have ah. Your present." Althought she alr promised me 2 top up cards for my birthday, she still bought me this shirt. Always that 口是心非 mummy. :)

And you know what my silly dad said not! when my mom was bringing the cake out.

dad: today your birthday ah?

me: WLAU. OF COS LAH. yours over alr what! why? you forget ah?

IDIOT. LOL.

And my dad sang my birthday song!!! OMG. usually its my poor mom awkwardly singing but this year my dad sang along! OMG. SOOO TOUCHED. like he really sang with gusto and all. (hahahha okok, exaggarating) but i was surprised when he sang, i felt so happy, i kept smiling and smiling and smiling. :) I felt so loved by my family. ^^

look! the cake look so professional right! OMG. with all the frosting and grinded chocolate and pounded nuts. OMG. loves!


I feel loved by my family. :) I wish kor was back. :(


Picking the candles out. My mom commented: "哇！长大了hor.十六个蜡烛好像很难吹灭了hor!" HAHAHHAA:D

EAAGERR. :D

This birthday, it really taught me alot. It taught me to cherish and treasure those who's close and dear to me. And it really made me see, who are those that I've misjudged, who are those that i've let in wrongly into my heart, and who are those whom I should discard. I'm going to let the people who love me, know I love them just as much, or more. I'm going to treasure them, hell yeah I will. Some things really go to say alot...

On a lighter note, I feel much loved by my family and friends today. Like what Bryan said, "Little princess for a day" just like belle's birthday cake caption. I feel exactly just that. :)

I feel an overwhelming rush of emotions for my family and friends today. I really want them to know I really love them so. Esp my family. :)


Thank you to those who made me feel loved today.
I love you too.

Maybe you don't need me anymore,
And maybe I don't too.
Just, maybe.

I FEEL LOVED :D

Silly me, silly me.
Still hoping for something in hours to come.

Got this while blog-hopping. lol.

1.If Sex Is A Pain In The Ass, Then You're Doing It Wrong...

2.Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car.

3.By the time you can make ends meet, they move the ends.

Some instructions on labels:

1.In a US guide to setting up a new computer - TO AVOID CONDENSATION FORMING, ALLOW THE BOXES TO WARM UP TO ROOM TEMPERATURE BEFORE OPENING. (Sensible, but the instruction was INSIDE the box.)

2.On a Korean kitchen knife - WARNING KEEP OUT OF CHILDREN.

3.On a hotel provided shower cap in a box : FITS ONE HEAD.

4.On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding - PRODUCT WILL BE HOT AFTER HEATING.


qns to ponder :
1.If man evolved from monkeys and apes. . . why do we still have monkeys and apes?

2.If someone with multiple personalities threatens to kill himself, is it considered a hostage situation?

3.If a turtle doesn't have a shell, is he homeless or naked?

4.Do infants enjoy infancy as much as adults enjoy adultery?

5.If one synchronized swimmer drowns, do the rest drown too?

6.If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?

7.Why did kamikaze piolets wear helmets??

8.If the "black box" flight recorder is never damaged during a plane crash, why isn't the whole damn airplane made out of that shit?

9.Would a fly without wings be called a walk?



WIFE WINS LOTTERY:
A woman gets home, screeches her car into the driveway, runs into the house, slams the door and shouts at the top of her lungs, "Honey, pack your bags. I won the damn lottery!"

The husband says, "Oh my God! No shit? What should I pack, beach stuff or mountain stuff?

The wife yells back, "It doesn't matter, just get the fuck out!

******

Aye shit, i havent do my testimonial yet. :X
And I lost the damn paper.
I hope its ok to type it out. :(

:DD

So the doc said the crystal in my got dislodged from my head, hence causing my giddiness therefore causing my non stop vomitting. :X okok, relax. I think I told at least 5 people why I didnt go to school for these 3 days and they all gave me the same reaction when i told them about the crystal. LOL. Yes people, you've got that crystal in you too. And when I say crystal, I don't think its the Real Crystal lah. Like when people say your body is made up of tissues and etc, its not real tissue paper right. It's just crystal in biomedical form, I think. Who knows? :/ So yeah, the doc taught me some yoga to put my crstal back into place. Quite cool, but gets boring. Lol. At first when he first asked me to try the yoga, I didn't feel much of its effect. So I was like "err.. ok lah.." when he asked if I felt better, then he see me like that he said "I think it's not really working for you, if you still feel horrible then I'll give you a jab for your giddiness." AND JUST AT THAT MOMENT, I immediately felt better. LOL. yalah of course lah, who wants a jab. :X

So anyway, much thanks to seowhwee, qiying, bezner, eeling, zhenghui, yusheng and chiat yi for asking and helping me catch up on school stuff lah! :D:D Esp zhenghui lah, told me all the ss hist essay questions, saved my life. *phew* haha and bezzie for always smsing me to ask how i am. :D:D he makes a damn cool sitting partner. LOL. Oh and hoho, if ure reading this, sorry for hanging up the phone abruptly that evening! My mom was there, couldnt stay long. Sorry!

This is what bezzie said.
"Haha.. When you first said crystal, i thought you were at some traditional chinese healer or sth, Lol.

"Your yin crystal is not in line with the orbit of venus. You must do this *shows yoga move* to get it in line with the planet and your 8th trigram of health.""

YES, BEZNER SAID THAT. BE AWED PEOPLE. :O

Aye, so anyway I thought I was well enough to go to school today, so I chionged finish all my work lah. Then who knows, vomitted twice in the middle of the night. :X But oh well, have to have to go to school tmr alr. I feel horrible missing 3 days of school. Esp when its like, the First Three Days of semester 2. :X :X :X oh god.

I got quite frustrated with A Math towards the end that i left alot of blanks. hurhur:P

And my mom is damn cheapskate, she doesn't want to buy me an ice cream cake. CHEAPOOOO.

me: eh you damn cheapo leh. ice cream cake also don want to buy for me.
her: EH. you holiday eat so much alr still want ice cream cake ah. 敲诈 ah！
me: whaaat. aye, im SIXTEEEN leh. SIXTEEEEN.
her: what, 16 big deal meh. 21 then say.
me: wlaaauuuuuu. i want ice cream cake.
her: ok lah, i buy you one tub of ice cream then i stick one candle on top.
me: UGH! CHEAPSKATE.
her: ok lah ok lah, dont say no cake. I bake you chocolate cake.
me: EH WLAU. THAT CAKE MIX IS INSTANT ONE LOR. 没有诚意！
her: wah, bake for you also don't want ah.
me: i waaannnt icceeee creaaaamm caaakkkeeee.
her: too bad.

LOOK! to think i chiong to orchard and back to novena for my dad's ice cream cake k! wlau. hnnnnngs.

I never knew I could cry so hard, for so long.
Puffy eyes and puffy face,
It never happened before.
I hope I don't regret again on 28June.

The long goodbye
I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free (so they say)
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they dont come back again
Then its meant to be ( so they say)
But those words dont pull me through
Cos Im still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But its just you and me going through the mill
(climbin up a hill)

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love cant make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard we try
Youre gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, its over.. lets face it
All thats happening here is a long goodbye

Sometimes I ask my heart did we really
Give our love a chance ( just one more chance)
And I know without a doubt
Its turning me inside out
And if we walked away
Would make more sense ( only self defense)
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on a carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere?
(on a wing and prayer)

The worst has only just begun.

I'm feeling very sad cos I realise alot of people whom I've neglected are treating me very nice. Makes me feel ashamed and touched at the same time that i wanna cry. I realise alot of people are really nice to me but its always those really unexpected ones. It makes me really touched.

I guess its God's way of making up for my loss of a dear one on 23/6.
Constantly reminding me that I'm still loved by alot of very special people.

Some people don't know that some things they say or do,
Leaves a great impact on the lives of others.
People like say,
You, you, you and you. :)

Dentro Un Altro Si - IL DIVO


This song makes me really emotional.
Makes me wanna cry.
Really, listen.

Im never going back to Imeem again, they only give stupid 30secs preview now. Idiot.

I don't want to miss you.
I'm trying very hard not to.

I'm going to be on the way to school in approximately 12hours time，worrying about prem, worrying about not getting any homework done at all, worrying about getting even more homework, worrying about lit test, worrying of.. many more.. :X

Please don't let this empty feeling be regret.

到底思念的是什么……

i wanna just lie here and forget it all.


if not, i'll just run away from it all.

i wish i had a more blatant choice.

but, i guess.. its too little, too late.

Focus Doreen, Focus.

Stop thinking of the impossible.

Focus.

Focus.

Focus.

It'd been the most beautiful week I ever had in months.
Thank you.
I'll never forget those shades of brown.
You've been the most beautiful mistake,
One I'll never regret.
I hope you'll still come back and see this,
I hope it all ends on a good note,
One I smile upon rememberance.

Please don't forget me.
You'll always have a special place in my heart,
No matter how far away you are from me.
That piece of me,
Will always be with you.

I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running

******

"Dentro Un Altro Si" causes emotional downfall.
IL DIVO

What happened to those days that smiles and laughters are so genuine


Where your sleep is only interrupted by the sweetest dream ever and you only wake up smiling.

Where every hug and kiss is ever so innocent.

I just need something to hold on to, now and forever.

Measures taken:

1) Long bus rides on the double deck 166, seated at the last row of the bus with "Over You" blasting through the mp3.

2) Looking out of the window, choking back tears

3) Thinking of all the places and things and all that'd been said and done.

4) Go for tuition to take mind off things

5) More looking out, more choking back

6) Great realisation smacked in the face: I could actually use work to drown myself. At least something good out of all the bad.

All the question marks running through her head.

And the question, is to stay or to go.

But, I'ld really miss you so.

Every single lil thing.
I won't forget.

UUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
this feels horrible.
BAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
its getting worst and worst.

stop stop stop.

i feel like crap.
this, plus the immense guilt of not having done any holiday work at all and not even touching lit.
ha bloody ha.

this sucks.
so screwed lah wth.

all's so topsy turvy.

should i stay or should i go.
RAAAHHHHH. :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

how now brown cow.
how how how how how how how how how how how how.
hais.

:(

great, my two fav people in the world are talking to each other and obviously having a blast, on the expense of my misery. BOOHOO. talk grace talk!

:D


OMG. GRACE JUST TALKED ABOUT HER BIG FOOT THEORY. OMMMGGGGGGG. *covers face*

my eyes are brimming with tears of laughter.

so bored so bored so bored. :X
im hooked onto the song "could i have this kiss forever"
im waiting and waiting and waiting.
still waiting.
and waiting.
and bored to my toes.
bahh.
and elijah and i are discussing exclaimation mark and dot dot dot.
no acty we're not.
haha.
im so bored im typing in this format.
quuiiiccckk, come online. :X
yes you,
the one-liner email person.

OH THERE YOU ARE!!! YAAAAAY:D
HAHAHHAHAA JUST WHEN I TALKED ABT YOU. :D

"i wont gif u a reason to cry.." :)


"I can't think straight with your eyes boring into mine."

I am happy too. :)

******




Over and over I look in your eyes
You are all I desire
You have captured me
I want to hold you I want to be close to you
I never want to let go
I wish that this night would never end
I need to know Could I hold you for a lifetime?
Could I look into your eyes?
Could I have this night to share this night together?
Could I hold you close beside me?
Could I hold you for all time?
Could I could I have this kiss forever?
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever? Over and over I've dreamed of this night
Now you're here by my side
You are next to me
I want to hold you and touch you and taste you
And make you want no one but me
I wish that this kiss could never end
Oh baby please Could I hold you for a lifetime?
Could I look into your eyes?
Could I have this night to share this night together?
Could I hold you close beside me?
Could I hold you for all time?
Could I could I have this kiss forever?
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever? I don't want any night to go by
Without you by my side
I just want all my days
Spent being next to you
Lived for just loving you
And baby, oh by the way Could I hold you for a lifetime?
Could I look into your eyes?
Could I have this night to share this night together?
Could I hold you close beside me?
Could I hold you for all time?
Could I could I have this kiss forever?
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever?

tsk, someone just went offline.
anti climax.
hmpfs. :(

but baby here i am.. banging on the old front door. my pride spilled on the floor... my hands and knees are bruised... and now i'm crawlin back to u... beggin for a second chance..

someone cant spell. :)

"I regret the mistakes I made, I bitterly regret the unhappiness I caused you but I will never regret our time together. When I'm eighty and looking back on my life, I'll know that there was at least one good pure thing in it. From that first time we met outside that tube station, I felt like the luckiest bastard on the planet and that feeling never went away. Every single day that we were together I couldn't believe my luck - most people don't have in a lifetime what we had in three and a half years and I will always be grateful for that. You will go on and meet someone else and I'll just be a chapter in your tale, but for me, you were, you are and you always will be, the whole story."

the other side of the story by MARIAN KEYES

oh yes, how true. :)



oh my god, i've finally found the whole of this song. :X idiot lah, 80% of the songs were like 30seconds preview only. PFFTS.

[Verse: 1]
Pull up your pants
(Just Like Em')
Take out the trash
(Just Like Em')
getting ya cash like em'
Fast like em'
Girl you outta act like ya dig
(What I'm talkin' bout')
Security codes on everything
Vibrate so your phone don't ever ring
(Joint Account)
And another one he don't know about

[Hook]
Wish we could switch up the roles
And I could be that...
Tell you I love you
But when you call I never get back
Would you ask them questions like me?...
Like where you be at?
Cause I'm out 4 in the morning
On the corna rolling
Doing my own thing
Ohh

[Chorus]
What if I?...
Had a thing on the side?
Made ya cry?
Would the rules change up?...
Or would they still apply?...
If I played you like a toy?...
Sometimes I wish I did act like a boy

[Guy Chopped & Screwed Voice]
Can't be getting mad!
What You Mad?
Can't Handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!

[Verse: 2]
Girl go head and be...
(Just Like Em')
Go run the streets
(Just Like Em')
come home late say sleep like em'
Creep like em'
Front with ya friends
Act hard when you're with em' like em'
(What)
Keep a straight face when ya tell a lie
Always keep an airtight alibi
(Keep Him In The Dark)
What he don't know won't break his heart

[Hook]
Wish we could switch up the roles
And I could be that...
Tell you I love you
But when you call I never get back
Would you ask them questions like me?...
Like where you be at?
Cause I'm out 4 in the morning
On the corna rolling
Doing my own thing
Yea

[Chorus]
What if I?...
Had a thing on the side?
Made ya cry?
Would the rules change up?...
Or would they still apply?...
If I played you like a toy?...
Sometimes I wish I did act like a boy

[Guy Chopped & Screwed Voice]
Can't be getting mad!
What You Mad?
Can't Handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!

[Bridge]
If I was always gone
With the sun getting home
(Would Ya Like That?)
Told you I was with my crew
When I knew it wasn't true
(Would Ya Like That?)
If I act like you
Walk A mile off in yo shoes
(Would Ya Like That?)
I'm messing with your head again
Dose of your own medicine

[Chorus]
What if I?...
Had a thing on the side?
Made ya cry?
Would the rules change up?...
Or would they still apply?...
If I played you like a toy?...
Sometimes I wish I did act like a boy

[Guy Chopped & Screwed Voice]
Can't be getting mad!
What You Mad?
Can't Handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!
Can't be getting mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!

[Music Plays]

[Outro]
If I played you...
Would yo like that?
Had friends...
Would you like that?
never call?
Would you like that?
Hell naw
You wouldn't like that
No!

[Half-Chorus]
What if I made ya cry!
Would they still apply!
What if I...
If I played you like a toy
Sometimes I wish I did act like a boy!

the lyrics is super long. :X

and today is a boring daaaaaaay. i badly need to top uuppp cos there's so many smses i wanna reeeeppllyyyyy. baaahhh. and thrs lit prjct tmr at 9am. and i've finally completed my 648pgs of novel. and today is a boring daaaaaayy.

Feels wrong.
Everyday I wake up,
Thinking,
This might be it.

Today, the 300th day.
Fool for you.

Though we've got to say good-bye
For the summer
Darling, I promise you this
I'll send you all my love
Everyday in a letter
Sealed with a kiss

CHORUS:
Yes it's gonna be cold, lonely summer
But I'll fill the emptiness
I'll send you all my dreams
Everyday in a letter
Sealed with a kiss

I'll see you in the sunlight
I'll hear your voice everywhere
I'll run to tenderly hold you
But, Darlin' you won't be there

I don't wanna say good-bye
For the summer
Knowing the love we'll miss
Let us make a pledge
To meet in September
And seal it with a kiss

(instrumental)

(CHORUS)
Sealed with a kiss
Sealed with a kiss
Sealed with a kiss


HAHAHHAA THIS SONG, I LIKE. :P
eh and cool, i finally know how to post imeem in posts. cool.
i heard it on class95, omg, its dating waaay back 1990.
thats even bef i was born!
LOL.

eh shit lah. i just realised alot of people are doing alot of work during this june holidays. am i supposed to start doing too. oh my god. -looks at that stack of books-

naahh.. it can wait...

and my lit text is still in school. hallelujah. im going to fail lit when school reopens.

No matter where life takes me to,

I'll meet you there.

I want a big brown leather bag and a small clutch bag.
hahaha so extreme. :P

Over You - Chris Daughtry

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of meeee

(Chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!
(End Chorus)

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for meee

(Chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally getting’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!
(End Chorus)

I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you

And I never saw it coming
I should have started running
I’m finally getting better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!

The day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you…

For as long it takes,
I'll wait. :)

eh you know what world, i think i've just been proven more IT apt than grace lah. LOL. she intro-ed me this website and i found out more things than her. LOLOL. look babe, i hope you're feeling a little better. (: through all the things we found out together. ^^ ok, you can start breathing now honey. :) BREATHEE. hahaha even ME feel relieved that i found out those stuff lah ok. if not we'll be fretting for nothing. haiiyooo, silly goon. :)

5 days isnt long. :) untense those muscles woman. :]

Of all day,
It's today. :)
17June2007.

I feel happy.
I feel glad.
I feel sad.
I feel bad.
I'm feeling all the things I should and shouldn't have.

Boohoo.

Oh, and I feel bad, definitely feel bad. :(

wlau. forget it lah, i give up trying to change this template back to blogskin based. damn. damn frustrated. shall go take a shower. PFFTS.

you put the blue back in the sky
you put the rainbow in my eyes
a silver lining in my prayers
and now there's colour everywhere

'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

If I could freeze a moment in my mind
It'll be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock, make time stands still
'Cause, baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel

I don't know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens every time

haha shitXzZ, im influenced by yesterday's song.
baahh. :D

Get a grip.
BREATHE, doreen, breathee.....

Don't forget who you are, only.

btw, julia roberts is beautiful. :D

Ha, I just lost the mood for everything.

Smile, doreen, Smile.

Me: eh mommy, guess what was my first thought when i first puked into the toilet bowl.

Mom: What? (this is so typical of her can)

Me: I was thinking to myself "oh shit, am i bullimic!"

Mom: -gives me an incredulous wide eyed stare- (3 seconds later) bursts out laughing. PFFTS.

Me: WHAAAAAT! It's true!! Really!! I was so afraid that I would be bullimic lah! I thought my subconsiousness was working its "diet effect" on me.

Mom: Oh please lah, if you become bullimic right, the sky would drop already can.

Me: WLAAAUUU.

Mom: Do you know, if you got food disorder, do you know how much money I can save already or not. This holiday ALONE ONLY right, I would have saved enough to go on a holiday already. (which is true lah actually :P)

Me: Fine.

Mom: Hahhaa but actually I'ld rather you eat so much than to spend on clothes. Cos then I could eat with you and enjoy too.

Me: See, runs in the family. Your fault. :D But its also not as if you don't always take my clothes and wear and vice versa whaat.

Mom: So? Food is a better investment. Better than being materialistic.

Great, my mom thinks im a glutton.
Damn.

Well,
So is she too! :DD

Anw, I went clarke quay with my parents last night. OMG, SO ROMANTIC CAN. the lights and ambience and setting. ommmmmgggggg. i told my mom i wanna come here with my bf next time. then she gave me that cool "ok.." then i looked at her questioningly and she said "yeah, next next year."

LOLOL.

TO ALL WHO MESSAGED ME:

IM SORRY, MY HI CARD RAN OUT OF VALUE AND IM NOT SEEING JIEYING TILL SCHOOL REOPENS SO I CANT HAVE IT TOPPED UP SO I CANT REPLY ANY SMSES FOR THE TIME BEING. SORRY!

grace: oh man oh man oh man, i wanna reply you! oh man oh man, im gonna find some mean to reply you.

and oh yes, sushi was yummy yesterday, the bill was whoppingly :O too. haha swensons was fun too. someone tried to include me in that someone's collage of "girls". BOOHOOOO. stupid oversized baby. ask me to master the art of "relaxing". PFFTS. :P i don have any modelling cell in me alright. yah even though that ass made me pay the full bill, it was nice catching up on the past. hahahaha, of which i neeaaarrlllyyyy managed to make that someone feel guilty. RIGHT, SOMEONE? I know you're reading this. [ hello!:) ] hahaha yes, so you want to know about the contribution thing so don't shut me up on monday at parts where i might make you feel guilty alrights. YOU WANT TO HEAR ONE OK. :D yayness. and its gonna be "sharing session of our ancient past".

oversized baby: no "stuff from the past", no L5 essay. :) you could have the pillow on monday, stop moaning about it. :P

and im tireeeeed. and i left my MAN in school and i keep procrastinating to go to school and take it. pffts. IS SCHOOL EVEN OPEN OR NOT. i have this good idea of calling up the school to ask. HMM.

it's daddy's day today. ^^

this post is so random.

HELLO. IM GOING UNITED SQUARE IN 40MINS TIME :D:D studystudy! ^^ now someone's hollering for a starbucks treat.

yeaaah riighhhhhttttt...... :P

OH MY GOD. MY MOM JUST CALLED HOME. SHE SAID THEY WILL COME PICK ME UP LATER AT UNITED SQUARE AND HAVE SUSHI FOR DINNER. OH MYYY GOOOOD. :D LOVEEEEE ^^ not only am i allowed to go united square, now im even having sushi for dinner!! OH MY GOD. best day of my lifeeeeee ^^

diet = can go die now. :D

hmm.. don't know why.. suddenly thought of grace.. :( that stupid woman, so easy homesick. wlau. next time i blow up your family picture to become a poster for you. lolol. TAKE CARE WOMAN. :DD miss you and all your nonsense/crap/ridicule/EVERYTHING. :D

Ok, so I barfed all my dinner out into the toilet bowl last night. No wonder I felt so horrible. Once I finished typing the previous entry I went to bed to lie down cos i felt horrible, felt like the world was spinning and my stomach was in churns. then i had That Feeling and quickly ran to the toilet bowl lah. omg, don't know how many yeaaars never vomit already lah. it just all came out.. okok, forget it, this is too much information. lol :P but yeah, felt damn good after the whole thing cos the whole system is cleared. lol. hahaha and so i smsed kenneth on how coincidental it is that only a few days ago we were just telling javin that it had been almost more than 10 years since we puked and haha few days later, here i am, detoxicating myself. LOL. haha yes, we talk of weird topics. lol. so yeah, had a mug of steaming hot earl grey tea and the dizziness immediately got cut down. ^^ yipeee.

and i had sneezing problems last night ;)
and someone left traces behind. :P

i felt it.
my head was thumping.
my heart was racing.
it was just like the first time.

I feel horrible.
Feel like puking and my head's going spinspinspin.
Oh crap.
I wanna die.

There's so much I want to say to you Grace, I thank you for being so understanding, for being so selfless, for being so rational, for standing by me, for just totally wanting only the best for me. What would I do without you. I told you once I'ld hold your hand and walk us through, but it feels more like now, you're the one pulling me out of my whirlpool and the voice reassuring me and calming me down and giving me strength. Thank you so so much. I'ld give it a shot now cos I know now, I won't be falling on nothing, cos I know now, I would be falling into your safety net instead. And most importantly, I know I wouldnt be losing everything cos I've still got you even when everything eludes me. There's so much gratitude, so much appreciation I wanna express. You're like the elder sister I never had. You clear all my confusions and answer all my unasked questions. 谢谢你. Thank you so much for just now.

And I also wanna thank my god! Hahahha not That God i pray to and not go church for lah. :P Just my very own personalised God. All the talks of KFC and MAC in both yours and mine perspectives, it made alot of things rly clear. :) I hope that we'll always stick to our choices and that your mac wont try another marketing tatic and my mac wont run away again. i hope there'll NOT BE any introduction of BK or LJS or any sort alright! and also anti coffee shop! lololol so bad. :P and thank you for jumping into the sea for me lah huh! :D except you could have said something more touching than "aiya whatever lah" OK! and a better reason than "cos i see him/her jump, so i also jump" LOL. :D and yknw what, my right arm hurts now. LOL. and thank you for saying all that you've said today. it means so damn much to me. thank you for always telling me to suck in chances and unscrew situations. :)

And 11June! Went out with Graceee, omg, finally went out ok. Ngee Ann City was like a ghost town and we had trouble finding out entrace into taka. But all the way fr orchard mrt we immediately had stuff to talk about. like IMMEDIATELY. :D then we went into coffee bean and CONTINUED talking. OMG, SO MUCH TO CATCH UP. talked about so many different stuff. oh and we had a hard time contemplating what to have in coffee bean which was sweltering i tell you. but the heat was quickly washed off by our excited conversations. ^^ then suddenly! IT WAS 12PM!!! LIKE 3HOURS FLEW PAST LIKE THAT.

so we hurriedly chionged to kinokuniya, wanting to find The Book but i bet it was stashed somewhere deep to prevent it falling into hands of people like US. :P so then we searched for "alternatives" by asking the counter for "adult novels" and the counter asked "fiction or non fiction" and we couldnt probably say the truth right! AWW. so yeah, he led us our "alternatives" BOOHOO. we were prepared to say that it was some project lah. then if he asked what school, we're gonna say hwachong! AHHAHAHAHA. so synchronised right! :D nahh, inside joke. :P so yeah, we took our pictures :D and was nearly chased out by the security guard cos i think we were NOISY :P but we were damn good at pretending lah ok. :P

first picture, not used to the cam yet. thats why turned out like this :P

The "Alternatives"alternatives will do too!
is it like put in the wrong section! TSKTSK. :P

gleeful :D*takes a peek*

oh look, thats so wrong.
-gives her a disapproving look-alright, maybe i should see whats so nice about it lah.damn, got us both hooked.

all the love in the world, i'll give it to you. <3

so after that, we went to NP! :D then we trained down to Dover isit? it reminded of elijah cos dover mrt leads straight to SP and since elijah told me he would be in SP for his "remedials" i was wondering if i would meet him there. :) of which, of course i didnt lah. but Dover MRT was so cool can. looks like the airport terminal 3. :D oh, and did i mention? all the way on the train we were talking AGAIN. oh wells :D:D:D:D

anw i was fascinated by NP and the way the students hand in their assignment. LOL. and i cant believe grace never thought of my coy idea of cheating in assignments :P LOLOLOL. i only been there for 2mins and i thought of it alr and she looked gobsmacked when i told her about it. and she gave me the whole "cos i have more integrity than you" lecture. LOL. AWW, AND NO SHUAI GE :( and so we went the alumni cafe to eat. OH MAN, THAT WAS THE BEST CONVERSATION I HAD IN AGES WITH ANYBODY. Really. It brought back so much so much memories, and the content of this conversation shall be kept between us cos only we would understand how each other actually really feel. Like how when she showed me her sms, i guess only i would react that way, only i would have felt that impact cos yeah.. been there, done that. :) OH! AND I OPENED HER PRESENT. The card was the sweetest thing ANYBODY in my whole entire life have done for me before. You could see the effort she put in lah! I was so so touched.. It was overwhelming to know you're so special to someone that she actually put in so much effort for you.. See, thats the good thing of having artyfarty cells in you, you put it in good use. :( boohoo. but still, omg.. the card is just.. so special.

and this is how it looks like on my room wall :)

Yeah, we did drift into silences at parts of this conversation at NP. but it was so companionable, both knowing what each other is acty thinking about cos thats what we ourselves are thinking about too. :) companionable silence and knowing smiles are best in a conversation, sometimes, silence speaks the most genuine words. :)

and we hugged before i left. :) it was quite unexpected i have to say, cos nobody really hugged me before leaving. hehe:P but it was such a pleasant surprise.. hugged her back tightly, hope i didnt scare her HAHAHAHA. hahaha yes we hugged in the middle of NP's bustling bus stop :D and thats genuine friendship for you, not bothering about others at all :]

OK THEN THIS SILLY GOONDU WOMAN, SHE DIRECTED ME TO THE WRONG BUS STOP OK. i was supposed to take from the same busstop as her, but she directed me to the opposite one. SEE LAH, WASTED EVEN MORE TALKING TIME. BOOHOO. then i sat all the way to holland and the uncle had to scold me awake. BOOHOO. cos i thought it was a long ride what, so i sleep lor. EEYER. then i had to take ALL THE WAAAY back to NP and ALL THE WAAY back to home. that blur womaaannn. luckily my mom's used to me always taking the wrong train or bus so i think thats why she wasnt rly angry. LOL.

And alot of things had happened since then.

• zodiac
• tennis
• "study session"

AND MY DENTAL OP TOMORROW. BOOOHOOOO. i don't wanna go through that torture again... :( but i don't have much of a choice do i.... that deep hollow pain... sigh... i just hope chic lit would be able to take my mind of it.... and i hope the numb cream would be put into good use tmr so i wont be able to feel the jabbing of the 麻醉药.. thats the worst part of it.. and i dont wanna wake up to see the dentist sewing up my wound... please.. :( oh man.. i should stop thinking about it...

on a lighter note. yusheng blackmailed me today. they weren't sure about the concert details.

Claymore says:
plz chairperson please please please
look, he psycho me.

Claymore says:
im begging u on behalf of 4E
toldcha.

Doreen says:
I GO CHECK SISTIC LAh
Doreen says:
UGH
Doreen says:
whats your even called?
Claymore says:
option 3
Claymore says:
funny name
that goon dont even know what his concert event is called.

Claymore says:
sigh....u dowan help...then dowan..but think of it, all the guys cant go because u never help them
Claymore says:
how would u feel?
Doreen says:
you're such an ass.

Doreen says:
waiting for rach's reply...
Claymore says:
spam her, sms nudge go her house bang on door, hang pig head or sth
tell me he's desperate. cos i needed rach to reply to get ms mok's number. lol.

Claymore says:
u call
Doreen says:
CALL AH?!
Doreen says:
NOT SMS AH?!
Claymore says:
call = instant reply
Claymore says:
sms = "hello, who are you"
"oh im doreen"
"oh..what is it"
"i wanna know when the dumb videogame thing start"
"what video game??"
blah blah
Doreen says:
UGH FINE
Doreen says:
but call teacher will like v rude not?
Claymore says:
duh tts whyt u calling
Claymore says:
u chairperson
Doreen says:
WALAU.
Claymore says:
im a guy who got 30 for phy and dont pay attn
Doreen says:
ALSO NOT MY CONCERT LEH WALAU
Doreen says:
LOL
Claymore says:
think of all the helpless guys who dunno what time start

HAHAHHAHA:D

i feel awful :(

TODAY WAS AWESOME! DETAILS SOOOOON! WANNA WATCH CAMPUS SUPERSTAR.

I LOVE MY PRESENT LOVE THE WOMAN LOVE EVERYTHING.

OH MY GOD. IM MEETING GRACE IN LESS THAN AN HOUR!!! OH MY GOD. *hyperventilates* and that woman early morning ask me come online to help her print stuffs. TSKTSK. :P see lah, if i dont reach orchard mrt by 845 its YOUR FAULT ok. NOT MINE:P

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.
there's so much to look fwd to today!
and tonight!
and tomorrow!

:)

grace says:
you know what my friend did to her dog, hahaha. she loves her dog alot so dun be mistaken. she wanted to try out a rebonding hair thingy, so she tried it out on her dog's tail. now her dog has a tail with EXTREMELY STRAIGHT FUR -_-

sorry, i just had to blog this. its so crazy.

and both of us are saddistic, stapling moths onto a wall. :D and stapling hands too. ^^

thats a game, don't worry.

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the endof a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine

OMG I WANT THIS SONG PLEASE, HEARD IT ON CLASS95 LAST NIGHT. :(((

I'd Rather - Luther Vandross

Don't, you don't have to save my life
No, you're not ready, I can feel it
Outside it's raining, but I'll just go home
Someday your heart will just let him go

As soon as you get that feeling
You can start to live again
As soon as the worst is over
You can make it all make sense
Right now I
Can't give you what you need
As soon as you get that feeling
Run to me

Hush, you don't have to say a word
Trust I'm not gonna hate you for it
Feels like my touch only brings back the pain
Someday those mem'ries will fade away

How can I be brave enough to say goodbye?
I'd die inside without you
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Can't you see it's hard enough to walk away?
Don't look at me and make me wrong
I've been through this to make me strong

As soon as you get that feeling
You can start to live again
Oh, as soon as the worst is over
You can make it all make sense
Right now I
Can't give you what you need
As soon as you get that feeling
As soon as you get that feeling
Run to me

All in a different perspective...

I'VE GOT THE COOLEST SCIENCE TUTOR ON EARTH:D she told me to go clubbing! HAHHAHAHA. not like im interested in it or anything, in fact i don't really like it, and anw i cant drink for nuts too, but how cool is it that your TUTOR asks you to go CLUBBING and enjoy it while you can?!?!?! HAHAHHAHAHA. cos we were talking about life after Os, like JC and stuff. then i told her my mom told my bro to bring me clubbing, she meant it in the way that its better for my bro to bring me than anyone else in the world. which is true. and i told ms trisha that and she told me since my mom is cool about it then why not! she said its best that my bro could bring me around now, show the ropes, cos i DEFINITELY have to do it one day whether i like it or not (cos i protested that i dont like clubbing). so she was like "you will like clubbing one. you must go ok. if not next time you're gonna tell you girl "i've never been clubbing before" she's gonna laugh at you!" HAHA MS TRISHA IS SO COOL. and she's not the party girl kind anw, she's rly simple and niceeee(: she say its just a phase, soemthing you have to go through. haha she said loadsa cool stuff. and i told her "these sounds so wrong coming from you, my science tutor" and she went on with her whole personalised theory on clubbing. HAHAHA.

but don't worry people, i dont like blaring music, i abhor alcohol so im not going to turn into the next sarong party girl or something. i don't want to have a sleaazy reputation, thanks. and ms trisha is starting work tomorrow!! hahahhaha! she looks damn sianned about it. LOL. first day at work! omg how cool is that. im going to sms her to wish her luck for her first day! :D and ms trisha and i talked about loadsa cool stuff today. and i impressed her on our "twitty teenagers" nowadays and she impressed me with her uni life and people. :D i'ld like to go lunch with her someday. aww i hope we could keep in contact even when we stop having tuition after Os. :( and ms yap too! they're damn nice people.

AND TOMORROW IS MONDAY. yknw the term TGIF right, i think i should invent TGIM. YAAAAY:D the longlong awaited day! i can almost imagine myself giggling when i see her! HAHAHAH ALL THE HILARIOUS THINGS SHE SAID IN SMSES. LOL! HAHAHA AND I LOVE HER COMMENT ABOUT US LOOKING AS IF WE LOST OUR SKIRTS! HAAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA. THAT WAS FREAKING FUNNY. I LAUGHED OUT LOUD IN FRONT OF MY COMP. (she always makes me feel stupid) like just now lolololol.

summarised version:
me: eh yknw what, my mom just said my dad's office is damn near/opp NP! (cos i wasnt sure if it was near or opposite lah)
her: but i think opposite NP is a jungle! oh then if he wanna go np to pick you up after his work, you can stay later with me here:D heh
me: HAHA MY DAD WORKS IN A JUNGLE. hahahah. no lah, his office in *. and no lah, my dad don't work weekends one. huh we not going home together ah?
her: i thought it might be more convinient if your dad was working nearby then you can get home faster. but apparently you wanna spend more time with me :D (this is so her ok :P) and er, monday is not a weekend la bimbo :P:P hahahaha.

LOLOLOL SORRY LAH. IM NOT USED TO GOING OUT WITH FRIENDS ON WEEKDAYS CAN. LOL.

and im interested in currencies now. im going to go search the web for it. haha spurred on by some currency chat with my math tutor. lol. hahaha im random i know.

OH! something worth mentioning:D
i made SOMEONE feel super guilty just now. HOHOHO. and i know that SOMEONE is reading my blog now, so hello there someone(: are you still feeling guilty? HEEHEEHEE. you feel bad right! and im not letting you off the hook yet! too bad. :P not grabbing the chance to tell you now is like winning lottery but not going to collect the money. HAHAHHAHA! so no matter how much you protest im just gonna go on and on and on :D dont worry, it wont take long to list EVERYTHING out :P just a few days :P:P you ownself say you want to know one ok. dont make me quote you on my blog. :P

me: 妈咪，我明天和朋友出去。我那时候告诉你了，明天十一号。
mom: oh.. 对 hor, 那么快十一号了。(pauses for awhile) 你是不是又跟那个*出去？！？！？！？！
me: noooooooooooo! 明天是跟 grace 出去啦！
mom: ohhh. 那个上次看电影看一半的那个女孩子啊！
me: yah!! (feeling sheepish, tell you tmr grace) not * lah!
mom: then 你明天要做什么？
me: 我们明天 845 meet 在 orchard mrt. 然后我们去 coffee bean, then go kinokuniya then eat delifrance then going ngee ann poly! (voice has a crescendo already LOL)
mom: 哇！你明天比我更忙啊！schedule so packed ah!

and then she ask me why i like so excited like that. then i told her cos so long nv meet alr then i got alot to say to grace. then she was like "very long never meet meh.. thought you all just meet only..." LOL. hahaha then she told me not to get overexcited cos later at night i wouldnt be able to sleep and get myself too tired out tmr. :P hahahha which is so true cos thats so typical of me lah.

hahahhaa but anyway im going to sleep late tonight also cos im going to wait for SOMEONE to come back from dinner and continue my torture chamber:D

someone's eating dinner guiltyly now,
and im feeling coy and smug:D

"wlau early in the morning with office crowd then got two girls wear fbts -.- ahah!"

"anw i jus realised what i typed. my very often wear heels is abt 3 times a mth. hahaha."

and because i told her i nearly typed "heels" as "hills" then this is what she replied:
"np has 14000 students, how big do you think it is? :P and yes we need to climb a humungous hill so heels wont do definitely not. HAHA."

OMG AND THE WOMAN JUST MESSAGED ME THIS. HAHHAHAHHAHAH!!! I LAUGHED MY ASS OFF. LIKE REALLY LAUGHED MY HEAD OFF IN A "BEND YOUR STOMACH" KIND OF WAY. WHAT THE HELL THIS WOMAN IS THE BOMB.

me (in reply of her office crowd sms): We could give them the "too bad, you're stuck in your heels and seeing your boss's ugly face" face!

her: LOL yes of course! haha :D:D we must go in the train and stand next to a DAMN stressed looking man and say loudly "eh what we doing today ah? beach right! oh no wait, shopping! or issit jus chililing. eh we shd've slept in late lor. cause our HOLIDAYS now leh!" he'll use his briefcase whack us. HAHA!

OMFG. THIS WOMAN IS SOOOOO DAMN EXTREMELY FUNNY TO AN ABSOLUTE GIGANTINORMOUS EXTENT.

(haha now you know grace why i took longer to reply this reply of yours, cos i was busy blogging it into my blog :P)

how boring would days be without her.
omg, can tomorrow be monday, thanks.

OMG GRACE JUST SMSED ME TO SAY THAT WE SHOULD PAIR OUR FBT SHORTS ON MONDAY WITH HANDBAGS.

THAT WOMAN IS A SILLY GOONDU.

I ASKED HER WHAT KIND OF HANDBAGS IN DISBELIEF AND SHE TOLD ME THE REAL KIND OF HANDBAGS WE BRING TO CONCERTS. LOLOLOLOL OMG HAHAHAHHAHA:D so much for telling me she wasn't a handbag kind of person last time. LOLOLOL. now she's forsaken her tote for handbags. TSKTSK. -wags finger-

she's so dynamic, cheers you up at any time of the day. haha yes woman, i was feeling abit sad earlier thats why the first few msgs were kindda curt, but after that you totally made me happy+high lah. esp when i thought tmr was monday for 5 seconds. :X loves! :D

haha anw, its good she suggested. i didnt know what bag to bring :DD

and your heels are killing you now grace, i know. :)

I WATCHED HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL LIKE JUST, FOR THE FIRST TIME. AND I CRIED :DDD ITS NICEE(: now im watching "about a boy" all thanks to belle who lent me her vcds! :D im hungry and they're having fish&co. PFFTS :/

AND IM GOING NP :D
as quoted "scour np for hot guys"
just lovely :)

Oh my god,
心跳加速。

what the hell lol. kan sent me some flixter thingthing and i went to click it and i kept clicking and clicking till now so manymanymany ppl asked me about flixter! no people, i don't know what it is too. i got scammed by kan who got scammed by his friend and now you guys got scammed too. BOOHOO. please don't care about it. i have no idea what it is too. and now im having like 20 plus emails in my inbox containing flixter stuff. WTH -.-

flixter is scam.

Omg, so much to blog about.

So yesterday was the lit-cum-english seminarS. so many people pon e math remedial before that! lol! like it was an all girls class lah wth. lol. i think the compre component for the english seminar was quite good cos the speaker was absolutely hilarious lah ok! although i don't really know how to connect what he said and taught to comprehension but it was so utterly funny ^^ pictures in awhile, it's still loading in my photobucket. lol. my pics are always like a few thousand KB big, idk why also. idk how to "downsize" it in my cam. lol. thn aftr the seminar bling, mel, belle, chin and i bus-ed 167 home together. was the first to alight, super tired. we all were like sleeping save for belle and chin.

then we wanted to take group pics.
but it was unsuccessful cos as you can seeee, people keep getting cut off cos nobody's hand was long enough. :P so i took one for them instead!

we're the survivors or seminars! :DDDD

and guess what. eu ginn and alvin came over last night. lolol. supposed to be yesterday, then changed to today, then changed back to yesterday again. lol. so they came over, and liked the cheesecake :D im glad (: eu ginn ate more than a slice, thats a good sign. :D and they were paranoid about balding and retaining in J1. and alvin used my face wash and taught me about toner which untill now i don't know what's that. lol. and i finally returned alvin his 4bucks! :D and they ordered pizza and they ate till they were stuffed. lol. they went home rly late. lol. everybody was just feeling lazy and tired and don't wanna move so they kept procrastinating. lol. oh! i thought it was quite funny when alvin and i went downstairs to get the pizza then when we came back and they started eating, the radio was suddenly playing chinese songs. and i got the shock of my life cos my radio was tuned to class95! HAHAHHAA. LOL. so anw, it was eu ginn who changed the station. lol. OH! OH! and alvin had a scam call!! some idiot called him and claimed he was bill gates. so crap. lol so he was put on loudspeaker and it amused us. then he said "hold on, i'll let my secretary talk to you" then YKNW WHAT, he paused for 4 seconds and then talked to us "as his secretary". IT WAS THE SAME PERSON LAH WTH! LOL. and it was quite scary cos they knew alvin's number and knew he was alvin ho. OMG. i think that guy went to give this person his numer lah. some talent scout thing but he knew was fake and he still gave. LOL. :X OH. and alvin wanted to hug charcoal and charcoal nearly bit him. lol i think that scared alvin, think twice of getting a dachshund. :P

Happy 17th Birthday to Eu Ginn :)

And to alvin too 4 days later. :P

then today, bling and theresa came over! wlau the both of them tell me 930, make me 9am wake up wlaauu. LOL. then smsed bling to realise she's still in bed. LOL WTH. LOLOLOL. then they came over to swim! :D we taught theresa freestyle!!! :D hahaha she's nearly there:D then we had a rly filling lunch. and they liked my cheesecake tooooo :D yipeee. lol the everyone likes my cheesecake but me :( boohoo. i think im gonna make the biscuit base thicker next time with more chocolate. lol. then we took pictures and i finally gave bling one of the shirts! :D hahahaha. it was damn funny, i think we had a fashion session cos she was telling me what to pair my long shirt up with. LOL. and i was forcing her into my skirt. LOL. theresa said she heard us screaming while she was showering. LOLOL. then afterwhich at 3, we all went to novena. theresa to take the mrt to church then bling and i to united square to study cos she had tuition at 5 at united sq too. lol we wanted to go starbucks but we were toooo fuuull by the cheesecake and we went swensons instead and had a giant soda isit! HAHAHA:D the lime was weird but the ice cream was good! :D she had strawberry. as usual! LOL. then we went popular, espirit and a tech shop. LOL YOU KNOW THERE'S THIS COMP WHOSE CPU IS SMALLER THAN ITS SCREEN?!?!?! HAHAHHAHA SO CUTE. ok, so the espirit bag isnt that nice cos apparantly im the only one who likes it :( BOOHOO. so lets just stick with num. baahh. :(( YAY PICTURES!

OH OH! I NEARLY FORGOT! poor theresa got bitten by charcoal! :( he's so 忘恩负义 ok. she was feeding him and wanted to hug him then he bit her!! then you could his jaw mark lah!! omg. though it was superficial wound but like wlau, :(((((( i feel bad as a host. :(

SORRY THERESA!!

after swimming, lunch, shower, cheesecake:D ready to go novena! :D



lime soda and strawberry soda:D i think the lime taste weird.

that typical swensons lamp.


i've got double cherry cos bling gave me hers! :D



LOL SO GLEEFUL :Dstrawberry is her fav flavour and she hates pink. lolol.



LOOK! YOU EAT PHOSPHOROUS AND POTASSIUM!

we're so nice to swensons. FREE ADVERT. anw, this set costs $10 alright.



she asked me to put my hand away.so there. :Panw i think this pic is so damn artistic.

MIRRORS EVERYWHERE:D

and eu ginn just gave me the shock of my life when he told me i sent him 50-60 messages a day. WLAU THAT SO SCARY CAN. omgomgomgomgomg. i muuuuust leart to cut down. no wonder my value deplete so fast! (prepaid user)

1. each message must not exceed the length of ONE message
2.i should stop ranting so much and deliver so manymany frequent msgs.
3. in conclusion, i should stop talking so much.
4. learn to shut up.

lol.

THIS IS SUCH A LONGLONG POST!
AND I CANT WAIT FOR MONDAY(:
SO MUCH TO SAY:D

"Now I know that I have left the past behind, becoming a part of my past, the part that don't last, I let it go. I'm losing you and it's effortless, without a sound we lose sight of the ground."

That was a compilation of lyrics (: