this is gonna be a damn detailed recount of today. so unless you're really bored like how i am now, you really shouldn't read it.

Was rudely awoken by a phone call today at 1030. Was so groggy and sleepy cos i've been sleeping at wee hours of dawn. Was urged by my mom to quickly wake up and go change, going out for lunch. YES, WE DIDNT GO TO THE HOUSEWARMING PARTY :( that's sad because = no eye candy. poofts. but still, its a good thing, cos it means, no irritating people to entertain as well :)

HAHA I WORE A DRESS TODAY. because i was staring at my wardrobe wondering what to wear. and then i got so fed up, then i just took that dress off my rack. it had been hanging there for like yeaarrs lah. LOL. anyway yah, i think im more of a dress person since, as quoted from my mom, "you don't look fat in them" because they "hide my horrendous thighs" hahahhaha ok. LOL. anyway, the dress was damn casual lah, nothing too formal about it.

Wanted to eat tong le, but we kind of forgot where all the branches were and my dad was damn cute. he kept saying wrong restaurants like "there's one at novena square right" and i said "noo.. thats lao bei jing!" then he said "oh taka have right" then i said "noo thats crystal jade" hahahaha ok anyway we went taka because we wanted to shop too.

CRYSTAL JADE WAS SOOO PACKED. so we went to the one beside it. at first it looked damn unappealing cos it said "teochew cuisine" so i was like "err lets just try this lah. im hungry alr" so yes, in we went. omg, it had a greaat atmosphere. quite romantic i'd say. hahahha quite wrong for a restaurant thats named "imperial treasure" because its like so chinese. hahhaha. OMG THE FOOOOD WAS GOOOOOOOD. omgomgomomgomg amazingly gooood :D

hahhaha there was this funny part in the restaurant. it was the last dish alr and everyone was filled up to the brim and we had to finish the beef thing we ordered. so my dad say "eat finish lah, left two pieces only. one person eat one finish alr" so my mom immediately said "ok, you and doreen finish" then he took the beef you know!! LIKE AS IN RLY, USED HIS CHOPSTICKS AND TAKE. which was amazing amazing amazing because usually he'd just ignore us and my mom would end up finishing it off. so my mom and i looked at each other gobsmacked and you know what! my dad "pinched" the beef up, and put it on my mom's plate. HAHAHHAHA omg i tell you i LAUGHED OUT LOUD. because it was just so ironic. hahahhaha. there we were thinking my dad was a 'changed man' and feeling shocked about it. but in the end... LOL.

then we went shopping for my bag that i've been wanting since the start of this year. a really nice, casual, durable, big bag so that i can bring go out and also bring to australia as school bag. so we went shopping around. OMG I TELL YOU. SHOPPING WITH PAPA IS SUPER LAH. he's got suchhh great taste! even my mom said "omg this is so scary. how come papa so "in" one. i feel so old now" hahhaha omg. like EVERYTHING he chooses is just what i like. omggggg. and he's so patient, he'd just sit down at every shop and then i'd hold the bag and he'll give me his comments which i tell you is goood lah. he'll analyse how durable it is, the maintence and everything under the sun.

so my mom said she felt bad that i've been searching high and low for the perfect bag but to no avail so she brought me to better shops since she knows im that kind of person who would use a bag for 6 years kind. which is true, my school bag has been with me for 6 years, since p5! even aldrich is surprised, he said that time "omg you're still using this bag ah" hahahha and that bag cost 100 plus which is ex for a schoolbag but using it for 6 years is more value for money alr lah. hahahhaa. so yeah, she said she'd buy a better bag for me.

so we went into higher end shops, which was weeeeiirdddd. like coach, tod's and such. i felt weird cos im just a kid. ok, teenager. but still. yah. so we went into gucci, and there was this awesomely lovely bag that i liked. so my mom asked me to try, but i said no cos its gucci. and im not exactly a brand person. throw me a $20 bag anytime just as long as it looks nice on me. but anyway she was persistant so i tried it, and yes, i admit, i rly liked it alot and it was good. so was the price. it was near $3000. and my dad was like "if you like, just buy" and i was like NOOOOOO. we're going to walk around and see how first.

i think its wrong to buy such branded goods for a teenager since you'd just spoil her. and then what if i start liking such branded goods, how can i satisfy my appetite for such high end stuff as a youth? then i'd just be some materialistic piece of crap which is shit. hahaha ok reminds me of a conversation that i had with grace the first time we met. lolol :D

walked around, passed by on pedder. and i told my mom that if she rly wanted to invest in a pair of good heels, then she should come to shops like on pedder instead of buy 10 other normal pairs. so she peered in, and HOLA, an array of beautiful bags. yes, i was largely attracted too. so in we went. loadsa nice bags. the salesperson was damn nice too, very cute and funny. and my dad started picking bags out for me which was ALL DAMN NICE. i had a hard choice. finally i took a better liking for one which was made of lamb skin or sth like that -.- and it had a smell so i said sth like "i can smell the lamb" hahahha ok. but it was nice, it was soft and was just the way i liked it. lo and behold, $1200 -.- it immediately lessened my liking to it. gee. since when do lamb costs so much. but anyway my dad was supportive of me but because it was sooooo expensive so yes, i stood in front of the mirror for a longlong time.

moreover my mom wasnt rly digging it. and i've always trusted my mom when it comes to shopping. i don't buy things she don't like. so it made me even more contemplative, afraid that i'd make a wrong choice. and it's gonna be one hell of an expensive lesson. so we told the person we'd be back later.

went inside calvin klein. bags looked so boring. suddenly my dad said "what about that one" then my mom and i were like "EH NOT BAD AH" and we were amazed that my dad acty saw it cos it was like tucked in one of the lower shelves hahahha so we were amazed. and it was nice really. but not for school kind. so nahhh.

that was when i was rly touched by my dad. cos even though he don't talk much, i can see that he was really really doing his best to buy me that bag. like he rlllly looked around and everything. cos he's usually a more bo chap person, that kind of "call me when your shopping ends. im just gonna sit here and do nothing" kind. but today he really walked around the shops and looked intently. was very touched :)

he even led us INTO shops. yes, by that i meant, he was the first one to step inside and we followed suit. hahahha weird right. cos i always thought my dad was not that into fashion and modern stuff. hahahhaha okok wrong idea. and the shops he step into are like woah, damn zai one lah. he's rly got an eye for things :)

went to wisma. went inside armani jeans, purpose to actually shop for jackets for australia. but as we were leaving my mom suddenly exclaimed "WHAT ABOUT THAT!" woah yes, love at first sight. it was goooood. much better than that lamb and soooooo much cheaper. phew thank god. get rid of the guilt man. so yes, dad liked it, mom loved it, bought it. :D so glad that we didnt buy that lamb thing, or worst! that gucci thing -.- and this bag looks muchmuch more sturdy than the others, and it looks casual and very school-like. like it wont look weird like as if i was going shopping in campus. hahahha but it'd also look ok if i brought it out to shops or movies. yesyes, started to like it more and more and more. PLUS, we were all so excited cos there was a 20% discount, and an additional 3% cos my dad was an isetan member. HAHAHA I NEVER KNEW HE WAS AN ISETAN MEMBER PLS. LOL. PLUS, we had $25 isetan voucher, which could be used for my bobbi brown make up thing for prom. so in all, we saved up to a $100! :D and! the salesgirl also said that all these discounts would have ended on monday so we were rly lucky to come today. :D hahaha i told my parents "see, this means we're meant to buy this." hahahaha. yes, we were all damn happy about it (the discounts). mom couldnt stop smiling, dad couldn't stop talking about it. hahahah me? i was just damn glad i finally bought a bag that i have been searching for for so long :)

you see. this means expensive stuff not equals nice stuff not equals stuff you like. so materialistic people should just go and.. reflect.

actually i wanted to buy shades. but since we spent so much on the bag alr, i felt bad so didnt buy shades anymore. told mom i'd jus take hers then she can go buy a new one for herself.

anyway main point = was really touched by how concerned my dad was even though this is a small thing. could really see he was really putting in alot of effort into helping me buy my bag. and i could feel like we're growing closer and closer ever since we started exercising together, going on jogging trips. but today was the first time my dad and i ever talked so friendly-ly and smile-ly and that just felt good :) so warm and fuzzy ^^ cos usually my dad is quite aloof and no-nonsense kind of person. so he's not that daddydaddy kind of father, but one that would earn respect from all of us. so there had always been a gap or distant between us. but im really glad that that gap is closing smaller and smaller by the day :)

he had also been very concerned for my studies recently, which is rare. like every night, he'd ask my mom what paper im having tmr and my mom told me she felt so bad that she wasn't caring for me as much as my dad. hahahahaha :D then after every paper he'd call and ask how was it. if not he'd ask during dinner. and if i said the paper was not bad, he'd say "like that means A1 lah" hahhaha very typical. but! untrue. LOL. and when i got back prelims results, it was the first time i felt like he was rly proud of me. he asked me how we should celebrate and i said i wanted to eat sashimi. so he went to the usual place to buy but that day it wasnt open. so he went aaall out of the way to buy me sashimi. thats the difference btwn my mom and him. he'll never never make you disappointed. once he promises you something, he'll definitely fufill his promise. and he never once "deflated" me as well. when i told them i know i couldnt do well for o levels, he said "it doesn't matter what. you've already gotten a place at your college" it meant alot to me since i know how happy they were when i got 13 so im rly afraid now that i'd disappoint them to a large extent but to hear him say that, it made me feel a little better, albeit more guilty. i know he'd be disappointed still if i don't do well cos afterall friends and relatives would ask and those sort or stuff. but im glad he's not showing it to me and giving me pressure about it. means alot.

So anyway, it felt good that someone was going that extra mile for you. His patience today was more than i could ask for, we were shopping for 3 hours straight today just to buy my things and he never once grumbled but instead became more determined by the minute to find that bag. I feel loved today :D and its not because of how much that bag costs, or that its branded, but how my family actually put in effort for me, wanted only the best for me, and so much more :) this shopping trip really means alot to me, its more than just a shopping trip.

It's like.. bonding, growing closer together as a family :)

Actually I had plans for other things today. Wanted to do a something, but after much due advice from some wise man, i decided against it. I guess this is how Providence is telling me that I've made a right choice. Maybe it's also reminding me that family ties, and family love will always beat anything hands down. And maybe it's also telling me, to widen my scope of seeing things, and maybe it's also telling me.... :)

And also, thank you for that someone for that phone call last night :) I was too caught up in my happiness yesterday that i almost lost my rationality. Thank you for waking me up to my senses, if not i'd have made a disastrous choice :) Thank you.