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Ok so maybe marketing isnt that bad to study (:

But it's tough when you've got something on your heart that you can't shake off.

Waiting and waiting - This uncalled for anticipation.

I wish I could take what you said at face value, but I know I can't and it most probably isn't what I'm thinking too.

But what you said put such a smile on my face, and with a racing heart, it was hard to pretend like it's normal, that everything's cool.. to pretend like it didn't matter.

Phoo.. exhales.

Today God was good, God was faithful. Because He told me He loved me and why. (: And during worship in urbanlife, I was just recieving in abundance, it was amazing. It's awesome how when you break the walls, when you finally have that breakthrough, it's so easy to step into the presence of God and just soak everything in. It's just so, easy. :)

You are my God

The great I am

You are my God

The rock on which I stand

I had an amazing night last night (: Thank you Andrea Laksana for accompanying me before everything, lol the way you went "breathe doreen breathe... breathe in.. breathe out.." RLY WORKED MAN, or at least for awhile before i started screaming again. Thank you! Phoooooo. (:

You are special :)

I am happy, really happy (:

I'd be your buddy and your 30cents listener anytime. We'll share our very own piece of sky and we'll find Jane together every now and then. I'll buy you another MC just to see that glint of joy in your eyes and excitement in your voice.

I just wish I knew that these are all in the centre of Your will.

Supposed to do housework today but had an impromptu catch up with billy instead! Hahaha was talking to him on facebook and it just all happened!

Hahaha catch up was sooooo good. Srsly, I learnt so much stuff from him and something he said rly made me want to fight for more of God. And he's just a great friend to chill out with lah. We had dinner for 3 hours, then just sat in his car and talked for like 4hours. How good is that, just looking out his sunroof and naming stars and talking about everything meaningful and nonsensical.

I have learnt so much from his life which basically in itself was a huge testimony, and all im contending now for is "If all that can happen to someone, it can happen to me too."

There is no substitute for Your love.

OMGGG I WAS BROWSING SG WEBS TO LOOK FOR NICE RESTAURANTS FOR DINNERS IN SG AND I CAME ACROSS THIS!!!

ANDREA LAKSANA CATALINA PLS GO TO THIS WEBSITE!!!!

http://www.riosmelbourne.com/welcome.html

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I WANT TO TRY THAT AT LEAST ONCE THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!! IT LOOKS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AWESOMELY COOL. OMGGGG :D

Yes i know im a rly distracted study person. Kbye.

mmmm... oreo cookies with good ol english breakfast tea. (courtesy of miss yeo, from her hotel. HAHAHA) makes accounting much easier to study.

and as i study, i cant stop thinkin of what to wear to dinner on sat - because of various reasons. aiyoyo.

Hello.

I feel abit overwhelmed now, and I know it's abit too late. Got a test at 5pm. Haven't studied an inch of it yet. It's 12am now, am feeling sleepy from coming down from my sugar high from coke. (hahahah so much "from" in this sentence)

At least I've completed my marketing tutorial and it has just came out warm from the printer.

Oh noeeeezz, accounting :( haiyooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo :O

Today we celebrated eric's birthday in uni with a surprise!!!! :D Some couldn't make it cos they had tutorial, rushing assignments that were due in a few hours times and some were sick. So it was just aaron, sabrina, loretta, eric and I! haha i loved how everything worked out and he rly was rly surprised!

BUT.. the BIGGER surprise is coming on saturdaaaaaaaay!!! OMG I CANT WAIT :D

I can't wait for tomorrow evening to come and go so that i can embrace my FRIDAY NIGHHT :D

i wld love to hang around more to blog abt eric's surprise but i've got an acc test tmr and its.. UGHHHH. me donch like no accountin.

Maybe the bunch of us would be going for an indian dinner that aaron HIGHLY recommends tmr night aft the test!!! WOOHOO!! THEN, its sleepover at dearest dearest sweetest idiotest andrea's!!!! THEN, Saturday it's buy-new-phone-sign-new-plan day and IKEA with andrea&co, at night its eric's birthday dinner with the uni bunch!!! WOOHOO!!! I L-O-V-E WEEKENDS!!!!

oooh, now we're trying to convince eric to shift his plans tmr night to sat. so that we can go dinner tghtr. HAHHAHA HOPE THIS WORKS OUT. I rly want good indian food ):

For now, I must conquer accounting. Why oh why did i skip mkt tutorial last week, makes it so much more difficult a choice to make of whether to go tmr or not. :(

I'm looking at my flight itinerary (always dono how to spell lah) (yes they have finally emailed mine to me, nearly freaked out thinking that i would have to spend another thousand bucks buying air tix).. and..

I CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT WAIT TO GO BACK TO SINGAPORE! I just cannot cannot stop thinking about it!!! CANNOT STOP THINKING ABT GOING BACK TO SG. ARGHHHH OMGGGGGGGG I WANT TO GO BACKKKKKKKKKKKK. zhen de hen xiang hui qu lah.

I srsly need to stop watching ANTM. Stop getting myself suckedd into this trap cos I've got 8 chapters worth of accounting to study for. Ahhh. And must do mkt tut, double ahh.

Nigel Barker is rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly hot.

Seriously, now thinking back on it, was so dumb and naive last time. Believed every thing you said, thought it really was so special, untill I realise, you say the same thing to everyone.

copies tay yusheng's *facepalm*

Hahahaha.

I am feeling rly inspired to dye my hair. HAHAHA YES, its yet another phase of "i want to do smth to my hair" NO ANDREA, NO WORRIES, I AINT GONNA CUT IT, I WONT CUT IT ANYMORE OK? RELAX. You can put down the phone that you're picking up now to call me and scream "are you out of your mind!". Just that last night i was watching ANTM and they all looked soo pretty after their makeovers, makes me wanna do smth to my hair. Maybe extensions and dye it, but no $$$ lah.

OMG MY MOM JUST TOLD ME A RLY EXCITING NEWS LAST NIGHT, and im praying rly hard abt it.. hope everything goes well.. (:

i feel so sian-ed to start studying for my acc test lah. It's like study so much this week liao. Hais.

AWWWWWW SILAS JUST TOTALLY MADE MY DAY(night) :D

Cos last year I used to always pop by his place to study tghtr cos he stayed rather near me and he has a rly nice studying environment! But this year, since I moved to Clayton and him to South Yarra, I've only been to his place to study once. And his new house is soo awesome, I LOVE IT!! All the rooms are soo nice and have their own toilets!!! And Silas's room was double condusive to study!! Plus, he pulled out a table and a chair specially for me!! And we were both like "hahaha you see, God planned for me to come here and study!! got extra chair and table some more!!! AHHAHAHA" so funny lah.

And just now he tagged me a photo on facebook and I went to check cos I thought it was the pictures we took on Saturday. BUT NOOO GUESS WHAAT.

He took a picture of the table and the chair with a label on the table that said "RESERVE"! SO SWEEEET OMGGGGG :D Thank God for such a great friend! Last night when I was doing my essay, he suddenly texted me and totally cheered me up at night! Which allowed me to hang in there till 5am. HAHA. SO AWESOME :D

Hahaha it's always of such coincidence btwn Silas and I. Last year in urbalife, he and I were the only ones staying along lygon street, just that he was on the extreme end of the street and im on the extreme start of the street. So we always took the tram home together and that's how I got to know him better. Then this year! I moved to Clayton and him to South Yarra, although we're rather far away, BUT, we're still on the SAME train line! So we could still go home together after every church course, or church or urbanlife! HAHAHA!!! Such a coincidence right!!!! Always able to go home with him! Always moving to the "same place" HAHAHAHA! He is just amazing lah. :))))

Kk goodnight people.

I am feeling such satisfaction looking at my printer spitting out 12 sheets of paper. WOOHOO.

And I just filled up my details on the assignment coversheet.

And I just signed on the coversheet.

PRAISEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THE LORD :D

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!! AS OF 9.57PM ON THE 6TH OF MAY, I HAVE OFFICIALLY WRITTEN A 3309 WORDS ESSAY THAT IS ELEVEN PAGES LONG. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH OMGGG I CAN SLEEP TONIGHHHHHHHHT!!!!! NO MIDNIGHT OILLLLLLLLLLLL!!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGG :DDDDD SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!

YES YES YES YES YES!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

But I won't ever procrastinate till so last minute anymore man, omg, there are so many refinements that I could and should be doing, but I am not cos I am just knackered out by management. If I had one more day, I'd rly sit down and edit my essay. BUT.. Aiya ok lah, if after I take my break I feel like editing I'll edit.

BUT ANW, NO MORE WORRIES! I HAVE AN ESSAY TO HAND IN TMRRR!!! WOOHOO HALLELUJAH PRAISE THE LORDDDDD!!! :D

I just can't believe (that i get to sleep tonight) and that i exceeded the given word limit!!! OMGGGGGGGG. It's a shockerrrr. Last year I struggled to even write 1500 words but now I'm writing a 3000 words essay! WOOHOO!!!! But no, this doesnt mean I no longer appreciate and long for 1000 words essay ok. This is the first time I exceeded the word limit of an essay since I left secondary school. HAHAHAHHAHHAHHAHA. SO PROUD OFMYSELF.

But no worries, they +/- 10% of the word count so techinically, I only go over by 9 words. HAHAHAHA. Cos 3300 is the maxxxx.

WOOHOO IM EUPHORIC. IM GOING TO EAT DINNER AND WATCH YOUTUBE NOWWW. HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA PRAISE THE LORDDDDD :D

Thank youu andrea for your constant msgs and phone calls to ask me how im doing and helping me answer my questions regarding the essay. THANK YOU! :D PS. I am going to treat myself to the ice cream you bought for me! :DDD HEHEHHEHEHE.

And thank you bling!!! Your advice for me to stop focusing on the word count really hit home! Thank youuuu sooo much love!!! HUGS!!

Praise the Lord for keeping me calm. Seriously, this is the firrssst time i ever done such a last minute assignment. Usually I finish it at least 3 days before. And usually I would get soo stressed out I just KEEP STRESSING OUT. (hahaha if that makes sense) but through lots and lots of prayer and PS band playing out of my lappie, God saw me through this assignment. Omg :DDDDDD thank youuu!!!

I am going to chill out and relax and bum around now because I won't have this luxury anymore tomorrow :( NEED TO STUDY FOR ACC. WLAU EH.

This week is full on studying plus mugging man. No time for facebook, youtube (NO MORE ANTM OR PROJECT RUNWAY) etcccc omg. NO MORE INTERNET ENTERTAINMENT AND CONNECTING WITH THE WORLD UNLESS FOR RESEARCH PURPOSES. blah.

It's only till next tuesday. I can do zees.

** OMG. I JUST SAT THROUGH A 2 HOUR ECONS LECTURE AGAIN. Hahaha cos i listened to my recorded lecture online. Cos i cldn't understand the lecturer at all last week and this week is my test. Haha gotta say im rly impressed at the effects of re listening to a lecture, esp one where you can pause and write down notes and then continue listening, rly helps me understand better. BUT, despite the fact that i was comfortabley seated on my bed, i started to become restless at the last 20mins. Hahahaha. Guess this doesnt change no matter where you are. HAHA.

This week is going to be a crazzzzzzzzzy week with an econs test on tuesday, assignment due on wednesday and accounting mid sem on fridaay!!

And these are the only two things that are keeping me sane and not go crazy.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
If God is for me, nothing can be against me.

Kbye.

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am literally pulling my hair now.

OMGGGGGGGGGGG THIS IS SUCH A BAD TIME FOR MY LAPTOP TO DECIDE TO CRANK UP ON MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. :<

"There's only 1 thing 2 do
3 words 4 you
(I love you)
I love you

There's only 1 way 2 say
those 3 words to you
I love you
I love you
I love you"

Aww so cute. The song's title's "1 2 3 4" by Plain White Tees! I think the lyrics are soo adorable pls. Hahaha! And I think the full lyrics to this song is so simple, so back to basics.

Sweet.

You know how it feels like when someone writes you a really long letter and you just know it's from the bottom of their heart? You know how it feels like reading a letter that is so filled with love and appreciation? You know how it feels like to actually see some of your best friend's thoughts about this friendship and about you in words? You know how it feels like to have some of the most assuring words from your best friend? You know how it feels like to have felt abit down at the start, but after reading the letter you just get so cheered up and happy and "yay-ish"?

I just did. :)

My Andrea XL B., you've done me a great favour this time, going all out to help me both emotionally and academically. The extents you go to for me, always seem to be without boundaries. Everytime you do something for me, you leave me in awe of your love that you outpour to every friend. And I am so blessed to be one of them. :)

*updates* ooooh i found this radio toolbar online and i can now access radio stations in the US and UK! How awesomee :D And i know this sounds really weird but, I found a really comfortable position to study :D Like literally a physical position. HAHA.

Omg only 2h to sleep.

Omg :D I just had my best surprise this year!!!

So if you read the last line of my last post, the "deliveryman" is andrea and davin!!! Ok Andrea to be exact because she appeared in front of my door with pizza on her hands but because she was wearing a hoodie so I couldn't see her face so I just went "Oh sorry thanks" and I was about to turn away and leave she suddenly shouted "WALAU DOREEN NEO!!!" HAHAHHAHHA cos i didn't recognise her!!! Omg all i was thinking was "why isit a chinese girl? (cos usually it's be an indian or aussie guy) and i was thinking "why they send a girl out on delivery so late!" and "i thought andrea say she order pizza hut? how come become curly joe's?" But all i know was i better quickly take and go before the person ask me to pay. HAHAHHAHA.

The whole surprise is so amazing I can't even put it down properly in words! How every thing was soo well planned out and how I just fell into every trick on the way. ASK ME ASK ME WHAT HAPPENED AND I WILL TELL YOU. HAHAHHAHAA! :D :D Omg, I can't believe I acty believe her when she said pizza hut can deliver 2 pizzas to 2 different locations, with only 1 payer. OMG, wait acty I can believe. BUT WHY I GO AND BELIEVE HER AH OMG.

Omg it was such a good surprise!! She had it all planned out soo perfectly!! Right from the start when she called me and lie to me that Davin went clubbing and she feel like eating pizza! AHHH OMGGGG.

They are so so sweet (: I cried when I knew it was her lah omgggg (: They came all the way to clayton AND brought me so much food AND was just here to cheer me up and ask me how i am. I AM SO BLESSED :)))))))) And I had so much fun talking to them and eating with them and just, omg i miss themm!!! You two are the best support team I have here, I wouldn't have been able to do and achieve lots of things now without you two.

I am starting to tear now. HAHA aiyoo. But really like omg, thank God for all these amaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazing friends who have stood by me and helped me through such rough days, perhaps one of my most emotionally draining and taxing phases so far. I love you all so much, so so so much. You are all angels from God to come pick me up. I feel so blessed to have gone to mayflower, to have met such an amazing bunch of girls who have continuously supported me, cheered me up and on. I love you all very very very muchh (:

I am not at my breaking point yet, because of you all. (:

PS. Andrea, you have done so much for me (since last year) and I know it all from the bottom of my <3.
Debbie, I see you in part of this surprise too. (: Thank you for expressing such tangible love even when you're so far away. :)

Ah omgg, I booked with qantas a few days ago but I have yet to receive my e-ticket in my inbox!! So stressful. O.O BECAUSE I PAID ALRRRRRR AND I FORGOT MY BOOKING REFERENCE. I thought they will email me so I didn't write it down :(

And I'm thinking if I should push my flight back home to sg earlier. Even if only by a a day or two. I was just thinking that alot of my friends here would have finished their exams pretty early and would most be flying back, so I don't rlllly see a point in staying here till the 28th also. How ah. Do I need to pay to change my flight date? Aside from the additional top up of the fare. Hmm.

ANDREA ORDERED PIZZA FOR ME HAHAHHAHA SO FUNNY. Cos she wants to eat pizza but I think they have a 1-for-1 offer or smth, and they say they can deliver to 2 places so she's having pizza delivered to me at this moment. HAHAHAHA.

Bling and debbie: hehehhe i chose such olddd pictures cos i felt rly warm and fuzzy inside when i was reviewing those good OLD pictures. HEHEHE :D

Hello dear friends!

Aiyo, today I woke up much later than I wanted to BUT srsly, I was in such a good mood when I woke up! This is what went through my head

"It's ok! Today is a new day and if I really sit down and focus on my research, I would still have time!" Hahaha very positive thinking I know, thankyouverymuch (: Yay bling thank youuu, you really made this assignment less taxing by teaching me to focus more on the question rather than the big 3000. Ah thank you, really has made things much simpler! Am really motivated to start researching now! I really can't stop emphasizing how breezy I feel now, the light-heartedness and all! Omgg :D :D :D



So today, I went to Clayton town to get grocceries and I'm making soup now again! Hurhurhur thank God for online recipes :) Am gonna go steak and grill chicken. Woohoo. And I bought alot of rubbish at the asian grocer, like srsly rubbish, junk food.



You know the Khong Guan brand sultana biscuits right, my mom lovesss that. She only has this and the lemon puffs one in her bedroom. STOCK UP ok. So when I saw it, I just haddd to buy it even though it's not one of my favv, reminds me of her ^^ But I bought the Khong Guan gem buiscuits! you know how when you were young, those small round buiscuits with coloured sugar on them!!! :D :D I used to buy them opposite MF. HAHA!

Omg, at officeworks I saw this!!!

And I really wanted to get it!!!! But it's like 80bucks or smth!! So I was considering really hard!! But look at the model below!!

So comfy and shiok lah please!! :( I waaaant :( (Laptop sold seperately) HAHHAHA. Yah sorry joke. Anw, yesss I want :( But I alr bought from IKEA a mini table that you can put on your bed to use your laptop. But it's a little too high so.... I don't know if I should..... HEHEHHE.

Oh, I forgot I'm broke from the shoewear spree. Blah.

Ps. Oh last night Aaron, Felicia and I went to shop for Eric's birthday present at Country Road @ Chadstone and WE ARE RLY HAPPY AT OUR GIFTS AND WE CANNOT WAIT TO SURPRISE HIM TO THE MAXX :D

Thank God. :)

Thank God I've got all these 2 angels with me tonight, guiding me through and talking to me.

Thank God He answers every prayer and catches every tear

Thank you dearest (: Your advice on how I should tackle my assignment really lifted this huge load off me. I really can't thank you enough!! And am I glad we had that conversation! Hehe, soo happy that nothing has changed in this period of time, thankful that you will still ask me for help, THANK YOU! Hehe I really had lotsa fun in that conversation, thank you for bringing back the smiles! :D And thank you for that very assuring "If you don't start, we'll stop. But if you start, we'll never stop!" I miss you heapssssss and.. i love you for WHO YOU ARE! ;)




My dear debbie! Who never fails to always be there when I'm upset :D Hehehe thank you for cheering me up and cheering me on! You were just so funny in your encouragements that it was so hard to not laugh! HAHAHA! I loveeeeee you best friend and I can't waaaait to go on a buffet hunt with you when I'm in Singapore!!! I miss you so much!!! And I know you are angry that I chose such a picture for your picture above, but that's one of the nicer ones I have of you alone!! HAHAHHA!! Hehehe rmbr what I said ok, you are family. (:

And thank youu dear Lord for answering my prayers! Haha this is so amazing, how it's these 2 special people who have talked me out of my emo phase. One whom I haven't spoken to properly for awhile but have missed badly and thought of running to and one has always been here for me and knows me so well. You two are angels (:

Tomorrow will be a new start! :D Yes, I'm still homesick but I'm looking forward to flying home in a much more positive way now! HAHA. Loveee <3