Thank you for making me smile first thing in the morning :)

Much thanks to those who sent their regards through msn, sms and comments regarding the previous entry.

To Mummy:
Although I didn't show it, but when you asked me last night if I was ok, I was really touched. Though I denied but you were persistant in prying it out for me, I know you could sense that I was still upset over it but I appreciate you not probing further. I really felt like crying when you were so concerned, realising that I was a little quieter, smiled a little lesser and frowned a little more. Thank you for noticing every little emotion of mine. I'm grateful that you can read me like a book. I love you.

To Grace:
Thank you for understanding like you always do. Thank you for always reminding me to have faith and belief, thank you for always reminding me that i've tried, thank you always telling me failing is another step of life, thank you for always seeing things at my point of view, thanks you for always reminding me that I'm not alone. those. Thank you so so much for reminding me it. And yes you do sound so serious and un-huiwen-y, like you're writing a lit essay. I'm sure if this were a lit topic you'd be acing it! You are a great motivationer :D

To Eeling:
Though I've said everything in my reply to you, I really really want to thank you for your uber uber uber uber uber super damn long sms to me! It was soo long that my phone couldnt take it and had to cut it up into two messages seperately! Haha! I was shocked because you don't send long messages and I'm really touched that you did this for me :) It made me want to cry, especially when I was replying you cos you really said all the greatest stuff that made me feel much more guilt-less. I thought I'd be going to school glum today, but your message rly englightened me and I felt a little more weight taken of my heart. I really really thank you. I appreciate it, it means alot, thank you :)

To Javin:
Thank you for making me laugh incessantly despite you knowing how horrible I felt. Thank you for the retarded pictures and all the fun laughter and joy. Now I know how timid you are when it comes to the supernatural :D

To the old man:
Hello, I really wonder how you are now. Just now when I was crossing the road, I saw this ambulance. And I wondered why wasn't there any when you needed one, if this ambulance happened to pass by, you'd have got greater help than I could have given. Then I saw the traffic police, I really felt angry for a moment why wasn't there any civil servant that happened to pass by. I really really hope you are ok. I still am worried for you, images of you still seem to flash in my mind, I guess there will always still be this tinge of guilt in me for you. I hope you don't bear it against me, I hope you have recieved really good medical treatment and I hope your family would learn to cherish you more. I hope you'd appear in this vincity again, so that I could ask you how you are and apologise for everything I've done, or rather, everything I've not done.

To all others:
Thank you for your concern, sorry I wasn't ready to talk more, sorry if I snapped at you, sorry if I was curt, thank you for bearing with me. Thank you for continuing to talk to me even when I stopped talking totally. Thank you all :)

To the first person I thought of:
I'm just pretending like your concern doesn't impact me that much, but actually it does. It made my heart race, it made me smile like crazy, it made me forget everything momentarily. I just don't want you to know, even though I wonder if you do. Only you can make me smile like this. I hope you know, but then again, I hope you don't. I don't want you to know how much you actually really mean to me. You have no idea how much guts it took me to resist every urge in my mind then to call you at that moment.

Mumsy bought a new car, bought a family car but with four seats. Feels weird cos we've never had a family car before. She says its much easier when she goes grocery shopping with my dad cos they do it weekly so they always buy loadsa stuff.When she drove me from tuition, I felt as if she was driving someone else's car. lolol. But anw I doubt i would even recognise it if i saw it on the road. lolol. SO, for those who are always saying my family only drives merc then you are wrong now! Muahahhaa. I think my mom adores this car more than her previous one, she's always complaining how ma fan it is cos its two doors. lol. and now it had the black coating at the windows so she can "protect herself from freckles" lololol.

It's 2 weeks to O levels, thanks zachary for the greeeeaaaat reminder today in class. Sigh, I guess this means studying. :( I didnt realise it was two weeks pls, such a shocking "back to earth" note. dammn, but im still watching my 9pm show! :D

I decided to do something for people and give them at prom instead of grad day like i planned to. cos i think prom is rly the LAST day most of us would see each other. Plus, not much time to do anything sentimental for people now too. Should put in more effort for the, one last gift.

There are some people in life you just keep going back to. No matter how much you try to run away, you still find yourself by their side.