HI I'M AT DAVIN'S HOUSE NOW :D

Sleptover at his place with andrea to mug for math. hahahaha! ok not rly cos i only did like 6 questions in like 8 hours. omggg hahahha! We played dai di, talked about stuff but my math was acty quite productive cos i think if i did it at home i wouldnt even have been able to do 1 qstn. PHEWW. :D hahhaha much laughs towards our not-so-smooth execution of plan to con Mr. Nice Guy Joseph of $200. HAHAHHA!

OHHH THEN ANDREA LAST NIGHT KEEP KAJIAOING ME IN BED. (hahahha that sounds so wrong) then this morning was damnnn funny, cos we were supposed to go church together so need to wake up at 9.15 right.. then she told me that at 10.30 she called my name like 20 times then i woke up and when i finally woke up all i did was say "oh. ok" and i fell back to sleep. and she was rly exasperated cos the time she took to wake me up was so much more than i took to reply her. hahahah! so in the end we missed the morning service so im going to the second service later.

hahaha last night was fun :D we slept at like 5am.

oh pizza come liao. BYE!

I slept at 6am last night. 10-12 finding suitable songs for my drama, 12-3am chatting online, 3am-6am do accounting essay draft. 5.30am then i email the draft to my tutor lololol. And I woke up at 8.15am. wahahha so proud of myself, so long never wake up earlier than my housemate liao hahaha! But the whole day feel damn dead lah, damn sleepy. Now it's 4.15pm and im gonnaa go catch a nap. I feel like my brain is bursting out of place alr. Zomgg.

I'm gonna try steam egg with mushroom for dinner tonight! :D

So I'm gonna go sleep now, then cook and eat then try starting on my math tutorial. But I don't really believe myself cos there's two and a half man at 7pm and Shrek at 7.30pm and What Women Want at 9.30pm. Ok maybe I'll skip Shrek since I watch it like 5times alr. But then again, i just uploaded my "fated to love you ep 24" hahaha! i think its the last episode alr! :(

I feel that Spring is here already! Cos usually in winter when the wind blows its very chilly and cold and it's like "omggg stop blowing pleaseeee" but today i only wore stockings, dress and a three quarter sleeve thin cardigan and felt so comfortable. :D (except that my heels were killing me) the weather's so good albeit the sun being a tad to striking but ooooh, i love the weather now! :D the wind's so nice, not too cold not too warm and don need to wear untill like ba zhang also. :D

Yay spring!

Don't you feel like this term is flying pass you? Is it just me feeling this way? But it feels as if like I just came back from Singapore only, feels as if the first week of school isn't thaat far away, but look, it's week 7/8 now. In 2 weeks time I'm having my exams. Yet another premonition of ill foreboding. Time seem to fly this term, yet it was so agonizingly slow last term. There seem to be so much to do so little time this term and everything seem to be so rushed, it's scary. Time flies without you knowing, people change without you knowing, winter goes and spring comes without you knowing, relationships change without you knowing, you fall in love without you knowing..

Isn't it scary? I don't deny the multiple times that the thought of "if you let me do this one more time.." but it's impossible and I'm trying to make the best out of now. So much uncertainty in front of me next year, new schooling enviroment, new friends, new learning methods, it's quite scary. Next year, university, woah. Doesn't time fly. I'll be going to university next year, I'll be a freshman, I'll be rushing assignments, I'll be stressing out for exams, I'll be thinking what to major in for my degree, I'll be stressing about future job prospects, I'll be a.. university student. So fast, too fast. Slow down time, slow down. Slow down for me to catch my breath, slow down for me to savour what's left, slow down for things to start falling into place.

I was talking to a friend earlier on, and realised how much he has changed and it surprises me cos the change is so drastic that I think he has always been like this but just that I never knew. It shocks me, both in a good and bad way.

I wonder if I'll survive not going back this September.
Well, I must and I will.

What if.. You and I, became Us.

Today was the first time I admitted you to someone. So surreal that even I didn't believe it. I don't know what's happening anymore, I just hope I knew. What's the reason for the things I'm doing? What's the reason for these thoughts in my head?

But it's not like anything's gonna happen too. Must be the late hour thats going my brain some damage. Sigh.

Haven't been expectant of a text for the longest time ever.

ok. it's 9.11pm. I'm gonna embark on my accounting essay draft so that I can email to my tutor by friday 12am. Hopefully I'll finish it by tonight cos I rly need to start catching up on my math tutorials by 17 sept. COS SEVENTEEN SEPT IS THE BLOODY EXAM ALR. goshh. and i've only done 1 tutorial so far since school started. hahaha good job, doreen.

and i got drama full dress rehearsal tmr and i havent memorise my lines yet omgg. and my role is a lawyer so i got to wear till damn formal and YET, tmr i got an excursion and im gonna look so odd, wear untill like that go art gallery. -.-

i just had my first cup of coffee. dono how many more cups it will take to get me through the night. pffts. but actually i'm quite excited to do the essay cos it's quite interesting. i still remember last night i let javin see my question, and he was like..

"huh? you need to write 1000 words on this? I 3 sentences can finish alr."

OMGZZZ o.O

ok bye folks, accounting essaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

Woohoo, went vic mkt with joseph, andrea and davin today! hahaha first time at Queen Victoria Market to shop for food sia! Omg I swear I'm never going back to Safeway to buy anyyyy of my grocceries anymore (except chicken which is cheaper and all those sauces and stuff) EVERYTHING IS SO CHEAP AT VIC MKT!

I bought..

1 kg of diced beef - about $6
1kg of mince pork - about $5
300g of fish - about $12
some lady finger
some chilli
6 kiwis - $2
mushrooms
this humungous 3kg chinese cabbage
3 green capsicum
4 bak choy
2 boxes of strawberries

and i only spent like $45!

Sooo happy ok! I even managed to buy something using ONLY 50c! WOAHHHHH. :D:D:D okok i know i damn auntie but omggg, budget lah ok. plus everything all so fresh and nice. Wooo! hahahha then cos we bought from this stall right, then we walk to the next stall, then i bought something, then walk to the next stall again then i saw this bunch of garlic for 1dollar only then i was like "omg omg omg!" then joseph was like "wah doreen, you go every stall must buy something isit!" hahaha wlau, make me so paiseh, in the end i never buy lo. :(

we had A1 for dinner tonight. I had congee! OMG I BELIEVE THIS IS THE FIRST RESTAURANT EVER IN MELBOURNE THAT I STEPPED INTO THAT HAS CONGEE ON ITS MENU!!!! (ok shit im damn distracted by my hk serial, i think im gonna watch tonight. shit shit shit) but im sooo tired.

ohhhhh tonight we went to max brenners for dessert, (ok sorry i skip so far, im damn tired alr) and everyone was on a chocolate high too. hahahaa we sit down there and play dai di from like 9.30 - 11.45pm! HAHAHHA. ok lah maybe we started at 10.15 BUT STILL. we 4 are super addicted to the game you know!!!! you know there was this game, I COULD HAVE WON, but cos somehow something in me thought i sure lose one, and i was collaborating with andrea to win so i never pay attention to my card, and only at the end when someone won, I REALISED HOW STUPID I WAS TO PUT ONE CARD INSTEAD OF THE OTHER. ROARRRRRR. and i was like shouting "omg omg omg i could have won! what am i doing!" hahahhaha. then everyone who were sitting beside us kept looking at us play ahhaha! i think we are the only people who went to max brenners to play dai di lah! HAAHHAHA!

today i had drama rehearsal as well with my grp members and my teacher. omggg i suddenly got so many new lines and a whole new scene of monologue. omggg howzzz. I scared i cannot rmbr sia.

tdy actually got alot of funny things that happened but my brain's not working properly. i think im gonna go crash now.

MUCH LOVE FOR ANDREA FOR WAS "ANGRY" AT THE WAITRESS, DAVIN WHO BLUFF ME THAT SALT ON HOT DOG PUT IN MICROWAVE WILL KILL ME AND JOSEPH WHO IS 5 MONTHS PREGNANT AND WHOME I ALWAYS THREATEN TO HELP ABORT! :D

loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

WHOO LAST NIGHT DAMN FUN!

Went out with joseph, andrea and davin for dinner + movie. Wah we order like DAMN ALOT lah k. HAHAHHA! we went to try this new chinese restaurant at swanston street and we were all damn excited about it! So you know what we ordered? 2x6 xiao long bao, 15 dumplings and andrea and davin shared one redbean pancake while joseph and i shared one. Then we each ordered a main ourselves. HAHAHHA ZOMGG RIGHT.

Then while ordering, joseph was asking if im ordering entree or main, then im like "main lah of course!" then he was like "huh what if main too big" then i was like "huh then what if entree too small" HAHHAHAA! but once my dish came ah, i was like "wah shit, shd have ordered entree hahaha! THEN ANDREA LAKSA AH, she ah order this fried rice, CANNOT FINISH, KEEP SHOVING INTO MY FACEEE!!!! LIKE LITERALLY INTO.MY.FACE. she keep forcefeeding me alr ok!!! WLAU THEN MY DISH ALR SO BIG LIAO LOR. SHE DAMN TORTURE LAH.

andrea: eh what happen to your determination to go gym.
me: hmm, im sure if i find my motivation to embark on my first, i'd surely be able to continue on. :)
andrea: eh lets go gym together lah do!
me: *ponders* huh.............. ok lorrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........... *sulks*
andrea (DAMN ANGRY): WAH! ASK YOU GO GYM TOGETHER LIKE ASKING YOU GO DIE LIKE THAT!

HAHAHHAHA THEN SHE WENT AROUND TELLING BOTH JOSEPH AND DAVIN WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED IN EXACT SAME WORDS. and hello, our table not that big lor. WLAU SHE AH. HAHAHAHHAHA.

then after that..

andrea: eh want to go die with me not do?
me (want to make her angry): YAH! SURE! :D :D :D

HAHAHHAHAHA YOU SHD HAVE SEEN HER FACE MAN. HAHAHHA LAUGH LIKE MAD.

yah then all of us eat untill damn full lahhh. then joseph's main wait for 30mins stil haven come even though everyone's come liao. hahaha! Then cos we ordered 2 trays of 6 xiao long baos right, then the first tray came, second tray didnt come. So we decided to cancel the 2nd one since we all so damn full alr plus it took so long. So we cancelled.

Then one minute later, the xiao long bao came. Then we were like "huh? we cancel alr." then she took back. Then 10 seconds later,the manager came and say she giving us for free and sorry for the wait. then i was like "huh not we dont want, is we cannot eat alr!! give us free also no use...." hahaha wth.

Oh oh! Then when the first tray of xiao long bao came, everyone took theirs except for joseph. Then we were like "huh joseph? why you dont want to take?" then he was like "huh dont want lah dont want lah." then we all damn surprised lah like '"why?! we also order for you one leh!!" then he was like "HUH! you all also never ask me! you all damn good lah! doreen say want to share with andrea. then andrea sure share with davin, then you all just automatically count me in also lah! never ask me also!" HAHAHHAHAA. and he only ate after we said no to his question of "if i never eat you all can finish?" then we all gave a unanimous "NOOOOOOOOOO!" haahahha!

hahahah then joseph's chilli chicken like damn spicy lah! He eat untill sweating, nose red, runny nose. ahhahah! his whole plate so full of dried chilli that even after he eat finish, davin say "wah joseph eat finish alr, the plate still like untouched like that." hahaha! then when he first ate i see him like that i was like "joseph, i order red bean ice for you lah." and i was joking ok, like sacarstically. then he was like "YAH FASTER FASTER! ORDER FOR ME!" ahhahahahaha!

so funny lah! then 4 of us ate like $90! HAHHAHAHHA! which i think is ok as we ordered soooo much food k. hahaha! yah and let me re-emphasis my point of how andrea keep shoving food into my face k. HMPF. like literallllyyyyy.

TSK.

then we watch baby mama! hahahaha got some rly funny parts! but a little disappointing cos don't really have a climax. then we met rena, siewling and cheryl outside and they say taken was dammmmmmn good! like RLY RLY RLY GOOD! and acc to siewling it was like "so good untill you won't go check your watch kind." then rena was like "YOU MUST GO WATCH. It's fantastic!" hahahaha! All of them were so in awe of the show. Jeffrey ah, dono where he get his information that the show damn lame k. tsk!

then stupid andrea go and hide my popcorn under the chair. cos since tuesday i keep having this popcorn urge, so even though i was damn full i stil went to buy and stopped like after 3 mouths. hahaha so i wanted to bring home lah of course. then aft the movie ended andrea went to hide my popcorn wlau! then i was walking down the steps then i was like "eh? where's my popcorn?" then i went back and saw it hidden RIGHT UNDER my seat. then i was like "ANDREAAAAA!" then she laughing like mad ok. then i was like "eh when are you ever going to tell me if i never found out?!" then she was like "only when we're out of the theatre." WTH!!

okok im at andrea's place now. now we're gg vic mkt to shop for 1Kg $5 mince meat! HAHAHAHA! CHEAP DEALS HERE I COME! :D okok everyone damn hungry alr, must go now. byeeee!!!

OMG THESE TWO DAYS HAVE BEEN ONE OF MY BESTEST DAYS HERE! :D Comparable to my first 2 weeks here! :D OMG SO LONG NEVER LAUGH SO HARD FOR SO LONG ALR!!

So last night right, davin, joseph, andrea and i went out for dinner to make up for her birthday dinner on monday that i wasnt able to attend. OMG THE WHOLE NIGHT WAS LIKE 20/10!!! :D

We went to this steak place at Goldie Pl. Then the restaurant is at an alley right, then joseph was like "why like this one, you sure or not!" HAHAHHA OMG BUT THE FOOD WAS SOOOO GOOD! The rib eye steak that I had was OOOOOOHHHHHHH, so worth the $36! BUT RIGHT, i feel so cheated ok. I told the waitress I wanted a rib eye steak, then she ask me what sauce I want, so I said mushroom. Then when the steak came with the sauce right, then I tried it, wah damn shiok ok, the sauce like even thicker than the cream of mushroom soup! WAH I EAT UNTILL DAMN HAPPY OK. So I was like "OMG OMG SO NICE!" then davin was like "yah of course nice like $4.50 leh." AND IM LIKE WTH?! O.O then he said "yah what, the menu the sauces all got write the price of the sauces one mah." BUT LIKE YAH, I RMBR SAUCES ARE $4.50 EACH BUT I THOUGHT THAT WAS ONLY IF I WANTED EXTRA SAUCE WHAT. I THOUGHT IT WAS QUITE REASONABLE THAT ONLY EXTRA SAUCE MUST PAY WHAT. PLUS RIGHT, WHEN SHE ASKED US WHAT SAUCES WE WANTED SHE NEVER SAY MUST PAY EXTRA WHAT, SHE JUST ASK LIKE THAT LIKE ITS THE MOST NORMAL THING!! WLAUUUU :( I FEEL SO CHEATED OK. then after davin told me that, my mushroom sauce suddenly didn't seem so nice anymore. PFFTS. :/

wah then joseph's chicken breast ALSO DAMN SHIOK. totally don't feel like chicken breast at all!! IT WAS SOO TENDER AND JUICY AND SWEET! Even nicer than drumstick! (and hey, i like my drumsticks k) SOO SHIOK K.

then we decided to go san churros at lygon for desert. but joseph and i were quite stuffed so we shared one churros and one ice chocolate.

OH OH BEFORE THAT, as we made our way to lygon, joseph was like "wah that place damn nice, but can come in a very very long time cos damnn ex lah." then i was like "yah, maybe like.." THEN WE SIMULTANEOUSLY SAID "next month" and "30 years later" TOGETHERRR. HAHAHHAHA! Of course I was the one who said next month hello. hahahhaha then we laughed like MAD when we heard it cos we said such contrasting numbers at the same time and thats our own definition of "very very long time" HAHAHHAHAH IT WAS DAMN FUNNY LAH! :D

OMG I SWEAR THE CHOCS AT SAN CHURROS MAKE EVERYONE HIGH K. I SWEAR WE ALL ROAARRRRED IN LAUGHTER IN SAN CHURROS!

It has been sooooooo long since I laughed so hard for so long and so sincerely and so LOUDLY. (ok maybe not the loudly part, im always that loud) but i really felt so so so so happy (even though they kept kajiaoing me and joseph and making fun of me) but it really felt sooo good to be with them. And I never see andrea laugh like that for so long already. I never see her laugh so hard for so long already, its just so good. Even though everyone was under stress of our HOI essays, but in that time span when we were at san churros, it really felt like as if we're back in the time when i just arrived in melbourne, so carefree, so relaxed. Even Davin, whom I seldom see laugh so heartily, had his share of good laughs. And of course Joseph, HAHAHHAHA :D The laughing was soo bad that I spat out the water that I was drinking back into the cup hahahaha. OMG EVERYTHING WAS JUST SOO FUNNY. Must be the chocs in Churros :)

Hahahha the funniest part was when I wanted to take water lah omg hahahahha! But i dono how to describe cos only when you're there then its damn funny. hahahhahaha! okok lemme try,

so the jug and caps were just at the counter like 2m away from us right, so i assumed that we could take our own water. And from all the laughing ah, it made me so thirsty. So I walked to the cups there but was abit unsure myself if we were actually really allowed to take from the jug ourselves. Then as I walked there, andrea suddenly "DO!" wlau scare me, then i turn back at her damn shocked and scared like kena caught in the act like that, then they all started laughing so i know they were tricking me lah. wlau damn pek chek ok. then when i reach the jug alr right, my hand going to touch the jug alr right, andrea suddenly "DO! DONT DONT DONT! LATER THEY WILL ANGRY ONE!" and she was so serious you know, like really for my own benefit like that, wlau then i quickly run back to my seat lah. THEN THEY ALL BURST OUT LAUGHING! idiot righhht. so then we all laugh and laugh and laugh untill i damn thirsty untill buay tahan, so i asked the waitress if we could have some water, then you know what she say?! "oh you guys could actually take for yourselves there." OMG HAHAHAHHAHA THEN WE ALLLLL BURST OUT LAUGHING AGAIN!!! hahahhahaha! Oh then there was me doing a mini dance on the way back with two glasses of water in my hand. hahahha wth.

THEN COS I DAMN ANGRY WITH ANDREA RIGHT, so i REFUSED to take water for her. then cos my bag zip is always unzipped one right (and andrea always scold me abt it) then so in revenge, she pulled out my mp3 out of the compartment RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME, so i was like "wlau andrea, i can see lah." then she was like "YAH THATS THE WHOLE POINT". hahahhaha wth. aiyah its just damn funny lah, then she HAD TO go ard telling the whole world how dumb i was in saying that. TSK.

hahahahha teh whole night was just damn hilarious lah. soo many times ah i laugh untill i need to literally lie on joseph to support myself. i think we were damn noisy lah. wlau i dono how long i never laugh like that alr lah!!! OMGGGG :D

oh oh then we went koko black to see see right. then andrea and davin decided to buy one chocolate. like literally ONE SQUARE of chocolate. so we were standing at the counter then they were going to buy alr, then joseph told davin "eh you buy one only ah, damn paiseh leh" then joseph turned to face me, then IMMEDIATELY, we heard davin saying "eh honey, buy more lei." HAHAHHAHAHA. SO FUNNY LAH OMG DAVIN HAHAHAHA. joseph and i cannot stop laughing.

then we went back to davin's house to play chor dai di. Omg i swear ah, all the above was sugar rush, cos by the time we reach davin's house, everyone suddenly damn down and tired alr. I cannot even concentrate on my cards, everyone damn seigh alr lah hahahah omg! then right, when i want to leave, I CANNOT FIND MY SHOES!

YOU KNOW WHY, COS ANDREA LAKSANA WENT TO HIDE THEM!

IDIOT LAH SHE SO LAME.

and in the end you know how she finally conceded in revealing her bloody idiotic hiding place?! I had to threaten her that if in 5 seconds she don't reveal, im just gonna go crash and burn on her bed and just sleep through the night. HAHAHAH THAT RLY SCARED HER. cos its not like it never happened before hahahah! last time got one time i was quite tired alr, then andrea made me "angry", so i went to her room to "cry", then i lie on her bed, WAH THEN IN 1 MIN I FELL ASLEEP. hahahah! they say when they went in, i was like dead log alr. hahahaha! i think since then, they traumatised alr hahahah!

AND YOU KNOW WHERE SHE HIDE MY STUPID SHOE?! BEHIND THE SOFA. and there was only this TEENSY gap between the sofa and the wall lor wlau eh she ah. i was so exasperated by then that before i left i shouted at her "eh you got steal any more thing from me or not?!" then she was like "is that what you ask people right before you leave?!" hahahhaha ok damn funny. then she added "plus right, you shd check already then ask what. where got people ask first one?!" hahhaaa omgzz.

so that was night 1. night 2 was tonight.

I went over to davin's house again for dinner after my drama rehearsal because andrea is now my personal dentist. hahaah! i've got this problematic bracket of my braces that i think the glue come out already, so now from time to time it will slip out of position and give me much discomfort and i can't fix it myself. but it seems like only andrea knows how to push the bracket into position so now ah, she's like my personal dentist hahahaha!

TONIGHT ALSO DAMN FUNNY LAH OMGG :D the punchline of tonight was..

joseph: andrea do you want to see my BRILLIANT hoi essay?
andrea: huh...

ok like that maybe not so funny, but when i heard andrea say huh i really BURST OUT LAUGHING. its just so funny lah, i dono why also ahhahahah! then got alot of small little funny things also lah, omg laugh so much!!! :D

oh then i read this touching story on joseph's mac. OMG SO SAD. my tears flowing non stop by the first few paragraphs alr lah!!! but i dare not like breathe in (or suck in my mucus if you like) cos like that joseph sure know i crying mah, and i dont want him to know also. but ah, the story keep getting even more sad, then cannot alr, so i breathe in (or suck in my mucus if you life) and IMMEDIATELY AS I DID THAT..

joseph: doreen you crying ah!

NOW YOU UNDERSAND WHY I DON DARE TO BREATHE IN. damn anticlimax lah he. and then there was the durian talk, and the indonesian dollar talk hahaha so funny!

omg i love the 3 of them maxx. :)

OH THEN THEN, as joseph was printing his hoi essay on davin's printer right, he ask us "eh the essay format got what requirements ah?" then i was like "oh must be font size 12 or 14 and times new roman.." then he SCREAMED "TIMES NEW ROMAN?! DAVINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!! STOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!" then andrea quickly say "no no calibri also can. same same one!" then joseph scream AGAIN "OKOK CONTINUE CONTINUE!" hahahahhaa he was damn dramatic lah! hahahha! i think already also want to laugh ahhaha!

AND TODAY I WON MY FIRST GAME OF CHOR DAI DI!!! HAHAHHAHHA COS THE GAME ONLY JOSEPH AND I PLAYING HAHAHAHHAHA! :D but still, joseph is damn pro at the game ok... :D

oh and andrea's liang cha very nice! HAHAHAHA :D

omg i love every moment of the 4 of us being together :)
What would I do without them when I first came to Melbourne? No one to go Big W with me to buy home stuff, no one to go safeway with me to buy food, no one to cook dinner for me and help me settle down, no one to teach me how to use the trams, no one to just be there with me and assure me that im not alone. Hell, I think I'd be calling home everyday crying and wailing, demanding to go home. Thank you the 3 of you, always sticking by me. :)

Yay to andrea the stealer, joseph my guai er zi and davin the punch-liner :D

I'm lovin this,
Thank you Lord! :D

I WENT TO WATCH PINEAPPLE EXPRESS TODAY HAHAHA! IT WAS DAMN IMPROMPTU! :D But first, lemme tell you how awesome urbanlife was ystd!

So Sunday night right, I had this gut feeling in me that something is gonna happen in urbanlife, like this whole excitement in me. And it got me really expectant about it. So on Sunday night before I slept I kept praying about it, like pray that He'll speak to me through whoever's leading worship and I prayed really hard. I told God that it has been too long that I last heard from Him in urbanlife and like I literally told God "GOD ITS ABOUT TIME ITS MY TURN AGAIN!!!" So yeah hahaha :P i know, not the most polite way, but yeah, I was quite desperate for a word already.

And you know what, I set my alarm clock at 10am cos I got class at 1.45pm and I wanted to wake up to shower and do my tut work right, then you know what!!! I snooze my alarm untill the next time I woke up it was 2pm already lah ok!!! TWO BLIMEY PM! My eyes nearly popped out when I saw my alarm clock man! Srsly lah, cannot sleep with the blinds down next time! Feel like the sun's not out yet! OMG. Smmre you know what, monday was the first day my lit tutor came back cos the first 5 weeks I had another tutor cos dono where she go also lah. OMG SHIT LAH! First day she come back, i miss class! OMGG.

SO ANW, thats not my point.

So I woke up after lazing around abit more, watch my fated to love you (WOOHOO DAMN NICE! GOING TO DA JIE JU SOON ALR HAHAHAHHA!) then went to shower. And in the shower all the way I was like "please God.. please please please.. Speak to me in urbanlife today please please please!!" And just prayed about it.

So I left house, and went to get crepes (CHEESE HAM AND MUSHROOM DAMN SHIOK!!!) and walked to jiaheng's place. Then worship started and we sang and as I worshipped I kept telling God please please please, speak to me please.

AND JUST AS I TOLD GOD THAT...

Marilyn (who was leading worship then) suddenly called my name!! And when she said "Doreen" I SWEAR MY EYES NEARLY POPPED OUT AND MY MOUTH WAS LIKE AGAPE!

Cos truth be told, a part of me was actually quite prepared that I wont be hearing anything cos for the past few urbanlife I've also been praying for a word and I never got it. So I should just be honest and tell you, a part of me was ready to be let down, a part of me was ready to take the disappointment and just make do.

So I was like really shocked when Marilyn called my name! ESP just when I was almost like begging God already!

And so she went, "Doreen, don't ever feel like you're forgotten. God has such amazing plans for you, it just all needs time to unfold. So hang on Doreen, hang on." And I was like omgomgomgomg. Then afterwhich I had a vision of God and I at the alter getting married. And I could hear him say "Doreen, not only am I your friend, your saviour, your Lord, but I'll also be your lover." And it just made me feel so loved cos Sunday was a really sad day for me, it brought back much hurting memories and the loss of someone who really meant a huge deal to me. And I just felt God saying that He'll mend this hole of emptiness, He'll replace that lost love with His love and His grace and He'll be the lover who will never forsake me, abandon me or leave me. And I really believe that when the right time comes, not only would He send a better one, but the best one instead. :)

And so after worship and sharing we had FOOD right, so Marilyn and I started talking. And she actually told me that my name has been in her head the whole of last night and God has actually woken her up 3 times in the middle of the night to talk to her but she was too tired to listen and just fell back asleep. Hahahha! My dear Marilyn.. TSKTSK.

Everything just makes me feel so loved cos God only chose to speak to me yesterday night. I know as selfish as this may sound but I'm serious, I'm being honest here. It made me feel special. Cos usually in urbanlife at least 2 people would recieve a word but last night it was only me. Me who was so deprived, me who was so desperate, me who was beggin so hard for a word. I really truly believe that He often makes me wait, so that He can give me only the best. The Best, not second best. It just makes me feel so special and loved.

I realise that these two weeks I've really been feeling him like a companion, a silent companion just doing his things while I do mine, and just being around me. And everything in my life just seem to fall into place. And more often than not, usually when one thing fails, it only fails to make another thing better if you get what I mean. I'm slowly realising that he really has a reason for EVERYTHING. Like on Sunday, if Lydia wasn't talking to other people, if I hadn't lingered around her trying to capture her attention (and being disappointed meanwhile that I can't get to talk to her about my dream) then I wouldnt have gone back inside to sit down and so I wouldnt have spoken to Katherine and I wouldnt have seen her purple tee! Yeah thats just how awesome it is. Like everything's just falling into place. Like I'm slowly finding a meaning to everything, thats good. :)

Then at 12.30am I was quite troubled about the dream thing, about my friend and the whole dream and I was actually prepared to talk to A about it. But I really didnt know what to say or how to start, so I gave Adelene a call. And gosh, did she really gave me some really good advice and guidance! I really thank God for such an amazing leader. :)

SO ON TO PINEAPPLE EXPRESS!

HAHAHAHA YOU KNOW HOW I ENDED UP WATCHING. Cos as Abi and I were making our way back together to lecture from lunch, she suddenly said "Oh Do! You want to watch "Taken" right!" Then she started mimicking me and how excited I was when I saw the trailer at Dark Knight that time hahaha omg! I cant believe she actually rmbrd everything I said kay, its so scary! HAHAHA! Then Wynn said "no you all must watch pineapple express, its damn funny!" So I asked Abi "eh why not we watch pineapple express at 6 then watch taken at 9 or smth lah!" HAHAHHA BY THEN I WAS LIKE SUPER HIGH ALR. then abi was like "you crazy ah!" ahahhaha so in the end we decided that tonight abi and i would watch pineapple express and friday night all 9 of us would watch taken! :D It was damn impromptu and it got me damnnn high, i can't rmbr when was the last time I was this high already lah! hahaha!

hahahah i was so psyched about the show that when andrea asked me what soup I had for lunch today I said "cream of pineapple" and abi who was in the toilet started roaring in laughter and so did i cos i actually meant to say "cream of pumpkin" HAHAHHAHAHHAHA. OH OH OH, and abi attempted to slid a condom over my fingers but failed HAHAHHAHA.

Cos I came up to Andrea's house late right, so once I went in Abi was like "Do come come put your hand here, I give you something" So I was like huh? what? then i look into what she was holding and I saw the bloody condom and im like WTH?! WHY DO YOU HAVE A CONDOM! Apparently it was from zhenghui who gave Andrea as a stupid birthday present wthhh. And Abi wanted to trick me cos she thought I would start screaming once she manage to cloth my fingers in it. hahahha too bad, cos after I backed away from it the condom fell on the floor and she had to pick it up to throw and she said that her hands was all slimy from holding the condom for so long while waiting for me HAHAHHAHAHHA.

I think condoms are the most disgusting looking thing on earth, Idk why but I just can't stand the sight of them, it just makes me feel so disgusted. :X

Ok yeah, so in the end Abi, Lynette and I went for pineapple-y tghtr! :D Wah eat untill I want to explode lah! And we saw this damn huge dog, like huge x99999 and it was sooo cute! Its a siberian husky OMG SO CUTE! And the 3 of us went to pat it. Omgggg it was like the star of the road cos everyone who walked past started taking pictures of it and patting it. And the owner was like 'Arent you happy now max?" HAHAHAHHA SO CUTE!

Hahaha my hosuemate said I'm damn paranoid over my money. Hahhaha which I thnk is true. I'm damn paranoid that I would be overspending so much now that by the end of the year I need to eat bread everyday. But srsly lah, this month omg. I'm going to vic mkt this weekend to buy mince meat to last me till the end of the month cos 1Kg $5 only MUAHAHHAHA. So versatile and cheap. And I'm gonna buy lots of fruits, have to cut down expenditure alr omgg. Cos tmr night gonna go have steak for dinner with laksa, davin and joseph which i estimate i'll spend like $35. Then friday going out for movie + dinner which I estimate another.. $30? $40? Yah srsly man, cut down! Just that, my housemate cant go vic mkt with me cos she got support lecture unfortunately and i dono whether arlana want to go this sat, and audrey says she wanna stay home and rest this weekend, so i'll try my luck tmr at eap and ask arlana and elroy - the frequent frequenter of vic mkt whether they wanna go this weekend or not. hahahah project save $$!

Ok, I'mma off to bed now. 9am class tmr. zZz. YAY, STEAK FOR DINNER! Ok, no lunch tmr Doreen. NO LUNCH.

Woahhh, how good was church today!

You know last night i dreamt of my friend, A. And the night before I too dreamt of A. BUT, the night before, the dream was just a normal, one of my usual weird dreams but last night wasn't.

A has always been skeptical about christianity, has always had negative views on the whole God thing. I've asked her a couple of times to join me for some church events but it was always responded not in the way i want it. But Andrea and I both feel like there's something in her, just that something, no matter how small it might be, no matter what reason it stemmed from, still wants to know, who's this God we're talking about. Maybe its from her eyes, maybe its from the questions she asked, maybe its the curiosity she's emitting, maybe, it's just God telling us - He has chosen her. I don't know what, but I know there something more.

And last night, I had this dream, I dreamt of her. She was crying and telling me that she has always wanted to know God, just that she never dared to say anything or whatsoever. And the whole dream was so real, in my dream I was so so happy for her. But when I woke up, I forgot everything about it, like really. (maybe cos I woke up really late)

So when I was brushing my teeth, the dream suddenly hit me again. So in my head, I thought, "Ok God, if this dream is for real, if you think its the right time for me to try again, then let someone in urbanlife wear puple later." I don't know why the hell purple, but just purple. And to emphasis, this was just a running thought in my head, not like a real real request, just like "ok god, let someone wear purple" kind of thing. And a large part of me didnt think it would happen.

I didnt think it would happen so much so that I forgot all about this request of mine when I reached the meeting point of my urbs to have brunch together. Seriously. (Anyway, brunch was good. Hahahha lots of good laugh! Jiaheng bluff us all that his wallet was a family heirloom from his grandfather cos it looked really old and stuff. Untill Jeremy pointed out that "hey, the brand of the wallet isnt that old!" then we all realised he was lying! hahahah it was just the design of his leather wallet! HAHAHA! Then Adelene, Tricia and I were talking about cellulites and stretchmarks, hahaha funny! Brunch was really good!) So basically I was having lots of fun and didn't really check out their clothes.

Untill we all reached church, and I wanted to talk to Lydia about my dream, hoping she could tell me if it's just me, or is this dream really what God is trying to tell me. But she was speaking to Pastor Matt so I couldnt talk to her, so quite dejectedly I went back to my seat while waiting for service to start. Then, Katherine came over and so I told her about my dream since I've been telling her about A.

THEN! SUDDENLY! As she was advising me and counselling me and telling me lotsa awesome stuff, I realise she was wearing purple! She had been wearing purple all the time, throughout brunch throughout the whole day, just that I never saw cos her white coat was covering it and her scarf was long too, so her top was basically blocked! THEN SUDDENLY AT CHURCH, HER TOP PEEKED OUT AND THERE SHE WAS! PURPLE TOP!!

AND I WAS LIKE OMG OMG OMG!! ARE YOU WEARING PURPLE TODAY?!

And I think she thought like it was very weird or something, so she said "Yah I know right! This is the first time I've worn this top. Plus, I don usually wear it in winter cos its short sleeved so it makes me really cold. So at first I wanted to wear this black top but something in me made me change to this purple top! Weird huh! I don't know why either!"

AND I WAS HYPERVENTILATING BY THE TIME SHE FINISHED!!!

So I was like "OMG NO WAY KATHERINE. I TOLD GOD THAT IF MY DREAM WAS FOR REAL THEN MAKE SOMEONE IN URBANLIFE WEAR PURPLE TODAY!!! AND I DIDN'T EVEN SAY IT SERIOUSLY, IT WAS JUST SOME THOUGHT IN MY HEAD!!!"

And she went like, "He's a God of details." Uh huh, he truly is. I even suspect that God made me say the colour purple cos he has already planned it out alr. Cos it's not like puple is my favourite colour or ath, its just plain random and weird that I chose purple. Omgg. SO AWESOME HUH!

Thank you Jesus for this confirmation! Now Father, I ask for courage and wisdom.

:)

ROAR IM SO TIRED. OH LAST NIGHT WE GAVE ANDREA HER BIRTHDAY SURPRISE!! IM SO GLAD EVERYTHING WENT WELL AND SMOOTH! MY HARD WORK PAID OFF! :D albeit the fact that she had to squint to see the light sticks but still... yayy!! And also albeit the fact that some lightsticks damn cheat money cos didnt glow at all. Damn shitty. But at least the cake was really nice!!!

Crap, tmr must wake up early to shower and do up my lit tut questions. Luckily class starts at 1.45pm :D i have a feeling that urbanlife's gonna be awesomeee tmr :D

And two years flashed by like that. I'm taking it in my stride, even though it still hurts, a little. Just a teensy bit.

OMG!!! I FINISHED MY HOI ESSAY ALR!!! AND ITS 10AM NOW!!!! HAHAHAHHA :D AND I STARTED LIKE AT 10PM. HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA!

ok maybe I could have finished like 3 hours earlier if I havent signed into msn, didn't surf the web and didnt keep talking to my housemate, BUT WHATEVER, I FINISHED MY HOI!!!

HAHAHAHHA!!! The start of the essay was really hard cos my sources and quotes were all over the place and it was driving me up the wall. But soon I got the hang of things and how to answer the question. Then cos the first part of the question is mostly factual so I just need to dig out facts from the sources to throw in which was damn frustrating cos its all over the place. But the second part of the question is "Do you agree?" WAH THAT ONE I WRITE UNTILL DAMN SHIOK! HAHAHAHHA!

Cos HOI no need to give counter-argument so I just keep writing disagree disagree disagree. HAHAHAH I WRITE UNTILL I DAMN ANGRY COS I THINK THE GUY DAMN CHEAT PEOPLE LAH. HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA! I WRITE UNTILL DAMN EMOTIONAL LOLOLOL. I think my "do you agree" part is super bias. HAHAHHAHA!

OMG IM SO HAPPY I FINISHED MY HOI! even though i haven't slept for one whole night but i feel so happy and relieved and like no need to sleep like that, but of course im going to sleep lah hahahha. YAAAAY IM SO HAPPY!!!! YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE FRUSTRATION I WENT THROUGH AT THE BEGINNING K. OHMYGOODNESS :D next time im gonna write out a plan for every essay i do. really cannot like that butt head in, will die one.

I FEEL SO ACCOMPLISHED MUAHAHAHAHHA :D

I feel really good about this because this feels exactly like how I studied for my prelims. This is me being serious, this is me setting my mind into doing something and not giving up halfway and not letting physical conditions take over my mental state. This is some sort of a breakthrough for me because I realise that this year I've been giving up on alot of things halfway and it was starting to get to me, like so loser-ish, keep giving up, not hanging on. Like, what happened to the me that studied so hard for prelims? I was kind of like dismayed as the year progressed. But now, this feels like another boost of motivation to get my studying momentum back on. Maybe a little late yes, since its like week 6 or something already. But, better late than never yeah. :) This serves as a reminder for me that as long as I want to achieve something, as long as I want to get something down, as long as I put my head into it, nothing is impossible.

Doreen Neo Xia Ping, no more giving up.

I only wish you knew how much I wish I could break these invisible barriers between us thats stopping us to be like before. It's not like this thing hasn't happened before, but we got over it, but why isit that now it's affecting us so much. I miss the us we used to be. It's like now we're both holding something back, a little restrained, a little reserved, a little untrue to ourselves. If only you knew how much I miss you, how much you still brighten up my day, that it's you who pulled me through tonight.

You're a friend I can't do without,
If you only knew.
At times,
I miss you too.

Cheers, for the many good times that is to come, I hope.

I AM FREAKING FRUSTRATED OVER MY HOI ESSAY. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO WRITE AND MY NOTES ARE ALL OVER THE PLACE SO MUCH SO THAT I DO NOT KNOW WHERE TO FIND MY QUOTES FROM. THIS IS DRIVING ME FREAKING NUTS. WHATEVER IT TAKES, I MUST FINISH THIS FREAKING NERVE-WRECKING ESSAY EVEN IF IT TAKES ME ONE SLEEPLESS NIGHT AND TEN CUPS OF COFFEE. I WANNA GET THIS OVER AND DONE WITH.

hahhaha ok my housemate just came in and gave me some quirky encouragements. hahahah! cos like 30mins ago she came in and i was like "omggg so many hours alr i only write like 100+ words!!" then later when she came back she said "wah not bad ah! it took you so many hours to write that little, but now only a few mins only you wrote so much." which is abit -.- but still had a calming effect over me. hahahaha! yah im srsly damn frustrated abt my HOI. and she told me just now "to be honest, i think its quite ambitious to finish your essay by tonight" cos its like MISSION IMPOSSIBLE. omg but i rly want to finish by tonight lahhhhhhhhh. I don't wanna suffer for like consecutive days lo. wlau.

SCREW HOIIIIIIII. $@&*

It's 4.23am and I'm supposed to be sleeping but I'm doing this:


Fifteen years ago I...
was 2 which is the age whereby you're all fats and nobody said a thing.


Ten years ago I...
was 7 and was wondering if my kindergarden class was "purple pens" or "purple pants". Till now, I still don't know.

Five years ago I...
was 12 and was struggling to deal with having no friends in my life and eating recess in the toilet and crying at math tuition cos I hate my math tutor.

Two years ago I...
was 15 and till date, its still the best year of my life - 2006.

One year ago I...
was 16 and was mugging very hard for prelims to get into Trinity and slacken down for O levels. But am so glad that I've got awesome studymates to get me through my subjects like Zhenghui who teaches me history, bling and belle who slog their guts out for Add Math with me and Debbie who talks crap with me in chinese class.


Yesterday I...
rejected wynn's invitation to go fed square to watch the live telecast of NDP and stayed home attempting to read HOI.


Today I...
rejected marilyn's request to go her place to chill out with katherine but STILL stayed home attempting to read HOI and once again, FAILED, if not I wouldnt be doing this at all.

Tomorrow I...
I'm meeting Tricia for lunch and going for church and am not staying for second service to come home and do lit paragraphs. :(


Next week I...
HOPE I FINALLY FINISH READING BLOODY HOI AND HOPEFULLY STARTED ON MY ESSAY BY THE WEEKEND?!


Next year I...
hope to be in melbourne uni.

Got it from grace's blog, quite fun lah hahaha.

Ok bedtime.

In the end I brushed my teeth and washed my face cos I had to pee urgently, and I thought "aiya since in the toilet alr then just brush lah."

Ok i don't know why i'm even blogging about this hahaha omg.

DIE LAH MY HOI.

Tmr must do lit paragraph smmre! OMGG.

OMG HAHAHAH! I was sorting out my emails and reading through my sent msgs and I saw this email that I sent Samuel HAHAHHA!

I titled it "SOMEONE DIED SAMUEL" to capture his attention, and he in turn titled his reply "MUST SEE - LATEST SCANDAL FROM SINGAPORE!" HAHAHAHHAHA! and of course there was yusheng's signature "Sup part I", "Sup part II", "Sup part III or IV, i forgot" then the latest "Sup sup sup" HAHAHAHHAHA! then romaine's "Did you miss me cause I did!" and seowhwee's latest "FROM KL IN SPORE TO KL IN AUSSIE" hahahahha! and hoho's "DODO WOMAN!"

AWW I GOT SUCH SWEET + CREATIVE FRIENDS :)

AND OF COURSE BLING'S MULTIPLE QUIRKLY TITLES THAT SEND ME LAUGHING WAY BEFORE I EVEN REALLY OPEN THE MAIL! HAHAHHA! :D BLING I CAN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO BE BACK! MUCH MISSES! HOPE URE HAVING ALL THE FUN + EDUCATION IN THE WORLD @ CAMBRIDGE IN UK! :D MISS YOUU!!

Omggg tonight is so unproductive. I think I only really read all my sources for like 45mins for the whole the day only. Its 4am now and I didn't read at all for the whole night. OMG ANDREA SCREAM AT ME WHEN YOU SEE ME PLS :( I'm so tired now I think i'll just crash and burn on my bed without brushing my teeth and washing my face. I'm soo tired. Gotta wake up at 10.30am tmr to shower and reach town by 12.30pm to meet dearest tricia for lunch! HEEE GOT SO MUCH TO TELL HER! :D

JEFFREY KEE I NEED MY CHARGER BACK!

I think I'm catching a flu. I've been sneezing non stop today. Please please, I don't wanna catch a cold. :( My nose can't stop running. And I've been highly unproductive tonight. I knew switching on my comp is such a bad idea. I got hooked on it like after 30mins of readings. Talked to debbie and ys online. Wah talk to ys laugh like mad lah, when he tell me about his class omg i cannot stop laughing. And debbie was just plain sweet, even though she annoyed me with the cannibalism shit at first. PFFTS DEBBIE PFFTS. hahaha i got back at her by flashing the pkt of chip i was munching on. muahahaha :D moroccan chicken with lemon ftw. hahahah! Yahh omg my HOI.

And for stupid lit tut I have to write two paragraphs and I havent even finish reading the book! OMGZZ. this is bad.

And photobucket is screwed up. I bulk uploaded my pictures and even though the uploading process was completed, they keep telling me "0 of 0 images have been uploaded!" like its a damn good and happy thing like that. Omg. So frustrating. And if I dont bulk upload it, I think I upload untill tmr morning also cannot finish lah. And blogger cant uplod my pics straight form the comp too, it just gives me the "webpage cannot be found" page when im supposed to go to the "done" page. so frustrating.

i need help.

OMGGGGGG MY DARLING KL IS SOOO SWEET! Cos I smsed her ystd and she emailed me back. (hahahaha omg she and ys did the same thing, both also ah, dont want to reply me, only reply through email TSKTSK) omgggg but her email is soo sweet, made me smile like madness! :D

Kl is konglong which is dinosaur who is seowhwee by the way. HAHAHAH :D

"OOH.and u noe why i wanted to IM u?its because i got a badge for u.hahas.its a dinosaur with a no entry sign over it and it says'but i will make an exception for u'under the sign.;)when i saw it yr face just pops into my mind.so i brought it for U!!!hahahas.and i bet u must be going'OMG.WHATS HAPPENING TO KL'because i never got u any present outside yr birthdae at all right.i was a bit surprised at myself too but i guess tht badge says a lot abt us!;)hahas.cs even if u are a GAZILLION years old KL and u and blur and has this weird sneeze I STILL LOVE U KL BECAUSE U ARE U .and u are nice and sweet and caring and fun and i love yr laughter and yr sneeze because it sounds so familiar.hahahs.so i will make an exception for u.:))))))))))"

omggg so sweeet! No wonder tonight I kept sneezing non stop lah! I still thought I caught a cold! HAHAHA! SO SWEET MY KL! She ah, birthday present always late like 5months kind, she still bought me this badge! SOO SWWEEET :D (hahaha dinosaurs are our nick for each others :D our inside joke with hoho hahahha) sooo sweeet!!!!

Sorry I can't reply you back now cos I got soo much to say to you but soo little time! Am currently studying my research for this stupid essay :(

"LOL.i am telling u this becos i missed yr 'i think u are spastic' look!hahahas." HAHAHAHA KL THIS MADE ME LAUGH LIKE SHITXZ OK! :D

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!! HOW YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME LAUGHH LIKE MADD!!! AND I STILL OWE YOU GREEN TEA AND YELLO HIGHLIGHTER SINCE SEC 1!!! HAHAHAHAH :D omgggg I miss sitting behind you! omgomgomg i miss you kl!

Omg I miss my jabbies. :( How nice would it be if all you 3 are here and we could all watch la bi xiao xing together again and laugh untill we roll on the floor while debbie sleeps like a pig on the bed! HAHAHAH! And the bbq which was a tad too much for 4 of us only. hahaha omg i miss you girls!

LIMSEOWHWEEWOHENXIANGNI!!!! :( your email totally made me miss you x9999 times more cos suddenly i see all the stupid kinds of faces that you always give me and the weird things that you always say and how you always "tsk" me and go "doreen neo...." and then when you get excited or angry you start speaking soooo quickly! hahahahha!

much misses :(

-

you know what, today i was supposed to stay home to do read up on my HOI readings right, then you know what. I woke up at 12, made my chrysanthemum tea cos I'm having a sore throat and had breakfast then watched "everyone loves raymond" then turned to channel 7 and there was beach volleyball! OMG GO AUSSIE! this girl player is sooooo pretty and her figure was soooo good and her techniques are like PHWOARRRRR omg i love her. I couldnt stop oogling at her body ok, so hawtness!

but by the time i watch finish (and attempted to read while watching) it was 3.30 and I'm like "omg so late." i wanted to lie on my stomach to read but the sofa was too short for me so i went on my bed and huddled in my blanket and started reading. First five minutes, very productive... then.... BAD CHOICE! FELL ASLEEP UNTILL 6.30! SO OMGGG RIGHT!

OMG TONIGHT I COOKED FISH!

OMG SO YUMMY!!! I WAS SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!!! I HAD 3 SLICES OF FISH AND I MARINATED ALL 3 IN DIFFERENT WAYS AND COOKED IT IN DIFFERENT WAYS TOO! OMG ALL WERE SO YUMMY!!!

I pan-fry 2 slices, one slice was marinated with lemon, salt, pepper and the other was marinated with lemon,salt,pepper and dill. Then I grilled 1 slice which was marinated with lemon, salt, pepper and I took one slice of cheese from my housemate and tore it into slices and put on top of the fish and grilleed it! OMG I EAT UNTILL DAMN SHIOK.

which is damn weird cos I usually dont like fish, like i can eat chicken like 24/7. hahahhaa. Fish - i dont usually crave or even think about buying them. But tonight I Had to eat it cos I forgot all about it cos it was at the back of my freezer and I bought it like one month ago. AHHAHAHHA. OMG BUT SOOOOO YUMMMMMY :D Then cos I forgot to cook rice, so I cut the fish and put it on top of my Low Fat Hi Fibre with Sea Salt biscuit and eat OMG EVEN MORE YUMMY. I eat untill damn happy. ahhahahha!

So impressed with myself hahahaha! I must call my mom and tell her about my fish feast. She'd definitely be so shocked cos I was dread eating fish. ahhahaha!

HEE! :D I feel so healthy today. Which is a bad thing cos it means that I'll start snacking later. :(

Oh chrysanthemum tea was not bad, a bit too sweet though hahaha! Cos I dono how much chrysanthemum flower to put and I dono the sweetness of rock sugar also hahaha! :P

OHH AND I DREAMT ABT ALOT OF PPL ALST NIGHT! hahaha! I dreamt of so many of my friends from spore! And arlana! hahahha! What a weird dreamm.

Yah ok, I must go read my lenghty, focus-required, maximumconcetration, readings. :(

Oh and we edited our drama plot, now its soo much better! I'm very happy with it! :D

Oooh and I fried noodles for dinner last night, damn shiok :D hahahha!

It's quite warm for winter now, I wonder whyy.

And you know what! Last week I checked SQ website for my mom to come over in sept during my holidays and the price was about $1341 or something then now its like $1749!! INCREAASE SO MUCH IN A COUPLE OF DAYYYS ONLY LAH!!!! Now like that, maybe my mom dont want to come over already. :( Or have to come later when the price drop, cos its abit atrocious to spend so much on a 4 day trip only.

But the again, I'm having some complications with my braces so I might have to go back to Sg to fix it unless the dentist here can fix it. I dono lah, wlau so ex lo. The June ticket was $2000 already, now $1700+ omggg. But march ticket was soo cheap! $1200 or something only. :(

Sigh.

Ooh church tmr! We're having something new called "Thank God You're Here." HAHAHHA! its copied from a standup comedy aussie thing! I wonder how it'd be like in church tmr! :D Sounds like fun cos they're gonna call up people from the audience hahaha! SO FUN! :D

OOOH. i received emails from yusheng, chiatyi and graceyeoh! HAHAHHA I FEEL SO LOVEDD :D

Hahaha today was a good day. Had lunch with joseph only today cos suddenly the rest went to dining hall. Hahaha I just realised that it's the first time I ever had a meal alone with joseph alone. Hahaha! But it was damn fun eating with him cos he kept telling me the horrors of hospitals in malaysia. Omg srsly, dont ever go a government hospital there omg. It's damn scary k.

OH LIT LECTURE WAS DAMN FUNNY! Hahahha, I slept in lecture but I wasnt like fully asleep cos I was keeping a ear out for the lecturer in case he suddenly ask me to wake up or ask me answer question or something. Then suddenly I hear Grace telling Arlana about this 成语 “望梅止渴” and she explained to Arlana that its something like looking at the peach makes you not thirsty. Then I heard, so I woke up and said "What peach lah, is sour plum hello." HAHAHHA OMG THEN THEY STARTED LAUGHING LIKE CRAP. Grace said "omg i cant believe you woke up just to tell me that!" then she was like "oh yah, peach is 桃 right!" hahahha omg then arlana was like "oh yah, sour plum is 酸梅 right!" then im like "yah of course, thats why its 望梅 right!" hahahha omg damn funny.

then i commented that its so weird to see the two of them discussing chinese cos they're so english, esp grace, doesnt even look like she studies chinese kind of thing. Hahaha then Grace started telling us about her chinese lessons back when she was in Cedar. AHHAHHA OMG FREAKING HILARIOUS! ARLANA GRACE AND I LAUGH UNTILL WE 3 ALL CRYING! OMG I SWEAR SHE HAS GOT THE FUNNIEST CRAZIEST WACKIEST CLIQUE IN SCHOOL EVER.

what VP open the cupboard all their books drop on the VP lah.
then what jaywalk across this huge busy road then one of their shoes came off and was stranded in the middle of the road lah.
then what in CJC open house they all never tend their booths, then all run away to play poker and play frisbee then the sec 4s were like "wah CJ so happening, I also want to come!"

hahhaha alot of stuff damn funny lah! we 3 laugh untill we cry non stop.

THEN SUDDENLY THE LECTURER CALLED GRACE'S NAME AND ASK HER TO ANSWER QUESTION! HAHAHHAHA! then i didnt hear him, so i was like "huh? how come arlana and grace suddenly stop laughing and look straight?" then i realise that the whole lecture all turn behind to look at grace hahahhaha omg. then the lecturer repeated his question again then this girl who sat behind grace whispered the answer and grace merely repeated it. HAHAHAHHA OMG DAMN FUNNY OK. hahahha this is by far the best and fastest lit lecture everrr! :D

uhh then i had drama meeting, then we settled the plot in like 15mins hahaha world record timing hahaha.

Then met laksa for dinner in the city! OMG THE RED BEAN PANCAKE DAMN SHIOK! OMGGGGG I EAT ALR SO HAPPY OK! :D I'm defo going back for moooore! wwoohoo! then after that went to joseph's house and then laksa, davin, joseph and i went to fredo! wooohoo imma happy glutton cos i had my durian + green tea ice cream which is shiokness cos its so real! LIKE EATING REAL DURIAN LIKE THAT! not like that gelatissimo ice cream, eat alr make me shit 3 times smmre not nice. tsk! fredo makes me happy. hahaha but i eat untill my tongue damn numb! HAHAHAH :D then on the way home joseph and i were freezing. hahaha!

OHH THEN SOMETHING FREAKY HAPPENED!

Cos I had to part ways with them right, then i passed by this restaurant and this waiter was clearing the table and our eyes met so we both smiled a really happy smile to each other (most prolly cos he's getting off work and im happy from my ice cream) and he mouthed something like "how you doing mate!" which is this aussie thing to say. So I felt all warm and fuzzy and happy cos he was so friendly and nice and stuff. Then there was this guy waking in my opposite direction and he was smiling at me, so i just smiled back really happily lah, since I was in such a good mood.

THEN THEN THEN!!

Then as he approached me he suddenly say all those kind of stuff and make all those kind of noises and even touched me! OMGGG I WAS DAMN FREAKED OUT. And the things he said really super spooked me out ok. OMG. Then I quickly called Andrea cos I was damn scared lah. OMG. :( So freaked out. Thanks andrea for pei-ing me home on the phone! :D

Ooooh i hope tricia can meet for lunch tmr instead of sunday so i can go have thai buffet with laksa and davin and joseph on sunday! :D

AND I FINALLY FINISHED MY HOI PRIMARY SOURCES! HAHAHHAHA SO HAPPY K :D

HAHAHHA EAP TMR! yayyy i so happy i finished my presentation alr cos it means tmr i no need to present anymore! JUST GO SCHOOL AND SIT THERE AND LISTEN TO PEOPLE PRESENT! WOOHOO SHIOKNESS :D

Maybe I shouldn't dabble into your affairs.
Maybe I shouldn't even try to know you better.
Maybe this is good enough.

OMG EAP PRESENTATION IS OVERRRRRR! :D

hahhaha arlana and i were so happy! hahahhaha omgg!!! and elroy told me that i mispronounced alot of words. OMGGG i must have sounded so funny. i was so nervous that i didnt even realise till once i landed my butt on my seat he started bombarded me with my atrocious pronounciation. OMGGG. apparently i've got the longest presentation cos i went over the 8mins mark. omg. and elroy was like "its so long for a short nap. it was good" tsk.

hahhaha and math lesson was so fun. Cos just nice I had math with arlana and elroy after EAP so we were chatting while walking there and we started talking about cooking and marketing and stuff. And we found out that elroy is so domesticated! HAHAHHA! And it also so happens that he always buy and cook the same thing as arlana! hahahaha! so funny lah, both arlana and i were so zomgg shocked. hahaha! and elroy is so smart + hardworking, he does his tutorial unlike arlana and i, oops. And he teaches arlana and i math, oops. :P

Supposed to go library to research on my HOI after math class today, but I was too lazy + hungry so i went home instead. Then later I found out from my housemate that the libary had a blackout plus the fotocopy machine wasnt working. HAHAHAH LUCKY I DIDNT GO! stayed at home and watch two and a half man instead, my fav show on earth! HAHAHAHHA :D ok shit, i think my hoi progress is lacking damn behind. die lah hahaha.

Ohh i wonder what dearest goh eeling is doing now. Haha random.

Oh and elroy was being so irritating in class today, he kept saying "lah" like damn purposely. Hahaha then we taught this guy from china (whom we found out who smokes today!) how to say "wahlau" cos he asked us what it means. hahahah! it was damn funny lah hahahah! summore he always say it at the right time and stuff so its rly funny since he's not singaporean!

Oh and today's weather was so hot. As in, hot for winter. Like the sun was glaring and i even drank ice chocolate without even trembling. Tsk. Hot stuff.

Omg "so you think you can dance" is hot stuff, takes my breath away.

And I think I'm developing a soft spot for you.

Yet another miracle.

There's this friend that I've been thinking alot about recently, like in fact, I can't stop thinking about him. Like for days I've been having thoughts of him popping in my head, his name re-sounding over and over again in my ears. And for more times than I'd like to, I thought I actually begin to like him or something and I was kind of like "oh my goodness, do i like him?" kind of thing, cos usually when you cant stop thinking of someone it usually means that you like that person alooot right. So like yeah, I was like "zomg?!"

Then today, one of my urbanlife friend, tricia msged me saying that she was thinking about me and feels like reminding me that God is always by my side. Then as I read that msg, aside from feeling "aww so sweet" and very touched and all, I couldnt stop thinking about this friend of mine. His name just kept repeating in my head, times that we've spent together kept playing in my mind and I'm like "OMG WHATS HAPPENING TO ME!"

Then suddenly, just suddenly it hit me that what Tricia said to me is something that God wanted me to tell that friend of mine. Then I'm like "hmm ok.." So I started typing the sms to him, and at first I wasn't very sure what to type, but once I started typing, words just kept flowing through, like I knew what I wanted to say even though I didn't plan anything. And I knew it must be the Holy Spirit guiding me.

But, a part of me was afraid to send this message. A part of me was afraid that what if what I said isnt applicable to his life now, what if what I said is totally off-track, what if what I said doesn't make any sense to him at all? What if he thinks I'm some psycho or some freak who's hallucinating or something? So many "what-ifs" ran through my head. Also partly cos I haven't been speaking to this friend ever since I came back to Australia, and although I knew he was a Christian, goes to church, but every church has their own cultures right, so I was like afraid that he wouldn't understand or like think this is something way out of the ordinary to do. Plus, he's back in Singapore and I'm like "we're so far away, havent talk for so long, what if it's really my misinterpretation?"

But what I kept reminding myself of was what my church always tell us to do, to "Step out in faith", and also someone (either katherine or laksa) once told me "if you take the first step, God will do the rest for you." and also either lydia or tricia or adelene once said "so what if you said the wrong thing, so what if that person thinks you're weird? they can just don't take your words seriously if they find it irrevelant. what harm does it do? But, instead ask yourself, what will happen if you didnt obey the word of God? Do you want to miss out on what God has planned for you to do?" So, I sent it.

You cannot imagine how relief I was when I got his reply! His words of confirmation, his tone of relief. Wow, I felt good to be able to help someone refresh theirself, I felt happy for him that he is now fully spurred on once again in this walk, I felt thankful that God decides to use me out of many others. This just goes to show how amazing God is because as I was talking to this friend online, we were both like amazed cos as quoted from him, "of all the people in the world, you. trans-continent also can!" Hahaha! It's really just so awesome.

And a part of me has also been hoping that God can use me. Cos the last time he spoke through me to others was months ago and I felt like I really want to help others. Because I've experience the power of God's word and I want others to be able to feel it too. And it makes you happy to see people smile in contentment and in relief. Yeah, and I feel like God is telling me right now and I fully understand it, just that I don't know how to put it in words.

Maybe it's just a spiritual thing. :)

And to my awesome friend back in Singapore: Mr. Misleading Nick, I'm glad to be able to be of some help in your walk with God. The fact that God has been speaking to me for the past week about you proves that he sees that dryness in you, he has been noticing you, so don't ever feel forgotten or left out because He resides in you and knows of your every thought, every need and every desire. Even those you don't know about. He has singled you out of the many many many friends I know who may need Him more than you do now, but he chose you for me to speak to, that's how special you are to him. My friend once told me, the worst thing about being a Christian is to be comfortable. God always wants to see that hunger in you for Him and it's just so awesome that you've been pressing on despite the lack of revelations. So be prepared for breakthroughs, be prepared for His word for you tonight as you do your quiet time. Cos He's so gonna blow your mind away. :)

James 4:8 - "Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you."

Oh I forgot to add something! Just now I called my mom and she told me a really good news! There's this business deal that my mom has been hoping to seal and she has this awesome potential buyer that she's waiting to hear from and i've been been praying for positive results. And guess what, just now she told me that now she's having alot of people offering even better prices for this deal and she's just reall so excited about it because the terms and profits and everything are just so much better!

I praise the Lord for coming through for my mother even though she's not saved. Coming through for her when she's at the most stressed and exhausted point, coming through for her with even better things than she has expected.

Laksa once told me, if you ask God for something he will give you one of these responses.

1) He'll say yes, and give it to you.
2) He'll say hold on, and give you something better.
3) He'll say no, and give you the best.

And you know? He said no to my mother and gave her the best.

Cos previously this deal was what we thought on the brink of closing already but in the end it didnt happen cos of some stuff and my mother was really beaten by it even though she didnt really say much to me. But I know she's just exhausted by the mere prospect of the future of things. Then recently, this really sincere businessman came along and showed utter interest, but just 3 days after him, so many more interested people came with better terms. So wow, even though he said no to my mother, he gave her the best. He gave her this abundance to choose from.

WOW, God, WOW. I couldnt stop thanking God in my heart while I talked to my mom.

Hahaha then I talked to my mom about the economy, like we started talking about it cos she asked me if the AUD dropped. Then we started talking and I'm so glad I'm finally soooo contributive to this conversation cos I read up so much on the whole mortgage crisis and recent major financial happenings that it was finally a two-way conversation! hahahha and my mom was like "wow i can see you really did your homework" HAHAHHA! yah duh of course, untill 6am ok. but she was like "see now that you've finally started to catch up on the economy, continue doing so!" in other words, "start reading newspaper, the economist and things like that everyday" because she says she "expects to have much more of such conversations with me" hahaha omg. no time lah.

But something made me worried during this process of the conversation though. It makes me.. just.. distraught. Sigh.

OH MAN TODAY'S URBS WAS SOOO GOOD! :D

Cos in the end all X, Y, Z didn't go and I was really like quite sad and felt quite beaten about it. And I was even like more dismayed when Adelene didn't have a word for me even though I really hoped I could have for some sort of refreshment, so I was abit like :(

yeah there was this thought that came into my head and it was God telling me "don't worry, this is not the end." after worship ended. so i was like ok.. then during sharing, jiaheng talked about evolution and human and God and stuff. But like he didnt mean to talk about evolution, so he was like "ok i dont know why i sidetracked till evolution also" then adelene talked about how we God made us different from animals, and that we are different from monkey whom is what is believed we are evolutionised from, and she spoke about the differences.

And it really hit me, and I knew the answer's to jiaheng's doubt of why he sidetracked, it was to answer MY unsaid question. Cos on friday, my HOI tutorial was on evolution of human. And I started to doubt, started to question because I started believing in the evolution of us from monkeys, the diagram of us transforming into a human seemed so credible, every logic I could think of seem to fall into place, but the whole "God created man" thing just didnt seem to fit anywhere right. And this bugged me, I couldnt stop thinking about it and seriously, I felt bad, I felt bad for questioning God, I felt bad for harbouring suspicions, but I couldnt stop, I just cant.

And today, both Jiaheng and Adelene gave me my answer, my confirmation. It once again hit me of how amazing God works because this evolution thing although has been bugging me, but it had been at the back of my head, like I didnt pay much attention to it. But God, he saw it, he heard my suspicions and he denied my doubts, he cleared it. It amazes me the small details that God takes note of, really. Because there were more problems and issues that I was more concerned about, more worried of, and I understand clearly why he didnt speak to me about that but about this whole evolution thing.

Because whats the use of him speaking to me about my great issues if I couldnt even get my basics or fundamentals right? What good is it of the words from a man I don't have faith in, that I dont trust? Wow, that in fact just hit me, like while I'm typing this, I didnt actually thought of it this way just now, Wow God, WOW.

Then I talked to Katherine about the X Y Z thing cos she knows about it, and WOWWWW, the things she said to me was so sensational and refreshing. Cos during worship, I prayed to God that I needed strength, faith, encouragement and courage. And you know, within that 10 mins of conversation with Katherine, I got it all. She taught me about how God has his special timing for everyone and if people are not willing to accept him yet, just let it go, don't keep pressing on the issue because when He shifts in their lives, everything's just gonna be smooth sailing.

OMG, OMG! While I was typing that, I rmbrd that during a sermon, one pastor shared about how if you feel weary while doing something, it means that God doesnt mean for it to happen, and I dug my bag to find my notebook which i wrote this on. AND YOU KNOW WHAT, once i open the book, i was staring right at that!!! AWESOME hahahha! I know to some of you it might just be a coincidence, but to me its not.

"If you feel exhausted whilst doing something, it means that that's not what God wants you to do. Because if God wants you to do something, He'll empower you."

How awesome is my God. :D

woohoo! :D Yay I love my God :D yeah so as i saying, yeah, talking to katherine each time is like a burst of energy. She tells me things that God feels about me, she tells me how to tackle my problems, she teaches me the way to see things, she understands fully what I'm going through and it's just so comforting to talk to her. Everytime I finish talking to her, I feel like I can breathe. I feel so much lighter and happier and it just takes a whole weight off me. :)

Yes, so that's why today's Urbs was soooo awesome! :D

AFTER URBS WAS AWESOME TOO!

Cos today is my housemate's birthday so I wanted to surprise her. So I pretended like I forgot its her birthday but actually I've got a cake for her and everything already. Just that I dont have a lighter and I'm just too cbb to go get a lighter cos its just a one-off thing, so I thought that I could just borrow from the security guard or something. But when I came in the security guard was dealing with some issues and I was too pressed for time to wait cos I scared my housemate sleep already cos by the time I reached home it was like 10.45pm already hahaha. So I decided to just ask someone on my floor for a lighter.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT!!!!!!

THE FIRST DOOR I KNOCKED WAS THE CUTE GUY'S HOUSE!!!! HAHAHHAHAHHA :D ok i admit i kind of purposely walked that far, around that position where i saw him open his door, but hey! there's a possibility that i could have knocked on the door beside his ok! :D and i have to clarify the reason that i didnt borrow from my neighbor is cos i scared my housemate recognise my voice and open the door or something cos really, the walls here are like paper-thin.

HAHAHHAHAH SO YAHH, CUTE GUY'S HOUSE! AWESOME, I NEARLY DROPPED THE CAKE HAHAHHAHAHAH :D

so i was like "err hi, i stay down the corridor, may i know if you've got a lighter to lend me?" (anw it was his housemate or friend who opened the door just that he stuck his head out so i saw him :D) but they didnt have :( so i had to knock on other doors. well, one was not home, two didnt have and after one U-shape, i was at the door opposite of theirs. And i think they heard me knocking on their neighbor's door so they opened their door so i was quite frustrated by then alr so i was like "err can i borrow your gas stove?" hahhaha so yay, i gained access into cute guy's house! HAHAHAHHAHAHA. okok i know i veryy sly, but who ask them open their door and talk to me again. GOT CHANCE I CANNOT SAY NO RIGHT HAHAHAHHAHAHA!

so yeah, i didnt talk to cute guy or ath cos i was too busy trying to light the candle and taking the cake out of the box and stuff. but it was really funny cos i had a conversation like that

"oh who's birthday isit?"
"oh my housemate. its a surprise thing."
"oh is there alot of people?"
"no its just she and i"
"oh you guys must be very close then"

which i found abit... hmm.. weird cos my housemate and i arent exactly CLOSE like best friends even though i do tell her some of my problems cos she's still afterall the first person i see and the one nearest to me haha! but we're just rly different lah.

and of course there was the whole "wah 17 only, so young" hype. there always is.

yah so i scooted out of cute guy's house after awhile, like less than 5 mins cos also abit paiseh cos there was like 3 guys and 1 girl. like damn alot of people and i just intrude like that asking to light a candle lololol! yahhh so anw, cute guy is still as cute as everr zomg. hahhahah!

OK SORRY LAH, I KNOW VERY DESPO BUT I SO LONG NV SEE HIM AROUND ALR OHKAAYYYEEE. :P

ohh haha i suddenly rmbr smth from urbs. i was saying my byes and hugging everyone and i asked jiaheng "so how's your first day as a fully fledged adult?" then he was like "not too bad, awesome." then i said "ohhh, with great powers come great responsibility! hahahhaa bye ADULT!" then he was like "bye kid!" HAHAHHA OMG.

yahh and my housemate was really touched she nearly cried hahaha! cos she rly thought i forgot her birthday but when she opened the door she saw me standing outside with the cake hahahah! SO HAPPY :D

yah ok its 1.09am byebye goodnight.

Ok I highly doubt that I'm able to blog all the pictures by tonight cos photobucket is giving some screw up shit problem, it says so happily "0 of 0 images have been uploaded!" LIKE HELLLLLLLO?! so yeah, i'm just gonna use words for now, pictures another time! (its late ok, i have no patience for photobucket)

So my day started off at 11.30am, met laksa, davin and joseph and headed to the city for jap food! then cos i put too much chilli powder into my rice so my stomach felt so hot after it so i craved for ice cream (even though it was freezing with the wind blasting in our face) hahaha joseph and i were like running around the city cos we were both so cold and we wanted to find shelter ASAP hahaha! Max Brenners was packed so we went to New Zealand Natural for some heavenly chocolate fudge brownie and cookies and cream which i shared with laksa while we chatted, leaving davin out playing his stupid hp game which he was trying to beat joseph's high score while joseph stoned lololol. then later joseph told me about his drama plan that his group came out with and im like "wth...." hahahhaha that was funny, the way he told me about his drama group ahhahahah! poor thing lah you!

then we went to outside the state library to take pictures! I absolutely love melb's state library cos its just sooo magnificent, the architecture and the whole building - the first time i saw it i thought it was a meusem! And i love the grass patches in front of it, where people just sit there and take in the sunshine, its just so lovely. :)

AWWW it would have been great fun to post the pictures up cos we took some real wacky pictures and also caught joseph in action trying to catch the pigeons hahaha! It was a lovely weather and the pictures are alll really pretty! Oh well, next time :(

Oh oh then we wanted to take a group shot using the timer right, so we put the camera on the ground and tried taking on the field, then this ang moh lady, i think she thought we were having some difficulty taking our picture to she walked up to us and volunteer to help us take pictures you know! SO NICE RIGHT. plus, she looks damn goth lah, like she has blue hair and everything but she was soo kind! AWWW i love love love australians :D

more picture taking news when the pictures are up! hahaha dont spoil the fun! then after our mini photoshoot, i went to meet my church friends while laksa and davin went shopping and joseph went home.

hahaha then tricia was telling us that if jiaheng asked us if we wanted to go for dinner together, just make up some excuse to decline and just siam him as much as possible. hahaha! cos we were planning to go to his place after service to surprise him, but usually after church service we would have dinner tghtr as an urbanlife so it was weird that everyone declined him hahaha! so marilyn came up with this plan that 2 people should go while the other decline, hahaha and we all tried to figure out whats best cos jiaheng hates surprises and he makes use of every opportunity to bust us. So yeah, we were really careful about what we said hahaha!

Praise during church was awesomely good today, it just felt so good praising God and just dancing and jumping about in his freedom and glory. :D Going for second service instead of first has a different 'feel' to it hahhaa.

Ok so after service we all quickly dispersed before jiaheng had a chance to ask any of us if we wanted to dinner hahaha! then silas, emil, sojin, katherine and i ran to macdonald before jiaheng saw us hahahha! then we had dinner at mac where katherine told me about her leech experiences and how awful they were and how much she hated them hahahah! i forgot how we started talking about it lololol!

Oh then we ran after the tram hahaha! hahhaha poor sojin cos she was in really high heels and it was really painful for her lol! but the next tram comes in 20mins so.. hehehe. apparently we were too early. we reached there at 8 instead of the appointed 8.30 lololol. so katherine sojin and i camwhored and did some stupid things.

then people started pouring in and there were more and more unfamiliar faces and some vaguely familiar faces. Got to know some really awesome people hahaha! There was this girl, denise, who was really shocked that im born in 91, i mean like most of them are cos firstly of course i dont look the part and also cos they're mostly like 20 alr so yeah.

ohhhhh then adelene called and said that she and jiaheng would be reaching in 10mins and we all went into our respective hiding places and it was sooo exciting! katherine was so excited she couldnt breathe and i could feel my pee coming. oh but the wait was agonizing, it seemed forever!

then they finally came and at first it seemed to jiaheng like a family thing cos his two sisters were there singing the birthday song but then suddenly all of us come out in 3 different directions of his house and that really shocked him! hahahaha! he was so surprised! and my gosh it rly was quite alot of people! hahaha there were groups of people coming out from his left, right and front! ahhaha! so happy that he didnt expect this at all! :D :D :D

hahahha so many funny things happened at the party! Jiaheng was fooling around with his birthday presents, modelling them and showing them off hahaha! so cute lah! cant believe he's turned 21! :D

Oh then there was this guy and he was like "you're doreen right?" and im like "WOAHHH HOW YOU KNOW MY NAME" and i was like quite surprised lah, cos he's like some big shot in our ministry so like i was like wah! then lydia told (lied) to me that he's the know-it-all and he knows everyone in the ministry! and im like "WOAH I WANNA KNOW THIS GUY MAN!" then she turned and shouted to him "hey jono ong! doreen wants to know you!" omg so embarrassing lah k hahahaha! then he came up to me and said that we met ages before at this venue called festival hall and that was like what? in march? and that was the one and only time we met and he rmbrs my name! woah, like please, usually you tell someone your name and its forgotten 15 mins from then. but like WOAAHHH, he acty placed the right name to the right face hahahha! i was so impressed by his memory! yah then alvin was like "your got short term memory" cos i srsly cant rmbr getting to know jono ever!

yah then i made a new friend alvin. I've worked with him a couple of times before and he's very close to a few of my urbanlife friends but we've never really known each other. At first my first impression of him was.. lets just say not really good.. but today omg, I SWEAR HE'S THE TOTAL EXACT OPPOSITE! he's sooooooooooooo funny ok! he makes me laugh like nuts and he does the stupidest most craziest things and say the most retarded thing ever ok! hahahhaha! and the way he talk is just hilarious! hahahhaa thinking of all the things he said just cracks me up! hahaha and he's super nice also, he gave sojin, silas and i a lift home! woohoo! and his car was playing hip hop music and sojin and i were at the back dancing to the music and totally rocking the song and having so much girly fun! HAHAHAH! :D oh oh oh and he has this pair of shoes that looks bloody expensive and damn classy but its actually from giodano and it was only like 35$! hahahhaha! and the way i found this out is just hilarious! hahahha! yah and he always kicks me!

ohhhh its really funny how we started talking cos he was like "eh doreen.. yadayadayada" and im like "WHAT?! HOW YOU KNOW MY NAME?!" and he was like "what? you mean you don't know my name?" and im like "huh do i know you?" then lydia said "aiya, he's like that one lah. he expects everyone to know him." HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHA!

yah and alot of funny stuff lah, our secret shared love for peanuts, his adidas socks, acting geeky, facebook theme song and alot lah hahahaha super funny! :D

oh and Yen was soo cute, she couldnt rmbr my name! And it used to be I can't remember her name but she can remember mine and she always was so "angry" about it, so now im having such a good time calling her name cos she always calls me "samantha" for i dont know what reason! hahahaha! she's so funny! when she knew i was 17 she totally turned her back against me hahahahha so cute ok she! she and denise are so retarded together! hahahaha they're totally funny together!

Oh oh and aaron brought his guitar and he was like playing and singing, woah, his singing blows you off your feet man! And he's so talented, any song he also know how to play! So anw aaron said that he wrote a song for jiaheng and would record and send him soon, so i was like "okok preview now preview now!" hahaha so he started singing, wah damn sweet the song. hahaha then the chorus went like "jiaheng.... jiaheng.... jiaheng... happy 21st!" and he asked us to chime in and we all for i dont know what reason all started crooning in our worst voice ever to jiaheng! HAHAHHAHA! and then there was the cheesy part where we had to sing "jiaheng" really sweetly, hahahha then jiaheng was like having goosepimples when he heard us! HAHAHAHHA!

did i ever mention how i knew aaron? hahahaha! one day after church i was walking to the tram stop and i saw aaron walking from the opposite direction and i was super happy to see him cos i THOUGHT he was the person i sat next to during an event and had lots of fun talking to, so i was like "HIII!!!!" and gave each other a great big hug and started talking really happily. Then only after we parted, did i realise that.... "hey........ thats not the guy who sat beside me................" then im like "oh shit, who's that i just hugged and talked to!" yah so thats how i got to know him. hahahahha! but he's very nice and friendly so i think he thought i was just one of the few people he talked to before just that he cant rmbr so he also respond to my warm greetings hahahahha! but he's awesome, always smiling and so sincere. haha!

SO anyway, the party was a blast cos I got to know people I was never really close with and I made new friends! And there was soooo much laughter during the singing session and fjust fooling around on jiaheng's uber comfy sofa! YAYS :D HAPPY 21 JIAHENG!!!!!! :D hahahha i rmbr when we were all leaving and giving our goodbye hugs, i told jiaheng "21 alr ah. adult alr" and everyone was like "hahahah! adult alr jiaheng!!" hahahah!

classic joke of the day: "Tricia said I'm too fat to hide in the laundry room so she dragged me to hide in the toilet!" HAHAHHAHAHAH, thats alvin for you.

Can't wait for urbs tomorrow! :D

I WANNA POST PICS UP :(

I had an absolute blast today! Outing with andrea, davin and joseph was awesome with truckloads of pictures. Church's praise and worship was sensational. Jiaheng's surprise birthday party was just, euphoric! :D can't wait to post all the pics plus blog abt everything! :D

hahahha even though im rly tired but im gonna blog everything now! YEAAAH I CANT WAIT FOR URBANLIFE TMRRR BABYYYYY :D

OMG! I'VE FINALLY FINISHED MYY EAP!!!! AND ITS 5.33AM NOW. I AM SO GONNA DIE LATER TRYING TO WAKE UP AT 11.30am. OMGG. I HOPE 1476 WORDS IS ENOUGH TO SUSTAIN ME FOR 6 MINUTES. I CAN'T BELIEVE I WROTE A NEAR 1500 WORDS FOR A BANKING + MORTGAGE SPEECH! I FEEL SO ACCOMPLISHED! HAHAHAHA AND IT WASNT THAT HARD AFTER ALL! IF ONLY HOI WAS THIS EASY. PFFTS.

YAY LATER IS PICTURE DAY WITH DARLING ANDREA, idiot AWESOME DAVIN AND FAB JOSEPH! woohoooooooo :D

And bling is leaving Sg at 10pm later to UK. I dont know why but I feel sad that she's leaving, like I'll miss her even more which is quite weird cos we're already miles apart. But nevertheless, I hope you'll have so much fun and learn so much and i'll give you all my moral support on your mugging! Hee! I love you gorgeous! AND I PROMISE TO MISS YOU EVERYDAY TOO!

ok zzz time.

i think by the time i procrastinate and everything, by the time i sleep its 6am alr. hahaha i might as well not sleep.

ok no, thats nuts. im so sleepy now.

What if, I just called you and tell you I miss you and hang up?

[c=36]¨¨™₪¤≈ƒŘÅĝмỄй†Ş≈¤₪™¨¨ my precious <3[/c] says:
do do do
[c=36]¨¨™₪¤≈ƒŘÅĝмỄй†Ş≈¤₪™¨¨ my precious <3[/c] says:
e massage is how long ar
doreeeeeeeeeeeeeen says:
yeah?
[c=36]¨¨™₪¤≈ƒŘÅĝмỄй†Ş≈¤₪™¨¨ my precious <3[/c] says:
sorry
doreeeeeeeeeeeeeen says:
15 mins?
doreeeeeeeeeeeeeen says:
30mins?
[c=36]¨¨™₪¤≈ƒŘÅĝмỄй†Ş≈¤₪™¨¨ my precious <3[/c] says:
haha
[c=36]¨¨™₪¤≈ƒŘÅĝмỄй†Ş≈¤₪™¨¨ my precious <3[/c] says:
thanks
[c=36]¨¨™₪¤≈ƒŘÅĝмỄй†Ş≈¤₪™¨¨ my precious <3[/c] says:
see u
doreeeeeeeeeeeeeen says:
i think so lah, 15dollars wont give you 45mins bah
[c=36]¨¨™₪¤≈ƒŘÅĝмỄй†Ş≈¤₪™¨¨ my precious <3[/c] says:
sorry to disturb ur 2%
doreeeeeeeeeeeeeen says:
IDIOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
[c=36]¨¨™₪¤≈ƒŘÅĝмỄй†Ş≈¤₪™¨¨ my precious <3[/c] says:
HAHHAA
ehhh tts to remind u its ''imprtance''
[c=36]¨¨™₪¤≈ƒŘÅĝмỄй†Ş≈¤₪™¨¨ my precious <3[/c] says:
hahaha


tell me how annoying this woman is. later going out alr, make me so good mood alr, now come and ka jiao me. wlau. 3am and im only at the introduction of my speech and she still can dig into it. so nice right. stupid laksa.

:D

I think I've just thought of the most perfect .... for .... oh so exciting!

OMGGGG I CANT WAIT FOR TMR!! :D

Andrea, Davin, Joseph and I are going to go for a massage, then lunch then to yarra river to just chill out and take stupid pictures! :D Been so long since the 4 of us went out on our own. I still remember when I first came it was always the four of us, the three of them accompanying me everywhere to help me settle down in melbourne, be it to buy home essentials, food, bank procedure, or just helping me find my way back home. Those days we ate on the floor over at davin's like beggars as quoted by joseph hahaha, and of course the most memorable one was when i had to lead them back to my house in quest of proving them that i've found my way and joseph had to pee soooo badly. hahahah! Yay ok I can't wait to go out with them 3! :D Srsly need to de-stress. I can feel the ache in my shoulder alr. And I've got a secret party going on later in the night..... :D :D :D Oh I cant wait for tomorrow! Esp church, maybe I'd get a confirmation. :)

[edit] Just hung up the phone with Roy. Wow, I felt like I learnt so much. He has helped me put my perspectives into position, helped me sort out some things that I've been confused with. I used to be very uptight about wanting to hear God clearly, wanting to feel him so badly that I get frustrated and impatient and it did falter my faith more often than it should have. But Roy told me to just enjoy this walk with God, to just make the best out of each and every moment with Him, don't rush things because he has his timings and plans for everything. He too taught me how to see God as a friend, a father more than just God-God. He really helped me much by putting everything into an alignment and it makes me feel like I can breathe and it also helped me see things that I've overlooked or even underestimated. Thank you Roy. :) [/edit]

How great is my God.

He never fail to amaze me. Today, just two hours ago, I was fretting over this pressing issue over something, about decisions I had to make and I called Andrea about it. Then we decided that I should call Roy about it, then Roy suggestested that I should call Adelene too about it but Adelene didn't pick up, so I called Katherine and she gave me guidance and advice and we hung up and I continued praying about that issue. Then suddenly I had this notion to open my notebook which I usually take notes on each sermon and events. And when I opened it, it re-confirmed everything that Katherine told me. :)

Ok, that's the compact size of everything, below is the extended version.

Tricia called me today saying that Jiaheng wants to do something different for this week's urbanlife, he wants to do a alter call. Basically alter call is like for the un-saved to be saved, for people to come to God, for those who don't know God to dedicate their life to God, to say the prayer to invite God into their lives. So Tricia asked me to bring my un-saved friends. So X and Y came into my mind, and afterwhile, so did Z.

However, I've once tried to talk to X about God and stuff, but X was really hard-headed about it, counter-attacked my every point and X was being really difficult to talk to and lets just say it didn't end on a good note, so since then it had been a sensitive topic. But on the fact that X and Y were the two people that came to my mind first, i think it means something, that I should do something about it. But I'm afraid, afraid to dig that unhappiness out again.

Then Z, I've also talked to Z about God stuff too, and she's interested as well. In fact, very interested. But there are some factors stopping her, some factors inducing fear upon her but I can really see and feel that she really wants to come to church with me, she's curious, she's interested and it's not like she has never been to God too. And if you ask me, I do think that her belief in God is actually stronger than when I first started out. But I haven't talked to Z about this for awhile and I don't really know how to broach this subject already. So I'm abit apprehensive too.

So at about 10pm, I started praying about it, asking God whom he wants me to bring to urbanlife on monday. Isit X and Y or isit Z? I prayed, worshipped, read his word but there was nothing, no replies from him. Although I had this feeling that it's Z I should bring, but I'm afraid that it's only because I myself know that it's easier to ask Z than to ask X and Y so I keep psycho-ing myself that God wants me to bring Z so I keep thinking of Z. So I got quite confused, quite frustrated, quite lost, quite direction-less. Then Andrea called me and we talked about it and we weighed through the pros and cons and decided that calling Roy would be good.

Roy suggested that I should call Adelene who is my urbanlife leader as well so that they could all keep me in their prayers. But Adelene didn't pick up her phone so I called Katherine and she told me that God can see that I'm already trying my best and that I should just leave the rest to Him and let Him shift in their lives. And she said that what I can do now is to pray for all 3 of them and God would let His will be done in His own powerful way. And she told me alot of others as well which made me feel so much better after that.

Then after we hung up, I started praying for the 3 of them and suddenly I had this notion to open my notebook. And I opened it and there it wrote in my handwriting,

"Don't try carrying all your burdens alone. God will help you, he'll share it with you. Don't overload yourself. Allow God to help you."

"You are at your best when you do what God created you to naturally do. Why walk with your legs when God has given you the wings to fly?"

And I started crying, because it re-confirmed everything that Katherine has just said to me. And this few weeks I had felt so dry inside, like God's not speaking to me at all, I didn't have any new visions, the bible didn't seem to speak so strongly to me anymore and I just felt so backslidden. But this is like a tornado of strength, a confirmation that I'm not forgotten and all my doubts should cease.

And later Roy is gonna call me to talk to me about some things and I'm really looking forward to that call because I know it's gonna teach me so much. I don't care if I'm sacrificing my EAP speech time to do this because I know God's gonna come through for me, again. :)

I was browsing through friendster a few moments ago and was at Eeling's profile and saw this picture. The two of them, Theresa and Eeling used to always come over to my place for a swim. So much so that bling just left her float over at my place cos we all know that there'll never be a last swim at my place. I saw one of bling's picture whereby she compiled all our picnic picture into a collage and it was captioned "we never say goodbye" which made me teared up abit cos it was so sweet. :) Then suddenly I hear theresa's infectious hearty laughter that always cracks everyone up and then I see a flashback of them waking up after stayingover at my place after prom. The moment they woke up they started fighting and squabbling with eachh other which had belle and i in fits of laughter. :) This picture seemed so long ago. I still remember Theresa asking me if I had a shirt to lend her, and I still remember asking bling why she had a NYJC shirt and she told me it belonged to her sis. The two of them have grown to be two such gorgeous ladies in a short span of time and I'm so proud to have once dragonboat-ed with them, starbuck-ed with them, went on shopping + eating trips with them, sleepovers with them, "granny night" with them, study with them, celebrating how we all got 11 for o levels together - and I look forward to many many more such awesome days. :)

Few more days till you fly over to England for your Cambridge programme dear eeling! Take care my dearest and enjoy your LENGTHY flight. Remember to keep yourself warm on the flight cos it tends to freeze after awhile! Hope you'd be able to adjust to the time lapse between England and Singapore, hope you'd be able to savour all kinds of food, hope you'd be able to learn from there what Singapore doesn't offer. And if you encounter any problems like that time in your NUS programme, (HAHAHHA) you can email me! Take many many many many many pictures! Once again, take care of yourself and enjoy yourself!! <333

I miss you girls so much! Hahaha suddenly I wanna go dragonboat-ing with you girls! Boo :(