I suddenly miss PAE alot.
I was bloghopping and I bloghopped till this girl whose from SAJC. And I found some of my PAE mates's blogs, hopped till lots of trinity ppl blogs and just lots of blogs. Somehow, each time I stumble upon pictures of people in SAJC uniforms, a saint's blog, I just would have this feeling welling up in me. I miss going to school, like a real school. With uniform, with PE, with tuitions, with cca, with a real class, waking up at 6 in the morning. I miss going to tuition, esp math cos I rly like my math tutor. I wonder how life would be like if I continued my stay in SAJC, would I be doing well? Of course, one thing I would be sure, is that if I really were to be in SAJC, I'd definitely hope that I came here instead. Haha, ironic. But I can't help but feel sad I left, just this feeling in me I can't describe each time I think of SAJC. I always feel like I'm missing out on something each time I think of JC, maybe its that stress that everyone's stumbling over, maybe its that "class politics" that everyone's complaining over, maybe it's that "PW sucks" phase that everyone's going through. I know people studying in JC now would be like "are you nuts. you're having such a good life there in aussie and you wanna come back to do JC?" Haha, I know.
I don't know, but its just something about SAJC that makes me feel sad that I left, this feeling of "what could have been."
Managed to blog hop to a senior whom I know in SAJC, (know as in he took us for orientation) and I gain an insight of a J2's point of life. A guy, more likely. NS, independence, true worries, real concerns, what's love to him, a deeper view of an 18 year old's life. It's weird knowing him this way cos firstly he doesn't know me at all. And I've got other J2 friends doing their A levels now and I never thought that they might be feeling this way, the fear, the anticipation, the excitment, the concerns, so real, so real - I can feel it. It's quite intriguing to read his blog because I've always thought that he was a really joker, fun to be with, humourous and just real cool and funky but his blog is so deep, so honest, so bare.
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Haha zhenghui was saying something rly atrocious so I..
D says:
don cross the line pal.
LZH money is not the most important thing in life. Love is... cause i Love Money says:
what line?
LZH money is not the most important thing in life. Love is... cause i Love Money says:
last time the line that seperate us is the north east line.
now the line that seperate us is the international flight line
That's so sweet, and so sad. :( ok im having lots of emo conversations with a couple of people.
to person A:
I'm glad we talked things out. I'm glad all changes are not irreversible. I'm glad you've got my back now. You'll always be my best pal. (:
to person B:
I'm glad this is what we've become now, it cldn't have gotten any better than this. :)
4 comments:
I get the same feeling too everytime I think of AC! I'm so happy here right now with all my friends in my course, but sometimes I wonder, what if I didn't have any friends here in mass comm, would I still be here or would I regret coming? Ah shucks, now I miss AC like mad too. Especially dance :( The other day I saw my dance friend on the bus i was taking, I quickly looked down because i didn't want her to see me. Idk, everytime i talk to someone from AC, this overwhelming feeling comes over me, kinda like a "that could have been my life" feeling. And as much as I am enjoying myself now, i just don't like the "what could have been" feeling. It sucks and it makes me emo D:
Really could relate to this post of yours....
YES OMG I KNOW. I get that same longing feeling too! you know, it's so bad that this year, i purposely skipped the annual ACJC dance production because I knew seeing the dancers up there on stage would make me think a lot about life and if i had made the right choice and all.
(btw, yes i also know that if I had stayed in AC, i would have regretted it horribly. so yes, we are never satisfied with what we have huh lol.)
I WAS SO SO SO RELIEVED WHEN I READ THIS POST OF YOURS. i was wondering if it was just me having these mixed feelings of melancholy. and i never understood why i felt sad whenever i saw AC people. maybe in a way, i felt like i didnt fully leave AC, like i didnt fully WILLINGLY leave AC, rather.
i feel like a part of me was still desperately trying to cling on to the AC culture (more imptly, dance) even though i made up my mind to leave. maybe thats why i feel this way. and maybe thats why you feel that way too.
Urgh, and I was just feeling as you were a few days back. The what could've been if I just went to art school. I still think about it and sigh it out. Haha. I'm still walking around in a circle. Totally felt it when you said it all. :\
"are you nuts. you're having such a good life there in aussie and you wanna come back to do JC?"
spot-on indeed!
Hope you're kicking butt there eh?
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