that last long post of helloX100000 wasnt from me. davin santa "hacked" into my blogger account and wrote that entry for me. please i not so lame and don have that much time ok. everydya i feel like i dont have time and energy for anything and thats just stupid because i dont get anything done at all. i hate the way i have no time for schoolwork at all because i spend too bloody much time cooking and washing the dishes that after doing everything im just so lethargic that im totally exhausted. and im falling so behind my school work that i havent been online for weeks but thrs still nothing done to it. omg i must start priortising or drawing up a timetable soon. so many essays due, exams soon and im like lagging behind 2 tutorials for each subject. what the hell is wrong with me, i better get my act together. im sorry people that i havent been blogging, haven't been replying emails, i'm just so tired everyday to come online. i even forget what date it is everyday and waking up is such a chore. and i don't know whats wrong because im always so tired but in reality, nothing is done. omg im so unproductive.

i should stop complaining.

anyway, I HAD AN AWESOME CHURCH CAMP. it was life-changing, for real. hahahha and for some major parts of the camp, i'd think of samuel and wld go like "oooh must tell samuel thisthisthis happened" hahahhahahha. idk why lah. anyway, it was just so amazing. like now i know i'm never alone, that there's always someone to fall back on, that my troubles would always be heard because sometimes.. a phone call could be too far away as well... so yeah anw, camp was amazing, i feel so full of faith now and i cld rly feel that camp was just the beginning of an amazing journey. mmmmmm.. :D more about that next time if i have time.

anw im damn sleepy now. i must go sleep. i got my most dreaded class tmr first thing in the morning. come on people, say "disgusting" with me. mm yeah, thats it.

anyway, its FREEEEEEEEEEEZING here now. its lke 7 degrees in the morning and like 9 degrees at night and like 13 degrees in the afternoon. omgggggggg. my hands are freezing while typing this.

anw this entry is to clarify that im alive. and that stupid frigging post was not by me but by some brainless idiot who got nothing better to do so he decided to press "o" for like 5mins on the keyboard. uh huh.

anw yeah, im half dead. bye.

im faced with this huge dilemma and i don't know what to do. :(
so should i,
or should i not.

I need you
More than words can say.
I need you
More and more each day.

Help me.

there's so much piling up now that i don't know anymore where to start from.