OMG OMG IT'S 6AM AND I'VE FINISHED MY LIT ESSAY PLUS PLAN!!! YEEEHAWWRR!!! I ACTY GOT TIME TO SLEEEEP! ;)Me wrote an amazing 1626 words and i have yet to include quotes yet! MUAHAHHAHA. Anw, the plan is a fluke. I did my essay before I even did the plan. SO as you can see, the plan is just to make my tutor happy cos she wants to see it cos she can't see our whole essay draft. So what I did was to copy paste my essay onto another document then make it into point form. HAHAHHAHA. so cheat right, i know. BUT WHAT TO DO, TIRED ALR LAH. NO TIMEE. hahaha in the end i left out my 4th factor cos i didnt know the previous 3 would be so wordy hahahha! which is a good thing hahaha! didnt know got so much to write about. Crap, I hope my tutor never go to the website I go to cos i kope most of my ideas from there. HAHAHHAA.

sian lah, i dont feel like going to my replacement lit tut tmr. Maybe i'll just meet her during breaks and tell her that im still not feeling well and just go through my plan with her can liao. HAAHHAHHA.

I know, I know what i'm doing is wrong. Thinking about it alone is a mistake in itself. I can't seem to stop myself, nor extract myself from the mess I'm plunging myself into. I'm not usually this irrational, but why isit that this time I can't extricate myself out of what I know would be massive disappointment. Heck, there won't even be disappointment cos there's absolutely no hope in this at all. Doreen, where have your rationality gone to. You're just wasting your time, focus and hopeless hopes. DOREENNEOXIAPING, wake up and smell the coffee!

Cried before anything even started. Haven't felt this helpless in a long while. Haven't felt this lost for some time. Haven't felt this weak, haven't felt this desperation. No.. Stop.. Before it's too late.

Sigh.

God, help me.