Sunday, July 29, 2007

Why do I feel like crying?
Why don't you think I might be feeling the same way too?
I don't want this to happen,
But it's not like I have a choice.
And neither do I have the right to voice my unhappiness too.
You know,
I don't mean every smiley face and exclaimation mark I insert into every sentence now.

Can't you see?
I'm too happy to be true.



I only see one chance left in this.


OMG I WENT OUT WITH GRACE BEFORE TUITION TODAY. Ok, since the pictures are still loading then I shall blog about PE first!

OMG, i LOVE PE without 2.4 and NAPFA pleaase. The girls are love, i know belle and i are always excited when friday's abt to come on the bus on the way back. OMG BUT YESTERDAY'S WAS JUST LOVEEEEEE :D oh but BOO, friday the captain stood on a chair so i only managed to whacked away a few out of the manymany balls nurul m + her switch of caps caught. BUT ANW, yaaah, there was this super stupid thing that happened. NURUL M LAH WLAU, LOL IM SO HAPPILY ANGRY WITH HER OK. Cos Huiwen and I are in the same team and nurul m WASNT, and i think nurul m said "pass to me" to either me or huiwen and either me or huiwen passed the ball to her lah!! AND SHE SCORED. WLAU HAHAHAHHAHA. SO DUMB CAN. it was either, i passed the ball to huiwen and she to nurul m, or huiwen to me and i got fooled by nurul m. wliews. that was atrociously funny please, i think i rolled on the floor with laughter. Well, I rolled on the floor with laughter like twice i think. LOL.

oh, then there's this other time, i whacked the ball away from don't know suhailah and the ball hit tzuling in the left eye and apparantly right before that she got whacked in the right. HAHA. poor thing. oh oh, and there were loadsa tyco shots lah, like everyone scrambling for the ball which dropped and it bounced and the captain jsut caught it like that. LOLOL. oh and i don't know whats the ball doing on tzuling's head for more than once. :/ HAHA.

oh oh! then there was this once, seowhwee was the captain and i jumped to defend it away and i think i leaned too back and i knocked into her and i could feel her falling from the chair so i immediately turned to grab her by the waist. SO SCARY LAH, that poor girl so afraid of heights alr, later i make her fall she's gonna be trausmatised for life. :P

ANW, i love playing captain ball with the girls, loadsa laughters and shrieks and screams and everything girly and bimbotic. But I must remember to wear PE pants that don't threaten to fall ANY minute every Friday. I have this phobia yesterday that each time I jump to defend the ball my pants would drop so i didnt really dare to jump. HAHAHHAA. Oh well :) I LOVE PE :D

Of course sweating out was the best part too, like ever since step down I hardly sweat like this anymore, I forgot how good it felt. Oh, and I can't believe I got a bit of muscle aches from captain's ball the next day lah. LOL WTH :D IT WAS GREAT FUN.

And I still can't believe Nurul M was so convincing then. Funny :D

OHH, random. There was this day, we were to go to the phy lab, and Seowhwee and I was together and i walked to the left and she walked to the right, so we supposedly wanted to accomodate each other so i turned to my right and she turned to my left and we were SHOCKED to face each other straight in the face lah! Like such close proximity that my heart skipped a beat cos I thought she was going to kiss me. HAHHAHAHAHA. And we screamed when we turned and saw each other cos we were really close to each other HAHA! and according to her I had a hooooorrifiic expression on my face which induced her to be even more petrified. LOL. HAHAHHAHAHA! Super funny, i burst out laughing when i thought of it that night. HEE:D



And much thanks to those who helped out with the putting up of class deco during recess and after school during the transitional switch of classrooms, you all have no idea how much that meant to me.



Sometimes when it comes to times like this, you realise alot of things.. You start noticing people, you start appreciating people, you start knowing alot alot of things, that breaks your heart..

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28/7/07
Omg, met Grace at Orchard MRT station at 9am today before my tuition. OMG :D The theme for today was dresses cos she had to attend a concert later and so we decided to wear dress together :D I love themed outings. So cos I've got tickets to NDP so we've agreed to buy those giorando NDP shirts or the "I LOVE SG" shirt that resembles that of "I LOVE NY" with FBT shorts to the parade on 9Aug! HAHAHHA! YAAAY:D

Oh oh woman, I know you're reading this so I'd like to tell you now. Mm, just now during dinner my bro say he wants the tickets to go with his gf so he ask me to go with you to Ritz Carlton to watch the parade instead. Cos it was actually meant for he and his friends but now they all seem to have tickets too so since the room is booked alr, one of them asked their sister to the Ritz instead and so my bro,in order to blackmail me into giving up my NDP tickets, is using the Ritz to tempt us there too. But it's not confirmed yet cos he has to make sure they've all got tickets that are the same colour segment, if not then we're still going to the parade. But if not, then we'll go the Ritz with one of his friend's sister ok? The sister is your age now in ACJC and used to be from MGS. (very similar to our conver today huh) but he said the sister is very nice one, not those typical you know and is one of the rare you know (those we talked about outside mandarin hotel) so yeah :D so i told my bro you might know her since you were in ACJC for the first 3 months lah! :D WHO KNOWS! So everything's not confirmed yet, just want you to be prepared for some change, if any. Will tell you! :D

Ok, sorry for the digression.

Anyway, so we went to coffee bean's at Paragon. I GOT CHEATED LAH K, and when I came home and complained to my bro he said I was damn stupid so I'm not going to tell it here. But anw grace, its the 70cents thing lah wlau. Still so angry. And so I passed her her letter :), and we planned about alot of stuff :D :D pretty scheming i'd say but wlau, when it comes to such people, it calls for extreme measure, you can do it! :D

About 1030 we left to shop at Paragon.






We crashed one of the shop's fitting room, like we just grabbed a shirt each nearby and chiong into fitting room cos the fitting room was really pretty. :)

look, those are the two shirts we grabbed :P



OMG. Miss Selfridge had this uber gooooooood sale and we both went to try on their stuff. OMG :D but cos we were both wearing dresses so we couldnt like wear the tops out to show each other which was quite damn sad please cos we loveeed the tops. We chose an identical black top and a somewhat similar striped green and silver one. WOOHOO. I loveeed both please, but the black one was like damn sexy so I didn't dare to buy cos I don't know if I'd dare to wear it or if my dad will disapprove of it. (Well, when it comes to clothes my dad's a tad's stricter than my mom.) But still, the black top was gooood please ommgg. I'm still thinking about it, it's like totally flattering and Grace agrees too lah, we were like talking across fitting rooms and laughing and shrieking at the effects the top was having on us. Like you feel better of yourself, more confident, cos it looks good what, and everyth lah. So she bought the black top, well, I didn't have the guts. I think I'd have to get my mom with me to see if she gives me the go-ahead. Lol. BUT ANYWAY, my main poin is the shirt is $10 ONLY LAH!! Miss Selfridge please, it was actually like about $40 I think. OH MY GOD. I'm soo glad grace bought it :D



Then off we went to Toys R Us and we saw this High School Musical DVD or sth, and i asked her if she liked HSM, and she said she was about to ask me that too. And we both disagreed on disapproving on the whole hype about HSM and we were shrieking at this discovery cos we thought we were th only ones in th whole wide world who didnt know whats the big deal about HSM lah. HAHAHA:D We really DONT understand why its such a sensational uproar when the songs are o...k..... and the storyline is typical, well ok, I cried at the part when the girl and the guy (look i cant even rmbr their name :/) was torn apart by their friends but its so so only lor, like o..k.. lor.. like that only.. :X Nothing so great about it to cause such an uproar lah. :S







I think i caught the timer just in time to rush to position. lol.


This woman knows how to pose man.












Then we camwhored in the toilet :D This led to a whole series of cam whoring.



I dont know what led to this picture. i only rmbr her bending now and i just took snapped. LOL, random.we were running out of ideas so.......grace said we should learn the ah lians :D and i said we looked pretty real except we need tons more of eyeliner and mascara and foundation and powder so we look ghostly enough! HOO.so since we were feeling mama-drama-y, i suggested dao.I LOVE SELF TIMERS! :D



i don't know if this was intentionally or unintentionally taken but it sure was random! :D


well, that ends our camming spree. The auntie in th toilet sighed sooo loudly when we left. HEE.


And off we went to taka and we shared our views on alot of stuff like guys being more bitchy than girls, about some people being materialistic and all, about cute furry stuff, about alot of stuff that we both shared exact same thoughts on. IM GLAD :D and she intro-ed me to this jap noodle. sorry grace! i was quite nauseous from the mocha latte that i was just eating for the sake of eating cos i had to tahan till 7, sorry! but it was not bad lah, quite a good deal :) Then I walked her to Somerset where she was to meet her friends and we gave each other a tighht big huuug :D


and off i went to tuition at 1230 ^^


IT WAS A GREAT SATURDAY MORNING :D I LOVE GRACE.


Oh tuition was fabb too, except for just one tiny part. Gotta thank this guy for looking out for me lah! though i know you were quite happily smirking at my misfortune. UGH.



he was looking through my cam when his phone rang, so i just took random shots. lol :D he must have got caught by his DM, that explains his short sideburn. LOL.


You know he's like so tall, and he occupied so much of the seat im always squashed up beside him. And his hp is always in his pocket so everytime he attempts to take it out i have to squirm my twist and turn in my seat so that he can successfully dig his phone out. lol wth. but his long legs make him squashed up too. lol. After i took the previous pic, he turned away and refused to look at me anymore so then I saw his hand there so i just took a picture of it and under my close scrutinity, i realise his hands damn big lah! Therefore.....



SEE SEE! TELL YOU ALR! i was still straining my hand to elongate it lah. LOL. my middle finger is only as long as his last finger please, i think shorter even. :X LOL. nv realised he was this tanned pls. LOL.

we both look horrible in this so i went to paint and changed it to this. :D

GENERALLY, I love saturdays cos its the most relaxing time even if it means tuition time :) with the most unguarded people ever. :)

******

When I got tired of running from you,
I stopped right there to catch my breath.
There your words they caught my ears.
You said, "I miss you, darling, come home."

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Bahh, I just realised I've got chem test, lit test, ss test coming up this week. :X and its only th what? 3rd week of school.

so ss is Venice, Sustaining don't-know-what, and industrial growth. OMG, please lah. I NEVER studied industrial growth for my end year last year or mid years this year now you want me to studyy. omgg its so boring. so isit out of these 3 chapts choose one or what!

and chem's err.. what? fuel? and the whole organic chem isit? OMG. i don't even know.

and lit's like quotes. and i wonder how the paper's gonna be set. let write as many quotes as you can on a piece of foolscap? lol wth.

I think im going to study chem and lit first. :X ss can.. err.. wait.. If not I'll just study Venice only. Th other two are so.. eew. :/

I should divert all focus
And devote all my energy to studying
Instead of wasting time thinking of things thats so impossible.
Yeah, time's precious.
Someone remind me how many more days to prelim again.
47 or 48 isit?
Or has it been down to 45?
:/
Sweet Jesus.
On a lighter note of my down-ness today, my brother came back on friday! that toot was supposed to be back on thursday but got some hiccups at aust so got postponed. Oh well, I didn't know I missed him so much till I really saw him and be with him. It feels great to be able to walk past his room and get a whiff of the cologne he always use. It feels great to be able to sit beside him during dinner and him as usual, always heaping food onto my plate, checking fish bones for me before giving me the slice of fish, always eating lesser of the nice stuff i like so i can have more, i miss all his actions of love and care for me. I nearly forgot how its like to have him back again :) I'm so glad he's here to stay forever and ever. It's great to talk about life in Australia and discussing about my life there next time and him helping me to negotiate my amount of pocket money there ^^ so much more. It's nice to hear his cheeky laughter each time we (me and mommy) make fun of his love life. I've missed him so so so so much. I like the way he don't mind me being in his room, taking advantage of his aircon to watch tv even when his friend is there. I like the way he doesn't ask me to get lost like most other siblings usually will but ask me to stay. I like the way he always asks me to watch tv with him. I like the way he swoon in pride when I say he look thinner than before, I like the way he smile when I say he looks even thinner when he dressed up and truthfully, he really looks so damn good when he dresses up for the night. Even I can't believe it! Of course, he gives the credits to his $300 per pair of jeans and designer clothes to make him look as if he has the physique of one who goes to the gym, haha :D I like the way he always ask me if he looks ok before he leaves the house, I like the way he always ask me to stay in his room.

I like the way he always never mind me there. :)

Haha, I feel like crying.
You've been gone for far too long.
It's great to have you back. :)
I wasn't prepared to see your name there.
I wasn't prepared to see all that *'s gotta say about you.
I wasn't prepared at all.

I nearly forgot that heart sinking feeling.
Just, nearly.

And the truth is:
We hide so we can be found
We walk away to see who will follow
We cry to see who will wipe away our tears
And we let our hearts get broken to see who will come and mend them



She's not perfect
And neither is he.
But together,
They just might be.

And there's a piece of me that's burning in your heart,
Even death could never tear us apart.


If he's the first person you look for when you walk into the room,
Then he might be a little bit more than a friend.



When the question is love,
My answer is you.



I know words cant bring you back
I love you despite everything



The first thing we did in kindergarden was get shown a picture of 1 apple and 2 oranges, then pick out which ones didnt belong.
The first thing we were taught was that being different is wrong.