GRACE! DO you mean 12am wed night?! womann ah, means it's 3am my time you know. :O horror. And if you meant 12pm, i can't ah, im having lectures from 3-6! So since for both 12 also cannot, call you again another day? I'll tell ya again! :D

Zomgg, I still thought wah I bought a pack of sushi and eat half, then the other half save for tmr, and guess what, i just wolfed down the other half at 11.30pm. ZOMGGGGG. FATS.

Today I had Inner Champion. (which is one of my church courses)

I'm so glad I made the choice to go to inner champ. It's just mindblowing, dynamic and deals with every flaw of a Christian. The first week, we PS Debbie shared about the power of words.

Let me share with you a true story that was published in a medical psychology book ok?

Years ago, a man was having a very basic, easy and normal operation which involves very minimal risk. He wasn't worried and neither were the doctors. However, after the operation, many complications arose. There was excessive bleeding, infection and a risk of going blind. How is this possible? It was such a normal operation, why are these happening?

Specialists were flown in from all over the world. But nothing was found to be the cause. Finally, a psychologist asked the doctors what was being discussed in the operation theatre as the operation was ongoing.

The doctors replied that they were discussing about this old man who had cancer and that he was incurable and was going to die.

The psychologist then replied "I want you to put the man back under anethesia again and say that that old man will be cured and is going to live and that he himself would come out of this operation unscathed."

And it was done.

And the man was immediately cured.

The power of words - A man under anethesia, upon hearing those discouraging and negative words, his body went into rejection, depression even.

What's more the power of words of you/us Christians? We have God's authority and power, what more would the weight of our words carry? The gossips that you've spread, the salt and oil that you added, I'm guilty of it myself. If you've once said that someone "cannot make it", which part of that do you think would help that person come out of his/her difficulty? Even as non christians, this simple theory makes sense yeah? Once you've stamped someone with a label, how hard will it be for that someone to come out of that bondage? The words you speak of someone, you never know its impact that it has on others.

This is really a part of my life that I'll be trying hard to eradicate. Gossiping, talking behind people's back. Upon receiving this revelation, I believe the taming of my tongue will come next. It's gonna be hard definitely. How many conversations are actually made up of gossips? How many friends would I be risking to lose? Really, it's a scary thought. But really, instead of putting people down, why don't you, today, start encouraging others? :) Instead of talking behind the backs of others, why don't you think of how you can help him/her? Think about the many times you've misjudged someone at face value and realise he/she is acty an awesome person. Then think again, how many other have you judged and not know who he/she really is? During this process, how many potential good friends have you lost? Hmmm..

Yah ok, I know I sound so "saint/holy" lah ok, but this is something I really want to change about myself. I'm still in the process, still changing, not near yet. I gossip because it's so easy to bond with other girls while laughing at someone, but must this be the only way to forge friendships? I gossip because I get to know the newest and hottest news, but what about people who have thought of once confiding in you their troubles but decided not to because they're afraid you'd broadcast it to the world? I gossip because it's cool, but what have you yourself thought about all those gossipmongers?

Hmm..

And today's Inner Champ was about forgiveness. And during the time, God really put faces and names into my mind of people to forgive. It was painful no doubt, recalling the things they've said, things they've done to my or my family. But as I'm reminded of how ready God is to forgive me each time I repent, I'm just in awe you know? Like, if He sent His son down to die for my sins, and still continuously forgive me, what's more someone who's done only such hurt to me? What's more, it's tiring to carry this hate. I want to break these walls of my heart, so that nothing will stop people from coming into my heart. And I trust God enough that for every 1 person that hurts me, He'll send 10 others to heal the hurt.

Awesome if you've read up till here. I hope you feel encouraged in some way or another, that you've gotten something out of it. (:

School was fun today. Hanging out with Aaron, Eric, Ray, Sabrina, Felicia and Becs. It was all fun and nonsense :D Lots of laughing and teasing! Hahaha! Woohoo, Aaron is gonna take his driving test this thurs! And he's gonna drive to school once he passes it! :D YAYYY THEN WE CAN GO CHADSTONE FOR LUNCH HAHAHAHA :D

And praise the Lord! I finished up my accounting tutorial in record time @ the library today! YAAY! I even had time to go home and eat dinner before heading to Inner Champ :D Ohh, I love God srsly. He does wonders. Each and every time after Inner Champ, I always seem to have favours over going back home? Hahaha the first I.C, I got a car ride back and today, I met a bunch of them at the train station and we all were going to the same bus stop and there were even two guys left who were walking in the same direction as me and their places were all after mine! So from South Yarra all the way to Clayton, I was fully escorted! woohoo! For once, I felt safe taking public transport back home at night. Hahaha!

Because God, I feel you moving in my life so much this year. And I'm really excited of what you're going to do, and I know I'm going to be delightfully surprised as you reveal parts and parts of your plans for me slowly. Today, you kept reminding me of the verse that if I draw near to You, You WILL draw near to me. And true enough, as I called out to you, I felt your refreshment without fail. Yay loves! :D